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Author- -POTTER.loves.EVANS-

Disclaimer- Jk Rowling owns all Harry Potter things as in characters and places except the ones I made up. God and now she's gone and finished it, the end, boom no more! No! Nooooooooooo! Oh well thank god for fanfiction (does moonwalk even though she doesn't know how but you don't know that… oh no wait now you do!)

Dedications- Where would I be without my darling reviewers eh? The truth is, I dunno because I have my reviewers so I don't know where I'd be without them, only god knows! But anyway I thank you all and dedicate this chapter for you! Honestly you's are all gorgeous okay? Don't let anyone tell you otherwise; other wise there will be this big Harry Potter mob coming up the insultee's driveway… yeah…

Notes- Just read and review, read and review. Oi! I'm still waiting for the first reviewer to say they'd LOVE to be my beta. First one gets it! Oh come on! Think of it as a prize! Just pretend its the Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince movie coming out yeah? Cool… except its like not that and yeah. Think how excited you are… yeah I'm watching you, I'm watching you! Maybe not me but Remus lent me his army of chocolate and they're everywhere like… like… chocolate or something you know what I mean? Yeah…

Chapter 9! The one I've been waiting to write! Here it is!

Two weeks later and James is still in a foul mood. Nothing will make him happy, not even flying! Trust me, I tried to get Sirius to get him out there but James wasn't concentrating and nearly flew into a tree, and then the goal-posts and then he almost flew into Sirius who was going in the opposite direction.

I've figured it out. He's upset about the fight with Carly. That's why he's been distant because he's upset. James must really love her… and that hurts. That hurts a lot.

God this is so annoying. Why can't he just get over her and dump her? She's not going to last long until she see's someone else, and I'll be there for him with a shoulder to cry on, because that's what he'd do for me. Because he's my mate, my, my I dunno! But I just can't stop thinking about him! I can't concentrate in class! I was thinking about how he smells like pines and the outdoors and then I realized I was in a bloody test and I'd only done half of it and I'd been thinking about him for roughly 15-20 minutes.

God that pisses me off! He sits there with his eyes all glistened over and oh god he thinks about that stupid Carly and I'm thinking about… him. Imagine if he dumped her. He'd be like "Lily! I made a mistake, it's you I want to be with, and I love you!"

…

Okay maybe not. He'd be like- "Lily, I made a mistake and now I know what I want. Its you, Lily. Always will be, has been for a long time"

Or something like that. He'll say it with some weirdo pick up line he might've heard out of a movie. But that's James for you.

"James!" I called and hurried down the hall to him.

"God Lily you scared me! I thought you were Carly running up to tell me to walk like a proper gentlemen" we both laughed and I said; "Yeah well, you don't walk too bad. Least you don't slouch like a sloth. I should call you slouchy sloth" I said and playfully punched his shoulder.

"Don't you dare" he said. But the whole time I couldn't help but notice he didn't smile, the whole time except when we laughed. But it wasn't his usual laugh. It was his laugh for something he doesn't really find funny but laughs anyway. He also has a laugh that lights up his face, like something's really funny. Also when he's nervous its something like hehehe… yeah its funny. Also when he has a sarcastic laugh. When he's like; haha "you're so funny"… Oh gosh that's embarrassing. I can remember all his laughs and im standing here smiling… and he's looking at me weirdly.

"Lily? You okay?" he asked. Great, he's back to grumpy mood.

"James?"

"What?" he asked turning and looking at me. I stopped.

"Why did you fight with Carly? Is that why you're upset?"

"What? How did you-"

"That doesn't matter and don't answer a question with a question, answer with an answer"

He frowned, he seemed to be taking it all in. "Yeah something like that" he answered and began to walk away, but I'm not giving up that easy.

"Why did you's fight?"

"Why do you need to know everything?"

"You answered my question with a question, James"

"So?"

"So it annoys me"

"Yeah but you like do that too sometimes"

"Touché"

He looked at me. "Look just forget about it Lily"

"No. You're my friend and I want to know why you're so angry okay? It worries me. You're not listening in class, you're not concentrating in Quidditch practice, you don't really listen to me… what's wrong James?"

"Its… complicated" he said glancing at me.

"I have all day" I said and stopped again, making him stop.

"But you have classes and you need to attend them and-"

"James when I said I have all day, I meant it. My friends come before school, always. I'd take the Avada Kedava for them, you know that"

James winced.

"James, talk to me now" I said glaring at him.

"God Lily you're making this hard for me!" he said angrily, shocking me.

"Well I'm sorry! I'm just trying to help you and-"

"I don't need you're help! I don't need anyone's help!"

"That's bullshit James and you know it! You need you're friends! They're here for you but you're just ignoring that! We're all worried about you!"

"Yeah right!"

"Well if I didn't care then why did I butter you're toast for you when Carly dragged you away to walk with her. What kind of girlfriend doesn't let her boyfriend eat James? I cared! I could have just let you go and thought; "Oh he'll be fine!" But I didn't! I know you James! I care about you because you're my friend! And you're other friends care too!"

"Look, Lily you're making this hard on me!"

"Yeah and you're making it hard for me too! We're friends James, friends tell each other what's wrong with them! That's what you should do!"

"There's nothing wrong with me!"

"That's crap and you know it! I'm sick of you're moody tempers and I've tried to help you but you're not making it easy!"

"I don't care"

"You only care about Carly? Is that why you're so angry? Because you's had a fight? Well it's over now James she's okay with it why can't you be?"

"Of course she'd be okay with it!" James said angrily.

"You're confusing me!" I said softly.

"God dammit Lily! You don't understand!"

"Then let me!" I grabbed his hand to stop him from turning away.

He sighed and closed his eyes, then opened them again.

"We can't be friends anymore Lily"

"You don't mean that" I said, the shock too much for me.

"Yes, I do"

"James I'm sorry! I take back whatever I said!"

"You didn't say anything, its, its just you!"

"That explains everything!" I said sarcastically. "I take that back"

"Look, Lily it's just you! I can't be around you anymore okay?"

"Why? Is it because I'm Muggleborn James? Is that why?"

"How can you say that?" he yelled.

"Easy! I just open my mouth and words come out!"

"Stop being a smart arse! I've defended you! I cared for you! Whenever a Slytherin called you that stupid disgusting word, who defended you first? Who always defended you?"

"You did" I said feeling bad. I never meant that muggleborn remark, it just slipped out.

"That's right Lily! Everyone else jus kept on walking but I stopped and defended you, even when I hated you and was so angry with you because you'd get on my nerves and we'd just had a fight, but I still defended you!"

"Okay, okay I get it!"

"Well what more do you bloody want?"

"I want you… to tell me what's wrong! You won't talk to me James!"

"Look, it… it doesn't matter! But I can't be friends with you anymore!"

"So that's it?"

"Yeah"

"Fine"

"Fine!"

And just like that, we walked out of each other's life…

Two months later…

"Lily you can't keep avoiding him!" Becky said as we sat in the Common room a week before Christmas.

"I can avoid Potter if I want to, and I will" I replied stubbornly.

"Well, this is hard on all of us Lily, not just you" Emm stated.

"I know that" I replied.

"This is ridiculous! Go and say you want to be friends again!" Emm cried getting down on her knees in front of me.

"Emm! He doesn't care! He chose not to be my friend! He said it to me!"

"You's were fighting so he just said words he didn't mean" Becky said pulling Emm up.

"Lily he cares about you, you care about him!" she said and I shook my head.

"No I don't"

"Oh god you're so stubborn! Lily, ever since the fight two months ago you both haven't concentrated! You've both been avoiding each other! We all sit apart from them at meals! It's not fair!" Emm said tears pouring down her face.

"I didn't tell you to sit apart! You's just did! I'm not stopping you from hanging out with them! If you want to, you can that's fine by me because they're you're friends too"

"I want us to be like we used to be" Becky said and I sighed. "Well that's not going to happen!"

"Well, can't you sit there and not say anything to him?" Emm asked.

"No!"

"Well you manage it at Prefects meetings"

"So? They're Prefect meetings"

"Lily he tried to apologize but you didn't listen to him!"

"Good"

"No Lily it's not good! You both miss hanging out with each other! In class its always so quiet! Its not fair! We don't talk to them because t\we're all avoiding each other! And I miss Remus!"

"Well go hang out with him! I'm not stopping you!"

"Yes you are Lily! Because I'm not leaving you on your own!"

"You can too! It doesn't matter if you leave me alone just as long as you see Remus!"

"No Lily! The three of us made a pact remember? It's all of us or none of us. One for all and all for one remember?"

I sighed.

"Lily, I love Remus. He loves me too. I know it. I can feel it!"

"Well why are you telling me? I'm not Remus! You should be telling him!

"Fine! But just hear me out Lily; "You can't avoid James forever"

"Can too" I replied.

"Lily you idiot! You are so stubborn! You have to open the ball on Christmas with him! You's have to dance together!" Becky said angrily.

"So? I'll manage"

"Lily, I never thought I'd say this, but… I miss Sirius"

There was silence and I raised my eyebrows. "As in what way?"

"He… we… we don't fight anymore! We don't talk anymore! And James is my cousin and I feel excluded! It's like he thinks I'm on your side! But I'm not! I'm trying to be on both but he won't let me"

"Who won't let you?" I asked.

"James" she said.

"Well I'll tell him to include you"

"How you don't even talk to him? You avoid him Lily!"

"I'll still tell him!"

"Why Lily? Because you miss him too?"

"No"

"BULLSHIT! You miss him and you know it! You're just too god dam stubborn to realize it! You're both stubborn! Look there's something in common for you both! Go talk about that! Just talk about something! Anything to make you's friends again"

"I'll tell him not to exclude you from now"

"Lily, you don't understand"

"Of course I understand! I understand more then you! I understand more then Emm! I understand more then James!"

"Why do you say that?"

"Because he doesn't know"

"Doesn't know what Lily?" Emm asked.

"She's being unfaithful to him! She's cheating with Jayden Bradfield"

"But that was just a rumor"

"The pregnancy part was a rumor. But I caught them together and she knows I know"

"Well tell James!"

"He won't listen to me Becky! He won't!"

"Fine! Let's, let's just sit down and… and think. It's Christmas, we shouldn't be fighting" Becky said and I felt bad.

"I'm sorry guys, I really am"

Becky nodded, "I just didn't think I'd miss Sirius so much"

"Guys, I'm gonna go tell Remus" Emm said and we looked at her.

"Go get him tiger" I said smiling. She gave me a small smile and left. She went up to the boy's dormitory and knocked on the door.

When Remus opened it Emm threw herself on him and kissed him, taking him by surprise.

"I love you" she said softly when she pulled away and he grinned.

"I love you too Emm, so much" They grinned and hugged tightly.

I saw Sirius look out and cheer, and Becky grinned.

"Go on" I said softly and she hugged me.

"Thank you Lily!"

"I never thought I'd see the day" I said and she laughed. "Me too!"

She ran up there, dodged Remus and Emm and threw herself into his arms.

"I've missed you! We haven't had a fight in weeks! That's way too long"

Sirius chuckled. "Yeah I know. Still wanna take me up on that broom closet offer?"

"No! You're my fighting buddy, let's go have a fight" she said making him laugh.

I smiled sadly and saw James watching. Our eyes met, but I looked away. I stood up and left the Portrait hole, and decided to visit Hagrid…

James sat back down on his bed, and sighed sadly.

"Well, Lily I dunno wha' you should do" Hagrid said watching me carefully. I'd just explained the whole situation.

"I'm so confused Hagrid. But they're right! I do miss him! But he doesn't want to be my friend. Back in the Common room, there… there was a moment when we caught each other's eye. It looked like he stood up but I left before he could come over to me. I don't know why Hagrid. Its just so… confusing"

He nodded. "True, true. Bu' Lily, you gotta tell im' this. Is' no god tellin me; wha' am I gonna do bout' it?"

I smiled. "Sorry Hagrid. I just needed to get this off my chest and you were the first one I thought of"

"Does anyone else know bout' wha' ya just told me?"

"No. Only you" I replied.

He smiled. "C'mere give me a hug" he said and pulled me into a bone-breaking hug. "T-that's nice H-Hagrid" I choked out. He smiled. He thought my tears were for him being thoughtfulness.

"Yer should go tell Becky an' Emm" he said and I nodded.

"I should, but I don't want to"

"Go on now. Go tell em" and with that I left, but had no intention of telling them.

I went and sat underneath the beech tree and looked around at the grounds.

It was covered in snow. But it was beautiful. The lake was iced and a few people had taken to ice-skating.

I remembered a time before James ad I had had a fight. It was in the spring. A couple of days when we got back…

"We'll always be friends right Lily?" James asked looking at me.

"Course. Great friends" I replied and he smiled.

We sat there, me leaning against the beech tree and James sitting in its branches.

"Well I'm glad we sorted that out"

"Yeah me too" I said looking out at the water.

James jumped down beside me and helped me up.

"I'll always be here for you Lily" he said softly looking into my eyes. "Always"

"I'll always like you no matter what" I said and he pecked me softly on the lips and hugged me tightly, my head resting on his chest and his chin leaning on my head…

I sat up. I know what I have to do. All along, I just had to forgive him and that's it. I have to go to him, to apologize. To tell him I missed him.

I ran into the hall but froze. There was Carly, snogging Jayden under the mistletoe.

"Oi! Wade!" I yelled out. But not before I give Carly what she deserves… I put the camera back into my pocket and she pulled away.

"What do you want Evans?" she asked as Jayden left quickly.

"I hate what you're doing to James" I said and she laughed.

"Well get over it"

"No… I won't"

"You don't know why he told you you's couldn't be friends anymore do you?"

"No" I said and she laughed again.

………..

James Pov.

Sirius, Remus and Becky were all sitting on the floor. Emm was sitting in Remus' lap and Becky and Sirius we're playing thumb wars.

"I can't take it anymore!" I said angrily and sat up. The other four looked at me.

"James? What's wrong?" Emm asked and I sighed. I'd just been thinking about the time when me and Lily were down by the beech tree a couple of days after we came back from the holidays. I told her I'd always be here for her… but I'm not right now am I?

"It's Lily! I can't believe it! It was so stupid!"

"What was?" Becky asked and I sighed.

"When we were fighting, I wouldn't tell Lily why I was upset"

Sirius, Becky, Emm and Remus glanced at each other.

"Why were you?" Sirius asked abandoning his game with Becky and turning to me.

"Carly and I had a fight…"

"We know that" Remus said and Emm hushed him.

"Well, it was about Lily. She was jealous of her because I was always hanging out with her. Like we used to…"

"And that's why you's were fighting!"

I nodded. "She told me, I'd either be friends with Lily, or be with Carly… I didn't want to give up on any of them at the time. But now I know it was all right in front of me. I'd rather be friends with Lily then be with Carly"

Sirius mirrored the look on Becky's face: happiness.

"I have to find her and tell her this but I don't know where she is, she left before and-"

"JAMES! JAMES!" I could here a familiar voice calling my name. I jumped off the bed and ran down the stairs and saw Lily coming in from the portrait hole, and I ran to her, and she ran to me and I hugged her, and twirled her around. She had her arms around her my neck, and I had mine around her waist and we hugged each other for awhile.

"I'm so sorry!" we both said at them same time. But then we laughed.

"No I'm sorry. I should have chosen you and-"

"I'm sorry because I should have made you tell me and I was so stubborn! I was down by the lake thinking about the time you promised me-"

"That I'd always be there for you? Me too" I said and she grinned.

"I missed you James. I missed you so much"

"I missed you too Lils, I can't live with out you" and we hugged again.

"Ahem! Now that you guys have finished hugging and apologizing, I'd like to hug my sister from another mister" Sirius said and me and Lily broke away and they hugged. I swallowed the jealous feeling that had filled up in my throat.

"I missed my brother from another mother" Lily said and we all laughed. She hugged Remus and them Becky and Emm tackled her and they hugged tightly.

Nothing could spoil this moment, nothing.

"Who wants a party?"

"On a school night?" Lily asked and I grinned.

Emm smirked. "Just as Lily and Becky says, 'lets partay!'" and we all laughed and then ran down to the one-eyed hump-backed statue of the witch.

We hurried down there and came out of Honeydukes and ran down to the Three Broomsticks.

We ordered some drinks and then a song came on and I grabbed Lily by the hand. She followed me laughing and Remus & Emm and Sirius & Becky joined us.

Shadows fall, and the darkness of night decends
Concrete walls bring the road to an end

I don't know which way leads me to you
Every step that i take
Brings your light into view

It took so long for me to find you
Suddenly our worlds collide

I'll never let you go, I'll never let you go
I found you and now I know
That I'll never let you go

Yesterday, never seemed so far away
All this time you've been right in front of me

It took so long for me to find you
Suddenly our lives intertwine

I'll never let you go, I'll never let you go
I found you and now I know
That I'll never let you go, oh

When you go just let me know
And, I'll appear out from
When you go just let me know
And, I'll be there

Coz, I just want to let you know
That I will never let you go, oh
I found you and know I know
That I will never let you go

I'll never let you go, I'll never let you go
I found you and now I know
That I'll never let you go

I'll always remember that night…

A/N: well how'd you like that? Don't worry I haven't finished with Carly yet! Stupid bitch tried to stop James and Lily from being friends, but it worked out in the end.., the end of the chapter that is! Lol.

Hoping for reviews ( I better get some! I got up at 4:30 am just to write this, but it was worth it)

Love always,

-POTTER.loves.EVANS-

P.S This is my FAVOURITE chapter! x