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"Jade! I got the-"
"WHAT?!" I looked at the perky little redhead and she looked so pale. I must have scared her because of my sudden reaction, "I was just going to say that I prepared everything in your garden… Geez… Why do you look so…"
"Stressed like im dying because I look like im nervous? NO I am not nervous!" I cut her off, "…. weird? I was about going to say weird but you cut me off again. What is wrong with you?" she asked, "What is wrong with me? Cat I am going to sing her a song… What if she didn't like it?" I protested. I walked around the room while trying to compose myself together, "Don't worry about your performance I can tell that she's going to love it!" she squealed, and suddenly she felt her phone rang, "Yes hello?" she said. "Aww hazelnuts I'll be right there, and don't touch the stove!" she hang up.
"What was that all about?"
"I told Robbie to cook the pasta but he accidentally drained it in the sink… Now we need to cook it all over again. PLEASE DON'T BE MAD AT ME IT WAS ROBBIE!" she said defensively, "What do you expect? that guy can't even zip his own pants. Just hurry up and finish the preparation"
"Aye Aye Captain!" she giggled and went outside the room.
I let out a deep sigh as I hear the door closed. Tonight is the night, Cat and Robbie are preparing the dinner at my garden, Andre helped me finish composing my song yesterday and Beck convinced Tori to stay in the asphalt cafe till seven o clock. I guess everything is set, all I need to do is to get out there and rock the the stage. I gathered all of my things and went outside the room. I need to get my confidence back, the old me is not afraid to sing in front of so many people, the old me doesn't care whether they like the song or not. The new me however, only have one ultimate goal for tonight. And that's Tori's reaction. I want her to love it, like is not enough. I don't care about my grade for this activity, all I ever wanted is for her to appreciate my song.
When I reached the asphalt cafe. It was crawling with so many people. Some of them came from the other school and some of them were alumnus. I guess that's a good thing, it's the perfect time to announce my feelings for Vega, don't you think?
Speaking of Vega, I saw her talking to Beck near the stage. Im going to admit that I still feel jealous when I see them together but not that much anymore. She looks so cute, her hair is wavier and she's wearing a grey jacket plus she's wearing sandals which is sort of weird because I got used to her wearing her brown boots. I want to approach her but I don't have any idea what to say to her. For some reason, Beck noticed me and Tori followed his gaze. I looked away immediately. I think I wouldn't be able to handle it if we have eye to eye contact. I'll freeze. I felt someone pat my left shoulder and when I turned around it was Beck.
"Where's Tori? Why did you leave her?"
"Well nice to see you too" he laughed, "So how's everything? Are you prepping up?"
"Yeah it was under control, so what did she say?" I asked, "She was wondering why I told her to come to this place. It's hard to reason out to her because her curiosity is just too strong" I laughed. That could not be more true. "Yeah well thank you anyway for bringing her here" he gave me a thumbs up. I heard sinjin calling my name, which means the program is about to start. Andre's in his piano and so is the rest of his band. Everyone's in their seats including Vega. She was in the front row, I reserved it for her.
"Relax, break a leg Jade" he smiled. I smiled back at him. He went back to his seat next to Vega. I took a deep breath, "Bring back the old Jade" I said to myself. I was going to be the last one to perform. There are five people who's going to sing a song for tonight. I don't really know who they were I think they belong in the lower level. I texted Cat to see if everything is ok in the house. It didn't took her a while to reply to my text.
After a couple of minutes, It's my turn. I am actually sweating like a pig but it didn't bother me. Sinjin announced my name meaning It's my turn to sing, I can hear the crowd howling and clapping their hands continuously as I walk up to the stage. Tori was looking for me and it made me smile. I cleared my throat and I heard the band play the song.
You think you know me
But you don't know me
You think you own me
But you can't control me
I was only looking at her. I can hear the loud crowd cheering at me even Beck who was actually howling, but no… I only focused my attention to her. I want her to feel this song.
You look at me
And there's just one thing that you see
So listen to me
Listen to me
I screamed the last part which made the crowd insane, she was just staring at me. Her eyes were shining, she only have her eyes focused on me and not breaking our gaze. She wasn't cheering with the crowd or dancing in the song. She was just there, looking at me like we're the only ones existing in the world.
You push me back
I push you back
Harder, harder
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder, l-l-l-l-louder
I remember everything about us while I was singing this song, she was tough but I've always showed her that I am tougher. She tried to befriend me but I pushed her harder, I did everything I could to keep her away from me but no. There is always something that is keeping us close to each other. We were like a magnet, we can not be separated.
I'm dangerous, I'm warning you
But you're not afraid of me
And I can't convince you
You don't know me
I showed her how mean I can be, that im vicious and I can not be tamed. Yet she stayed, she was there. She helped me even though I denied for a hundredth time that we weren't friends, she was there when I needed her and she didn't asked anything in return except for my friendship. But now, she got something more than just being friends. She took my heart and im not even aware of it.
You think you got me
But you don't get me
You think you want me
But you don't know what you're getting into
Now that I feel into her trap. I will make sure that she falls into my trap too. Once she falls for me she will never be able to get back up without my help. I will make her mine. I can't just let her go away.
There's so much more to me
then what you think you see
So listen to me
Just listen to me
We were looking at each other intently, we weren't minding the crowd or the noise that they're creating. We feel like we're the only ones in the area. Her chocolate brown eyes are trying to say something but I can't figure it out.
You push me back
I push you back
Harder, harder
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder, l-l-l-l-louder
I have no idea how it all started, I just woke up one day thinking to myself "Oh my god, Im in love with tori vega. My frenemy, the girl who I hated but... It happened " I tried to stop myself, I pushed her even harder. Harder to the point that I hurt her so bad… And it broke me when I found out that I was the reason why it happened.
I'm dangerous, I'm warning you
But you're not afraid of me
And I can't convince you
You don't know me
Then I suddenly realized that I can't push her, I can't keep her away. Now I know why I can't avoid her… If she gave up on me I wouldn't fall for her like this. It was bitter sweet but liking Tori Vega or loving her wasn't that bad. It was magical and impossible in any angle… Yet it did happen.
And the longer that you stay, the ice is melting
And the pain feels okay, it feels okay
I am holding back my tears. I want her, I want her beside me, I want to see her smiling and giggling, I want her to wiggle her eyebrows at me, I want to see her dorky side every single day, I want to see her blushing when I say something intimate to her. I would love to be the caused of all that. I want to be her everything.
You push me back
I push you back
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder
This time I broke my gaze, I looked at the crowd and they were all shouting and screaming my name. It felt good for a while. I smiled and sang even louder. I want to shake these tears before it completely fall out of my eyes.
You push me back
I push you back
Harder, harder
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder, l-l-l-l-louder
I looked at her again, she's smiling now. I smiled as well. But it didn't last long. I closed my eyes as I sing the last verse.
I'm dangerous, I'm warning you
But you're not afraid of me
And I can't convince you
And I don't have to
I opened my eyes… And I can see her staring at me… Those chocolate eyes that would always get me.
I think you know me….
-VEGA
"That was fantastic!" he said, I just gave him a slight nod to let him know that im listening to him. But even though my body is with him, my mind is elsewhere... It's with Jade, and about the song that she sang a while ago.
I have a feeling that it's for me, it's so bold... It's like she wants me to inhale all of the lyrics and all of the words that she sang in that song. It's like she wanted me to know that... That she loves me? I don't know im confused. I don't want her to hurt me all over again that's why im not assuming anything.
"Tori? Are you still there?" I snapped out of my thoughts only to find out that Beck was smiling in front of me while waving his hand in front of my face, "Yeah... Im just little tired that's all" half of it was true, I feel worn out. He looks satisfied with my answer because he pulled me out of my seat and took me to the punch area. He asked me if I want one but I told him no. Im not in the mood to drink right now. I was looking for Jade. I was caught up in the moment that I didn't know where she went. The only thing I know is that she sang the last part with those beautiful eyes of hers that completely left me in haze.
Honestly, im a little upset because she hasn't asked me out yet. I mean she did a lot of things to prove to me that she likes me back but even though she did all of those stuff (specially the one when we're in the ferris wheel) Im still not convinced that our feelings are mutual. Im not saying that I wanted more or that I didn't like what she did to me earlier. God knows how happy I am when she told me that she'll chase me no matter where I go. But my point is... She said a lot of things to me but those are only words. All I ever wanted is for her to ask me out.
I am getting lost in my thoughts when I felt someone grab my arm and lead me somewhere out of the asphalt cafe. I feel attacked so I tried to let go of his grasp but he wouldn't let me, he's too strong, "Let me go!" I cried but still no answer. I tried to break out of his grasp again but it's no use. when we we're out on the parking lot he finally faced me but he's wearing a mask.
"Quit yelling! It's not like im going to rape you or something" I recognize that voice. He finally took his mask of and I was right... It was Jade. I thought he was a he, "Why did you brought me here? What are you going to do?" I was a little bit upset because she made me worry, I thought something bad is going to happen to me, "Relax we're just going somewhere" she opened her car's door and motioned me to get in. That is so gentle of her. I looked at her and I saw her roll her eyes, "Get in Vega, I don't do this everyday" so I got in, not knowing what's going to happen if I actually obey her. She went inside her car and put her seat belt on, "You haven't put your seat belts on yet? What is wrong with you?" She groaned.
She leaned close to me so she can hooked my seat belt together, she's only a few inches away from me and I can smell her vanilla scent, the one that attracts me whenever she's close to me. What kind of heavenly punishment is this? When she finally managed to hook my seat belts together, she didn't went back to her seat immediately. Wanna know what she did? She looked at me in the eyes, we were looking at each other's eyes intently and once again I am lost, like a stray dog looking for his dog house. I'll never get tired of looking at her blue-green orbs. No matter how many times I get lost in it, it wouldn't matter.
She broke our gaze and let out a huge sigh. I did the same thing but I focused my attention on the road. She started the engine and went on our way. It was a quiet ride, probably one of the longest ride I've ever experienced except for of course, the fourty-five minute drive that I had with Trina. But during our ride I took the opportunity to steal some glances at her, she looks nervous but I shook it out of my head immediately. Why would she be nervous? It should be the other way around, because knowing Jade, she might pull a prank on me.
I noticed that we arrived at her house, what the freaking chizz are we going to do in her house? I raised my eyebrows as I watch her open the door of her car, why is she being so nice to me all of a sudden? She raised her eyebrows as well. I went out of the car and she lead me inside of her mansion. We are holding hands, she entwined her fingers with mine and I felt my cheeks flush. Whatever it is that's happening right now I don't want it to stop.
We went to her garden. But what I saw in there took me in surprise, "Did you do all of this?" I asked almost whispering the words that she might not be able to hear me, but I guess she did. "No I didn't do all of it," she paused "Cat and Robbie helped me but the idea is mostly mine" she explained. I heard her clear her throat as if she is longing to ask me something. "Did you like it?" she asked. I glance at her and her cheeks are bright red. I smirked, she looks so cute, ugh why is she doing this?
"No..." her reaction became dense, "Crap" she muttered "Im going to skin that redhead alive" I laughed at her reaction considering that she took some advice from Cat. "I didn't like it, not at all" I continued. For some reason, she look like she was torn apart and I have to admit that it's heart breaking. I move towards her, not breaking our gaze from each other, she looked away and I grinned. Who knew that I can affect her like this?
When Im only three steps away from her, I held her chin and made her look into my eyes again. She gulped, her reaction is so precious. I've never seen her act like this before, "I didn't like it Jade..." I paused, "I love it"