Disclaimer: The characters and world of CSI do not belong to me, nor do the songs each chapter is based upon. I've simply borrowed them for the time being and intend to return them intact and no worse for the wear.
I Wanna Cry
He sat alone in the dark town house. The TV muted and a bottle of wine on the coffee table. All around him are pictures of her and their life together. In each pictures he can still see what could have been. It's been three months and he still hasn't gotten over her walking away. Before Sara, he'd never let his feelings show. He'd always believed that being strong meant never loosing your self-control. But now, he's had enough wine to let go of his pain. Tonight he just wanted to cry.
He shut off the TV, turning the radio on instead, wondering if a sad song would help. He knew that it would probably hit him hard now that she's gone and he's all alone. He took the letter out of his pocket. He'd have to let it hurt if he wanted it to get better, he'd never get over her by hiding. She'd been the only one to see his true feelings. For years, he'd tried hard to be strong and not loose his self-control. He took another sip of wine. He just wanted to cry.
It had taken him a long time to let his control go, especially when it came to Sara. With her, he was stronger. With out her, he felt what little control he had left slipping away. He dropped the empty wine bottle in the recycle bin as he let the tears fall like rain from his eyes.