Disclaimer: I do not own Megaman, Red vs. Blue elements, or ghosts. Hopefully, this story's idea is mine.
Haruka's POV, third person, Lan's POV
I've lost Lan again... I saw him again. I know I did. But he's gone again... I know he's dead, but...
Must I really be tortured like this? I've lost not one but two of my boys. Only this time... One can't come back.
It's my fault for letting him do such dangerous things. I know he wouldn't want me to be like this, but I can't help it! If I hadn't allowed him to do what he did, then he wouldn't be dead! I could've kept him from the mission that killed him!
I love Hub, but I love Lan, too. Hub connects more with his father. He always has. Lan and I had each other. Both of us tried hard to win my husband's attention and affection. He reserves it for his son, sugarcoats his words to make it sound like "us" when he actually means just Hub. I know that now.
Lan... He was my strength. Since we both could not have my husband, we had each other. We bonded in that way. We supported one another in a way Hub could not understand. He has his father's unconditional love. We were not so lucky. It is because of this we became so precious to one another.
Now that Lan's gone... Do I really deserve to live for allowing the one I should have protected to die? Not once, but twice?
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"Miyu!" Lan yelled as he ran into Miyu's shop and would've been thoroughly soaked by the rain outside had he had a physical body that could feel and collect the pouring waters.
The psychic woman glanced in his direction before turning her attention back to her current visitor, Sal.
"Hurry up!" Lan yelled as he approached Miyu's table, next to where Sal sat. "It's important!"
"Lan, she said you have to figure these things out for yourself," the green-haired nature activist said before turning. "Just because she has some supernatural abilities, it doesn't mean she'll have all the answers you seek."
Lan stared at Sal before following her line of sight outside the door then turned back to her. "Can you sense me or not because you obviously can't see me..."
"Turn your head to your left," Miyu spoke, the two obeying though Sal's face burned with embarrassment as she looked at Lan while he was trying to find something outside from where he stood, not realizing Miyu was only talking to Sal.
"Lan," Sal began as she fought down her embarrassment to look serious. "There is no specific purpose to your current condition. It is for you to decide how to use it. These things that you can do are also a part of it. There's no way of knowing what they are, so you alone have to figure them out."
"If you can, it would be wise to avoid connecting with the Cyberworld," Miyu added. "You may not truly be here, but such things are trivial in the Net, as I'm sure you remember."
Lan nodded as he remembered his encounters with certain navis' ghost data. It was difficult to fight them as the navis were often more powerful than when they last fought them with their only purpose being to fight and Megaman's fear of ghosts did not help any.
"That's good advice and all, but I want to know how I temporarily appeared in the world of the living!" Lan finally voiced what he came for.
"A temporary manifestation in this world?" Miyu asked. "Without a medium?"
"Uh... what?" Lan asked, confused by the psychic's choice of words.
"We didn't go over this..." Sal whispered to Miyu, who ignored the comment.
"As I have said, you need to discover this on your own. I do not know all the answers," Miyu told the brunette. "There are easier way to contact this world without using up so much energy."
"Energy?" Lan asked. "What are you talking about now?"
"Spiritual energy," Miyu elaborated. "You have a very strong spirit. Always have. However, it must be used with caution. I don't know if it has to do with your being trapped between worlds. There is also little known about spiritual energy and the effects z. Since you no longer have a body, you could very well just cease to exist."
"If that's what it takes to make sure Kaa-san is okay..." Lan began.
"I said, there are other ways," Miyu interrupted. "If she is already on a path of self-destuction because of your death, then what will happen should you cease to exist because of her, should your existence even remain a memory?
"You must learn to harness whatever abilities you have and use them sparingly," Miyu continued. "If you merely waste your energy, then no good can come from your interferences. All you'll leave is the memory of your loved ones having lost you multiple times if even that."
"And keep in mind that anything you do could trigger your crossing over," Sal cut in. "Leave nothing left unsaid. Any second could be your last to communicate with someone on this side and there is no need for you to hold back any more information or secrets you may have."
Lan stood silently as he absorbed all this advice. "So... Is there nothing you can help me with?"
Miyu didn't answer. Sighing, Lan dejectedly left the shop. He didn't learn what it was he desperately wanted to.
Sal waited a bit longer before turning to Miyu. "Are you sure you should be torturing him like this?"
"I may have told you to say what you did, but I am just as ignorant as you as to why this is happening."
"I thought you said there was no purpose..."
"Maybe... it has yet to reveal itself."
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She didn't know... She can do all this supernatural stuff but she couldn't help me...
Kaa-san... How can I help you if I can't even reach out to you the way I want to?
I... I need to learn how to do what I did. I don't care if it uses up spiritual energy. For now, it is the only way I know how to be able to contact and help her.
Kaa-san, you don't deserve to suffer. You deserve better. Don't let me be the reason for your unhappiness. I'll be there for you still. I'll help you any way I can. Just... Just don't let yourself...
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Rain continued to pour as the brunette made his way back home through the chilling cold.
Haruka blames herself for losing her son. Miyu was unable to help Lan the way he wanted. Worse, it seems that if he uses all his spiritual energy to temporarily appear in the living world, he could cease to exist. However, self-sacrifice hasn't stopped Lan from acting on what he felt was right. How far will Lan go to ensure his mother's happiness? Will Haruka do something drastic? And what theory is Miyu hiding?