Dear diary,
It was a pleasant surprise for all of us Titans today to receive a new member into our team: Terra.
We had known her before, while her unusual terrakinetic powers were still completely out of control. Attacked by a giant scorpion, we had raced to her rescue, only for her to turn around at the last moment to use her powers to bring a huge rock down on her enemy.
That was the start of a whole new adventure together for the six of us. Terra left us for a while, after fearing that we would discriminate her for her lack of control over her powers. To cut it short, she ran away – and returned to us yesterday – with remarkable control over her powers now.
To tell you the truth, I didn't at all trust her when she asked again to rejoin us as a Titan. Her sudden control over her powers and eagerness to join us made me rather uneasy; I warned Robin, but he insisted on giving her a chance first.
And, although I did warn Robin that I saw a sudden dark image of her linked with the enemy, he still insisted on giving her a chance.
Thank goodness I listened to him.
To cut a long story short, well, our Titans Tower fell under attack from Slade after a series of attacks from odd machines on the city drew us out of our home. Terra saved our home. Simple as that. Perhaps I had been wrong about her all the while. Maybe it was time to really give her the chance she deserved all along. And so, Robin gave her a Titans communicator, and she officially became one of us.
I don't tell people what I really think of that yellow-haired, blue-eyed girl. I treat her more or less the same as I would treat anyone around me; with a certain sort of indifference. I know people think me proud and selfish and uncaring. Not true. The Raven they think they know on the outside is not quite the same Raven on the inside. For reasons I will not reveal here, it's simply safer and better for me to remain emotionless, as I always have been all these years.
The strange truth is, I really do quite admire Terra. She may not have Robin's leadership qualities, or Starfire's undying loyalty to her friends, but she really is a person to be admired. Her courage, strength, openness and determination are remarkable, no doubt about that. That's what I like so much about her. Not because she draws Beast Boy's attention so much that he no longer has enough time to disturb the rest of us with his so-called funny jokes. OK, maybe that is a factor, but it would certainly be a big, fat lie to say it is THE main reason.
Still, there are times when I still feel just a trifle uneasy around her. Her past remains a secret; till today, she has yet to reveal where and how she learned to master her powers fully. We have asked her that question several times now, but she has always refused to give us an answer. Why, I do not know. All she ever says is that she learned from a good and powerful master who taught her extremely effective tricks to keep her powers at bay. What, however, I do not tell the others is the fact that I still see odd, dark vision of her from time to time. Images of her involved with a certain enemy whom Robin has a particular hatred for. Better not to mention names her yet; after all Terra has done for us, it would hardly seem fair to accuse her of being involved with him. For now, I can only watch her carefully, and hope profusely that these vision I see, born of my odd telepathic abilities, are merely a figment of imagination due to an over-suspicious mind, not real ones.