A/N: So here i am after four months finally updating this fic... i would like to apologize to anyone who was waiting for an update on this eagerly...what can i say besides life happened and i lost my inspiration for this fic and my general sense where this story was headed... so even if i tried i couldn't get anything out for this fic... I could finally get some inspiration from the new fic DSForeverandAlways posted... so anyone who likes this fic has to thank her for the update and i would really recommend you to check out her fics coz they are amazing.
Again pardon me for the mistakes and over usage of any phrases or words, missing words etc. and for this awfully long A/N.
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Jenny enters the loft trying to find his brother. The last year had been very hard on him and she knew very well that although he used to always assure her over the phone that he was fine, he was no where near it. Today would be especially difficult for him to get through so she had come over. She had planned to tell her that she needed company today instead of the other way around and the overprotective big brother in him would takeover and he would comply with her request.
She starts towards his room calling him out but there was no reply. She thought he might be still sleeping which was more of the case nowadays. She peeked inside his room and what she saw confirmed what she had been suspecting for some time. He was using again. She knew he used to take them for the pain but that had subsided almost completely yet he was using it. She was worried now thinking where he would be as she couldn't find him anywhere in the house.
She went into her old room still trying to figure where his brother would have gone when her eyes fell upon the magazine. The face on it was far too familiar and the headline made her stomach cringe. She knew what kind of reaction this would have on her ever so volatile brother and understood where she had to be.
"How could you Serena…"
"Dan…. I…uh… you shouldn't be here" Serena replied still stunned by his presence.
"That's all you have to say… I shouldn't be here" his voice getting sharper with each word.
"Please go… before somebody sees you in here" She replies worrying what would happen if any of Vince's men would find him here.
"You want me to leave… just like you left me there at the hospital"
"Dan …. It is not as simple as you think"
"Simplify it for me please… I was in the hospital fighting for my life, recovering from an accident, grieving the loss of my father, wanting nothing more than to see you and you were already going out, partying around with him…. Seems pretty simple to me"
"No… I was just…." she tried explaining but remembering she couldn't.
"You should just go… I can't do this right now" she said becoming stern this time.
"I am NOT going anywhere…"
"Then I'll have to call security…." She says trying to force him out.
"Try doing that" he said pulling out his gun and pointing it squarely at her.
"Dan… what are you doing… have you gone crazy" surprised at his reaction.
"Maybe….what did you think would happen Serena, when you decided to get married ON THE DAY MY FATHER DIED" he said bellowing with fury.
"Dan please calm down. You are not thinking clearly. This is not you"
"Oh… this is me now, Serena. The Dan you knew died in that accident…. You don't know anything I have gone through in the last year. So don't think you know what I am capable of now".
Blair thought she heard someone shouting from Serena's room. She went in to check if Serena is okay. She couldn't believe the scene unfolding right in front of her eyes as she entered the room. Dan was standing there, with an expression on his face she never thought could be possibly directed at Serena and of course there was a small matter of the gun in his hand pointing directly at Serena. Serena on the other hand looked completely distraught; she was on the edge ready to breakdown anytime. She knew she had to intervene before the situation got out of hand.
"Dan" she addressed him by his name careful not to incite him further.
"What Blair" he says looking at her for a split second before training his eyes back to his target.
"Please don't do something you will regret"
"Regret… hmm…" he said laughing sarcastically.
"I have done far too many things to regret now. I don't regret anything anymore. Just believe that actions have consequences"
"And yours have led me to this" he says looking back at Serena.
"I m sorry … I never meant to hurt you Dan… you have to believe me" she replies tears starting to spill.
"I believed in you more than anybody Serena. I used to think how foolish people are not to see the real person beneath all the glamour and fame. But I guess I was the one who was being fooled all this time. When you left me for him I thought maybe you were not as strong as I thought you are. Maybe you couldn't handle all this and went back to what you found was easy. That's what I kept telling myself so that I could get over the fact that you didn't even so much as said goodbye. But now this… Having your wedding on the same day as the accident was like you were purposefully trying to twist a knife that is buried deep inside me. So stop pretending that you care and all this affects you because if it did you wouldn't be having your wedding today"
"I didn't…I didn't have a choice on the date, Vince decided it" She said finally dropping her guard letting slip some information.
"Oh don't give me that crap… Serena van der Woodsen having no control on her wedding date. Even the old Dan wouldn't have believed that Serena"
Blair sensing that this argument was going nowhere and was making Dan further irritated and decided to step in.
"Dan maybe you should think what you are about to do."
"Blair you better not get in between as I would hate to hurt you especially when you are pregnant"
"I can't just stand here and watch you shoot down my best friend can I? Besides are you ready to throw away your life, everything for this"
"Only a cynic would call what I have as a life and I don't have anything left to lose but you on the other hand have a lot to lose." He says in softer voice that catches Blair completely by surprise. Never would she have imagined that he would use a more caring tone while addressing her than Serena. Sensing that he genuinely cared and couldn't to do her and her baby what he was ready to do to Serena she puts herself in between the two of them.
"What are you doing Blair? Do you want to lose your baby for her? Let me tell you she is not worth it."
"I m trying to stop you from doing what you don't really want to deep down but are just too blinded by anger to see it."
"Don't think I would stop if you are in between I would hurt you if I have too" he says pulling back the hammer.
"What about me?" She says entering the room
"Jenny what are you doing here?" he says surprised to see her younger sister.
"I was worried how my brother was doing today and it seems my fears are completely true"
"Don't get into this Jenny I know what I m doing I m not on drugs"
"Try telling that lie to someone who hasn't been to your room"
"That was last night, I am fully aware of what I am doing right now and am not afraid of facing the consequences, whatever they maybe"
"What about me then?"
"What do you mean?"
"Dan you were not the only one who lost a father on this day. I did too. And here I am today trying to share my grief with the only other person who would understand but he is willing to throw away his life, the very life for which my father sacrificed his, to get back at her ex." She continues her voice starting to break up.
"That is so selfish of you Dan. I have already lost my father and I don't want to lose my brother too…. So if you still want to shoot them, go ahead but that makes you no better than her…" she says gesturing towards Serena. "Leaving someone when they need them the most."
Dan lowered his gun for the first time and looked towards Jenny as Blair heaved a sigh of relief.
"She is trying to mock his memory by getting married on the same day" he argues
"And you think you wouldn't do something similar by committing a murder on the anniversary of his death."
"But she can't get away with this."
"Dan there would be hundreds of weddings happening today. Just assume this to be one of them. She shouldn't exist for you anymore. Don't give her the satisfaction she is getting by all the attention you are giving her. She doesn't deserve it. Just leave let her to do whatever the hell she wants to do with her life." She replies making her hatred of Serena apparent.
"But I can't let it go."
"What do you think dad would have wanted? Would he have wanted you to throw away your life just so that you could extract some petty revenge of sorts? Dan you are supposed to be the good son, always doing the right thing and taking responsibility. I need my elder brother to be there for me. Not rot in some jail over someone who is not even worth it."
Sensing that she was finally able to break through to him she moves towards him, takes the gun from his hands, quietly deposits in her purse and hugs him tightly.
"Come on Dan lets go. You need to be some place." She says as she grabs his hand gently drags him out of the room. Before leaving she peeks backs into the room and says
"Come after Dan for this and I'll come after you and you should know by now he is the sane one in the family." With seething hatred towards Serena.
As soon as they leave Blair sits down panting next to Serena who is crying continuously. She starts soothing her by gently rubbing her back.
"Its okay Serena they are gone now. Don't worry"
"He hates me … He hates me B"
"I know… I know. Stop crying it doesn't matter, you are getting married in a few minutes and then Dan and everything would be behind you"
"It matters to me…"she says before starting to cry again.
"Serena what are you saying… do you still have feelings for Dan? I know we are not supposed to talk about him but if there something you want to say you should know you could tell me."
"I wish I could B but…"
There is a knock on the door and Chuck's voice come through.
"Serena, Blair are you guys ready everybody is waiting for you its nearly time."
"Don't tell Chuck about any of this. I don't want Dan to get in any trouble ok" Serena says quickly trying to wipe her tears and regain her composure.
"Do you want me to tell them there is a delay"
"No. Just stall Chuck for a bit while I clean up. He can't see me like this. And I'll be out in a minute."
"Are you sure you want to go ahead with this wedding" Blair asks concerned
"Yes. I am. More than anything." She replies gulping down the bile rising in her throat as she says so.
As the music starts playing her father comes up to her and kisses her forehead .He takes her hand and starts guiding her down the aisle after the rest.
As soon as she reaches the far end of the aisle. Her eyes get blurry as the images from her dreams start flashing right in front of her. She starts thinking of all the times she had dreamt of this moment. That she would walk down the aisle towards the man she loved to get their forever. And he would just look her the way he always does. Eyes full of devotion and the smile which was reserved for her. As she looks up all she could see through her now teary eyes was Dan smiling at her at the top of the aisle and then everything goes black.
P.S: hopefully it still made sense as i was writing this chapter a fresh i think few things might have changed from what i had initially thought. so hopefully there are no blunders or goof ups in the storyline. if so plz PM me. AND PLEASE REVIEW