CHAPTER 10

It had been the first night since Mark had to work the night shift.

"Lexie!"Meredith cried out as I saw her running towards me. I turned my head to look at her as I began coughing up blood. Oh god, what was going on?

"Someone help us!" Mark yelled out as he began pushing something.

"We're gonna help you, I promise, Lex." Mark said trying to reassure me.

"LEXIE!"I heard Meredith cry out again as I now hovered above her watching her cry.

"Mer, I'm right here."I say reaching out to touch her, but my hand just slips right through her. I turn to look at Mark who is now lying on the ground with Cristina trying to revive him multiple times. The scene changes to Mark holding my hand again,

"I love you."He whispers as he strokes my hair,

"I love you too." I say back, but something tells me he didn't hear me.

"I love you. I love you." He repeats while holding my hand and crying.

"Mark, I love you. Do you hear me?" I ask while trying to shake his body that lied on the ground, but I just went right through him too.

"Mark! MARK!" I yell out as I jolt up in my bed panting and sweating. I turn to look at the other side of the bed just to see it empty; Mark still hadn't come home. I take a deep breath before deciding to get dressed. Standing in front of the bathroom mirror, I lean towards the sink and began splashing my face with water. I then looked at myself in the mirror again thinking about the dream, about how my mind constantly wanted to remind me about the horrible day and how it wanted to tell me that I should have died that day, but didn't. I hated having thoughts about the plane crash, but every day there was ALWAYS something that reminded me of it. I took another deep breath, fixed my hair, and headed out to the hospital.

When I arrived, I was still half asleep, everything seemed like a blur.

"Dr. Grey, we didn't know you were on call tonight." I hear someone say. As I turn around I see Chief Hunt looking at me.

"Are you okay?" I nod a bit unsure as I continued to walk.

"Dr. Grey!" He calls out as my eyes look around for Mark.

"Okay, you don't look well. Lay down here." Owen guides me to one of the rooms and tries to get me to lie down.

"I-I need…" I softly say while thinking about the dream.

"What do you need? Lay down, I'll have a nurse bring it." I shake my head, pushing past him, and heading towards the door.

"Lexie!" He calls my name out, but I ignored it. I continued to walk down the halls of the hospital, but it seemed I could only run into people I didn't wanna see.

"Lexie? I didn't know you were on call tonight." I hear Meredith call my name out.

"She's not." Owen replies for me as he grabs my shoulders to try and take me back to the room.

"I'm fine! Will you stop talking for me! Stop telling me what to do!" I yell a bit annoyed.

"Lexie…" Meredith says a bit worried.

"Just…" I begin, but start walking away from them.

"Hold on." Meredith calls out as she runs after me.

"What's going on? Are you and Mark okay?" I turn to look at her and don't reply.

"I think you need rest, Lex." Meredith suggests, but I don't reply, instead I head over to the elevators.

"Page Dr. Sloan." I hear her say to Owen before I head onto the elevator. Meredith runs after me, holds the door open, and slides into the elevator before it moves.

"You know you can talk to me, right?" She says as she slightly looks at me. I ignore her again.

"If there's something going on between you and Mark or if there's something wrong with the baby, you can talk to me." I look at the numbers on top of the elevator door before I hear a "ding" and the doors open. I head out with Meredith following me.

"Dr. Grey, if you have a minu-" I hear Mark's voice before he stops and looks at me.

"L-Lex?" He says a bit confused. I quickly run into his arms and for some reason tears just start to flow down my face.

"Lex…" Mark whispers as he wraps his arms around me.

"What happened?" He asks,

"I don't know. Owen and I found her wandering the halls. We thought something was wrong, but she wouldn't talk to us." Meredith answers while Mark rubs my back to comfort me.

"Lex, let's go some place quiet, okay?" He says in a really soothing voice.

"I just don't…I don't wanna be alone tonight." I say with a shaky voice as I grip onto his shirt tightly and let more tears flow down my cheeks.

"Okay, I'm right here. You won't be alone." I pull away a bit from his embrace and try to look at him. He wipes the tears away from my cheeks and kisses me on each one. His kisses always calmed me down.

"Thank you." He says to Meredith before he guides us to one of the on-call rooms.

"Are you hungry? Is the baby okay?" I walk over to the bed and sit down.

"The baby is fine." I answer with a sniffle. Mark sighs, sits next to me, and wraps an arm around me.

"What's going on, Lex? Did something happen?"

"I-I can't be alone, Mark. I get- those nightmares." I softly say. Mark kisses my head.

"What nightmares?" He looks at me curiously.

"Ever since the crash, I've been constantly having nightmares about us dying. About you dying next to me and I'm watching you die from above. I scream your name, but you can't hear me. I try to shake you, but I slip right through you." I begin crying again, but Mark holds me close.

"Lex…" He whispers again,

"I'm not going anywhere."

"I-I only get them when I'm alone." I manage to say through the sniffles.

"I'll talk to Hunt and see if I can leave now. There shouldn't be any patients who need me." I smile a bit,

"You don't have to, I can stay here…" He shakes his head and gets up,

"No, c'mon. You need rest and the baby does too." Mark holds his hand out; I grab it, and stand up. We head out the door and spot Owen and Meredith talking down the hall.

"Dr. Sloan." Owen calls out as we head towards them.

"I'm gonna take Lexie home. You don't need me, do you?"

"No. Go home." Owen says sympathetically as he pats Mark's back. I hold onto Mark as we head out the doors and go home.

When we get home, we both sit on the couch and I cuddle with him.

"Oh Lex, I wish you told me sooner. I wouldn't have agreed to do a night shift." I shook my head,

"I didn't wanna bother you with that. Besides, I didn't think I still got them." He kisses my head again as I lay my head on his chest.

"Nothing you say bothers me, you know that Lex. Besides, I'd much prefer spending the nights with you than at the hospital." I smile softly as I look up at him and kiss him.

"Thank you, but they need you. You're the best plastic surgeon." Mark chuckles,

"As true as that is, they can always have Jackson come in." He did have a point. After all, Jackson WAS a fellow now, which means he didn't need Mark to watch his every move during a surgery. Mark began rubbing my back again which caused me to slowly doze off.

"I love you, Lex." He whispers. I smile and slowly whisper back,

"I…love you too." This time, I knew for sure that Mark heard me. My eyes slowly shut as I fell asleep in his arms.