-VEGA
Sikowitz liked all of our scripts and Jade and I's romance script was among the top three… We were top two Hahaha. Well it's been two days and now's the due date for our script writing assignment. We've done this before Andre, Beck, and Cat were my group mates. Unfortunately, we didn't finish it on time so we got a C minus…
Jade and I didn't talked to each other or even said hi when we see each other. She confuses me most of the time, there are certain events where she is very nice to me and certain events where she's mean to me and some other days wherein she ignores me and treats me like an outsider. I don't know why I love this girl… Seriously.
I was about to approach Andre when I felt a hand on my right shoulder. I turned around and I saw Beck smiling at me. Wow he seems happy. He's been calling me and well courting me (without my approval) for the past few days. I already told him that I like someone else and I only think of him as my good friend. But he insisted and told me to at least give him a chance and continue courting me. Obviously I don't know what to do with him so I just… Let him do his thing.
"Hi Beck" I casually greeted him as I continue to walk through the halls. I didn't approached Andre since im just going to say hi to him so I decided to go to my next class. I think Beck and I have the same class that's why he went with me, "Let's go to our class together" he suggested, "Sounds like a plan" I agreed.
"Are you busy tonight? he asked, I glance at him and he's smiling at me, "Why are you asking?" he shrugged his shoulders, "Maybe I can drop by and say hello, nothing freaky or anything" he replied. "Nah my parents are coming home today so Trina and I are going to welcome them. I mean it's been weeks since we last saw them… I missed them so much" that was a lie but I don't really want him to come over. We went inside the class and he faced me.
"Oh that's awesome, maybe some other time then… Tell your parents I said hi ok?" he patted my head and sat on the last chair. He never gives up doesn't he? Actually my parents aren't coming home till Friday and its Wednesday today so I just reasoned out. I know he's not just going to 'drop by' and say hello to me.
I'm not doing well these past few days. I kept thinking why and how I fell for Jade and why she's avoiding me and trying to put different attitudes towards me. I seriously don't understand her. She's making it difficult for me to face my feelings for her. One of the reasons why im afraid of my feelings is because I don't know… If Jade is not straight or she's straight.
I might embarrass myself in front of her if I tell her what I feel. She might laugh at it and record it and tell it to everyone… It will end my dignity for sure.
Most of my friends noticed that im not fine and im always dozing off somewhere, they told me I look like im somewhere else. My body's with them but my mind is elsewhere. They asked me if im ok and I told them I'll be fine. I need help… I can't just keep this to myself. I'll go crazy like Andre's grandma.
Speaking of Andre, he's been bugging me about 'the person' that I like or love. I can't tell him. It's not that I don't trust him it's just that, he won't like it.
I didn't notice that the bell already rang until I felt someone tap me in the shoulder. Of course it was Beck. He looks worried. I need to get myself fixed. I need to make them believe that im fine even if I have to act like it.
"Tori are you sure you're ok? Look you can tell us what's wrong with you… We'll all listen" the bell rang which means that it's lunch time, "You guys worry too much im just hungry" I forced a smile and he smiled back to me. I guess I am a pretty good actress aren't I? He went with me to the asphalt café and as usual I hear whispering and buzzing whenever we pass through the hallways… I swear I wanted to rip their tongues out and stick it to their nose.
Every one of our friends is waiting for us, I saw Jade but she didn't look at us. Is she mad at me because beck is constantly trying to court me? I hope not.
"Hi Toro! How you doin?" I sat next to Robbie, "Im good, hey where's rex?" he wasn't holding a puppet on his right arm which is kind of odd because I got used to him having Rex around. "I left him home because he wants to watch the whole star wars trilogy. Are you ok?"
"Aww not you too! Every one's asking me the same question" I chuckled, "You look fine to me, but just so you know. You can trust me Hahaha" he let out a laugh, "I'll keep that in mind"
The day went well and Jade is still on the process of ignoring me and considering me as an outsider. She never talks to me, she never says hi to me, and she doesn't even look at me. It's like im a new person and she has no idea who I am. I have to admit that it hurts… Being ignored by someone you love.
I was about to go home but beck got in my way. He offered me a ride home but I politely declined. I told him Trina's going to drive me home so we can both plan for our parents surprise welcoming party. And he believed my lie. But truthfully I was going to walk home because Trina's going to a birthday party. Yup you gotta love my sister.
I am walking right now but I think im unlucky today because I heard a thunder and it looks like it's about to rain. Im not even close to my home yet. I can still see the Hollywood Arts sign. I heard another thunder and this time it finally rained. 'Great you didn't bring your umbrella cause you said it's sunny'
I had no choice but to walk on my way home while the rain is pouring hard on the streets. I swear when Trina comes home, we will have another argument. I don't care if we have to yell all night. This is her fault for not telling me earlier that she's attending a party.
I heard a car horn on my back so I stepped aside. I looked at the car and I can't be wrong. It's Jade's car… She opened the car's window and looked at me. Oh I think she's going to laugh at me cause im soaking wet and im walking home.
"Vega? What the chizz are you crazy? Why didn't you take the bus?" she sounds worried for a minute but I didn't pour a lot of attention to it, "Jade can you just run along and get to your Victorian house head to your gothic room and mind your own business" I hissed, "Whoa what's with the grunge? Come on in I'll stop the car" what? WHAT? What the chizz is wrong with her? Seriously God I want to hit her with a hammer. Now she's acting like she cares and she's volunteering to drive me home. I looked at her and I can see that she's serious about it. 'Don't be fooled, she's a great actress'
"Are you going to stare at me all day? Cause we won't get to your house if you continue doing that. Hop in I don't have a lot of time" she muttered, "No thank you, you don't have to play nice and force yourself to be kind towards me" I continue to walk down the streets. I hate her. She knows how to play with my mind. I can't believe she's doing this to me. I know I should be happy that she's actually paying attention to me and she actually cares that's why she volunteered to give me a ride but no. We can't continue being like this. I can't because it will drive me insane.
"Do I have to force you to get inside?"
"No and drive safely"
Nice try Jade but no. I won't fall into one of your tricks again you evil Goth. I felt someone grab my arm. I turned around and it's Jade. She parked her car beside the street and went out of the car just to grab my arm and push me inside the passenger's seat. Alright… she went out of the rain, now she's wet. She did that just to make me get inside the car. 'Jade stop making me fall harder'
"I swear Vega, I don't know what's wrong with you but you're lucky im not feeling like a gank today"
"You don't have to force me to ride with you" I protested, "Where are your manners? Can you at least say thank you. You got me soaking wet. It's because of your stubbornness" she yelled, " Well thank you and Sorry WEST! I should have been a good friend to you by getting inside your car without being forced… Are you happy now?"
"Well now the seats are wet too" Oh my god kill me. I can't deal with her she's making me cry out of confusion and frustration. She looked at me and I can see confusion in her eyes as well, "Why aren't you talking? Are you cold? You know this wouldn't have happened if you got inside the car instantly. You know… WITHOUT BEING FORCED" I glared at her. She's seriously going to push this? Blaming me that it's my entire fault why she stopped her car, she's soaking went from the rain, and why her car seats are wet as well. Please someone take her away from me. I don't want to go to jail. Im still young I have dreams and hopes.
"Why are you out here anyway? Where's your loud sister?"
She took off her black leather Jacket and wrapped it around me. She took me by surprised. I didn't expect her to do this. This is beyond my imagination. I feel like a damsel being saved by a strong female knight. I loved her even more. Knowing that she can care like this. She started the engine of the car.
"Vega are you deaf or something? Im talking to you" she spoke even louder this time, "She went to a party" I casually said, "She didn't let you know?" she focused her attention on the road, "She did but it was too late"
"Why didn't you take a bus?"
"There is no bus stop around my house"
"And you didn't even bring an umbrella with you?" she asked again, "Why do you care?" she didn't answer me, my home wasn't that far but because there's a traffic it's taking a while for me to get there. The silence is killing me.
"Jade?" I muttered, almost sounding like a whisper "Yeah?" she replied, "Why are you avoiding me?" it took her a while to answer, "I am not avoiding you"
"Yes you are" I whispered, "No im not" I didn't think that she'll hear it but she did, "But you are. I can feel it" I protested as I try not to turn our conversation into an argument, "Look if I was avoiding you I wouldn't be sitting in our table" she reasoned out, "But why aren't you talking to me?" I asked her again, "Because we have nothing to talk about"
"You can at least say hi to me!"
"HI TORI VEGA! There are you happy now? Now quit asking questions and shut up"
I looked at the window and I saw the rain pouring down it actually looks nice. I won't lie but im upset with Jade. She said that there's nothing to talk about? She can at least say hi to me or look at me. Like what she usually says 'Hey' a simple hey means a lot to me already.
"You don't even look at me, it's like im an outsider and you don't know me. Seriously, what's your deal?" I looked at her and she's still focusing on the road. We're caught in a traffic jam because there's a construction going on. It took her a while before looking back at me and opening her mouth, "Why the chizz would I look at you? Seriously, I already made it clear that I am not avoiding you or else I'll be sitting in a different table, and I am not talking to you because we have nothing to talk about, im not saying hi because god Vega im always late for my classes. Are you ok now? Are you happy that you got what you wanted?"
"Well I thought you were mad at me so I-"
"Will you quit thinking about it? I am not mad, I was never mad but im starting to get mad at you because of what you're doing. You're being a paranoid. God rest your soul and stop over thinking"
That actually made me laugh which caused her to give me a death glare but who cares? I just find it amusing when she rants about something. She looks cute when she's mad. She looks cute when she's trying to prove her point. No it's not scary at all. I am laughing because now I know that she's not mad at me and we're in good terms, "Continue laughing and I'll push you out of the car" she threatened me, "Alright im Hahaha im sorry Hahaha It wont Hahaha Oh my god Hahaha"
"Three, Two, One"
"Alright, alright im over it" I wouldn't want to upset her. She might do something terrible to me. Of course she wouldn't push me out of the car. But she'll do something less terrible alright. The whole car fell into a deep silence once again. But right now I am not feeling down or upset towards Jade. It is actually the opposite. See how she can affect my mood in a split second?
"It's getting cold here"
"Do you want your Jacket back? I'm not cold anymore" I offered, but she shook her head as a no, "Keep it im fine"
"When will you stop lying to me Jade West?" she looked at me and smirked. Ok what the chizz did I do? Is she going to do something wrong to me? I don't like her smirk. "You called my entire name? Really?" she asked, "Yeah? So?" I asked back, "Nothing, I can't believe you're standing up against me"
"Is that a good thing or a bad thing?"
"Stop talking"
"Seriously what is up with you?" she rolled her eyes at my question, "Not again I swear Vega" she spoke, "Jade?"
"WHAT?"
"Why did you force me to get inside your car?"
-WEST
Her questions are harder than the questions that I took when I was entering Hollywood Arts. She's pulling my nerve. Let's see… These past few days I was ignoring her and im succeeding but… I saw how absent minded she is most of the time. I am still looking at her but only when she's spacing out.
Im kind of worried about her but I forced myself not to care and not to ask her why, also because beck is always with her. I am not going to lie to myself but I am jealous of Beck. God knows how much I wanted to stab him in the heart and donate it to my favorite hospital.
He's taking it to the next level he is checking out on her seeing if she's ok or whatsoever, offering a drive home, and calling her when he has the time. I can see all of his efforts. I know he's serious about Tori. He confessed to me once that if we weren't together he would have liked Tori even more.
That's one of the reasons why I continued to avoid her and ignore her as well but when I saw her walking down the streets while soaking wet in the rain. I couldn't help but to offer her a ride. I know that she gave me a cold shoulder and she snapped back at me and I couldn't blame her for acting that way.
Although I thought to myself that this is my chance to be with her and to be able to know what's up so I forced her to get inside the car even if I got wet from the rain. I missed her so much so I couldn't help but to ask her some questions.
"You look like a homeless person walking through the rain, I feel sorry for you that's why I forced you to get in the car" I lied, "Oh really? Well you deserved to get wet then" it made me chuckle but I didn't let her hear it, "Anyway Cat, Andre, Beck, and Robbie kept asking me why you were so glum and absent minded for these past few days. I kept telling them that I don't know but you were always our topic"
"Well nothing really im just tired and well I sort of miss my parents and im always alone in the house. Not that im feeling lonely it's just that I feel like I need a break" she explained, "Sucks to be you" I muttered.
"Shut up" I heard her laugh. I miss hearing her laugh and it feels so good to know that she's laughing because of me. 'Damn it you need to distance yourself West!' I said to myself. That's right, keep it cool.
"News Flash Jade West is curious why Tori Vega is constantly being absent minded" she chuckled, "You did not just said that"
"But I did, didn't I?" she protested, "It wasn't me, it was Cat, Beck, Robbie, and Andre im just getting sick of them cause they were always talking about you"
"Sure you do"
"Shut up already we're almost there"
It didn't take long till we finally reached the Vega residence. I don't want this to end cause im having fun being with her but I have to keep my feelings stable remember, I can't fall for her it's a huge risk and it's not the good kind.
"Well thank you Jade" she said as I help her walk out of my car, "Yeah Bye"
"Bye..."