Droplets of water
pounding on my skin
it is a sad night
it was my sin
done something horribly wrong
blood clinging to the wall
claws ready, a mouth to bite
it wasn't a good call
how much I wished for it
for it just to disappear
but it clings to me
to me and my fear
I am angry and scared
but most of all have a lot of sorrow
I am taking it out
on lifes that I borrow
just to stay a little longer
not wanting to go
but I also want to die
no one can kill me though
they've tried to kill
they've tried to calm
but every single time
their blood is in my palm
claws ripping, I'm screaming
drowning in my tears
burning in my anger
mind foggy and unclear
white eyes gaze up to me
watching my despair
locked in his gaze
all I did was stare
without noticing
he came to me
he walked up closer
he said 'I'll make you free'
right in front of me
tears falling to the ground
the rain kept on going
it is what I found
his hand reached out
and calmed my fear and rage
I became calm
was he possibly a mage?
Ever since then
I always feel calm and contained
but when someone stares at me
I can't be maintained
only He may look at me like that
only those eyes may
for any other
would have to pay
sorrow is still there
and will never go away
for they killed my family
at that certain day
even then it was raining
and ever since
it started to hurt
and I would wince
burning my skin
even though it was my friend
but now it has turned on me
it made a huge dent
every time it would rain
I would go and hide
or search up the person
with eyes of might
far away from home
I can still thrive
but the rain is the worst
and I must now strife
please forgive me
whoever I kill
it is just a hole
that I need to fill