"How did we get to this point?" He asks her.

"Because neither one of us ever wants to be the bad guy."

"Kate," he swallows hard, "I don't know how to fix this."

"Castle I know that I have brought much of this on myself. I am the one who refuses to rest until I know all the facts, and everyone responsible is behind bars, or in the ground. I know that, but I don't know how to fix it."

"If you keep going you are going to end up dead. Is that what you want? Do you want to leave two children on this earth without a mother? That is how this ends. Why can't you see that?"

"I do."

"Then why don't you care?" His voice cracks.

"I do."

"It certainly doesn't seem like it."

"Castle, before I met you, when I walked out the door in the morning I only had to think about myself. My life was the only life on the line."

"Why doesn't your life matter?"

She falls silent. He locks eyes with her. He sees the flame that flickers at the core of her being.

"It wasn't your fault. It was never about you. Nothing you could have done could have changed the outcome. Kate you couldn't have prevented your mother's death. She made those choices. She wouldn't want you to martyr yourself for her. She was trying to protect you."

She breaks eye contact, "Castle it's not some switch that I can just flip off. I don't know how to change who I have been all of this time. It isn't something that is going to change overnight."

"In a few months your entire world is going to change. Having a child changes everything. What kind of world do you want them to grow up in?"

"I just want to keep them safe."

"How can you do that if you aren't around for whatever reason? How many women get the opportunity to stay home with their children?"

"I don't want to stay home. That was never my desire."

"You say that now, but when they get here you aren't going to want to leave them. I am telling you from experience, you don't want to miss a single moment of their lives. You could pursue other opportunities. I am not saying that you have to be at home day in, and day out. I am just asking you to consider the cost benefit analysis. How much time will you be away from them if you remain in your current position?"

"Can I just have some time to think about all of this? This whole thing is terrifying. You have had decades to adjust to being a parent. I just found out that I am now responsible for two other human beings for the rest of my life."

"I think that's fair," he agrees, "I can give you time."

The following morning she is sitting in her office, when there is a knock at the door. She looks up from her computer, and finds Lanie standing in her doorway.

"What's up?" She questions.

Without a word Lanie enters the room, closing the door behind her. She takes a seat across the desk from Kate.

"Are you okay?" Lanie questions.

"I'm fine, why wouldn't I be?"

"I heard that you got served with divorce papers."

She purses her lips, "Yeah, I did."

"I see."

"Lanie if you have something to say spit it out."

"Kate, what are you doing?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why are you pushing him away?"

"Marriage is hard, and it takes two people to make it work."

"How could your marriage possibly work? You are married to your job. You spend more time with at work than you spend with your husband. Are you even living together?"

"No."

"What is going on with you?"

Kate shrugs, "I don't know. I just feel like everything is falling down around me."

"What do you mean?"

"It is just one thing after another."

"Stop shutting everyone out. You never talk to me. What is really going on?"

"I opened a can of worms that I can't close, and it is affecting my marriage. It has forced me to keep secrets from my friends, and my husband. When I had nothing to lose in the end it would have been worth it."

"And now?"

"I have everything to lose, and I wonder if I've made a mistake. I always wanted at the captain's desk, but none of this is going the way that I planned."

"Kate, can I ask you something?"

She nods in agreement, "Sure."

"Are you happy?"

"I am miserable."

"So what are you going to do about it? Are you going to walk away from your marriage? Are you going to bail on Castle to pursue some boogeyman?"

"It's complicated. I love him, but for a moment I considered that we would both be better off if I took myself out of the equation. That isn't fair to him, and now I don't know how plausible that is."

She furrows her brow, "What do you mean, now?"

"Everything is so complicated."

"Because of your job?"

She shakes her head, "No, not because of the job."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"It is because of some other unforeseen complications that have arisen. I am completely terrified that I can't undo what has been done."

"It seems like you have undone quite a lot," Lanie disagrees.

"Now I have to figure out how to put humpty dumpty back together again. If I don't figure it out I am probably going to completely jack up their lives."

"Jack up whose lives? Who are you talking about?

Kate falls silent, realizing that Lanie has no idea what she is referring to.

"Kate?"

She exhales, knowing that she can't keep a secret of such magnitude from Lanie for much longer, "I'm pregnant."

Lanie's eyes widen, "What?"

"And yesterday after my appointment Castle and I had a major blow up, because he feels like I am putting their lives, and my own in danger."

"Their?" She cocks her eye brow.

"Yesterday, at the appointment we found out that I am having twins."

"Why don't you look happy?"

"Lanie I am completely, and totally terrified."