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Chapter Eight
Stevie had arrived home and bolted the door before sinking down against the front door, the tears were falling freely from her eyes and she had no idea how she was going to get through this. Her and Smithy hadnt been together long but she loved him so much and now he had broken her heart. Her mobile rang and she pulled it from her handbag and stared at his name before she rose it and smashed it against the wall. She buried her head into her arms and sobbed, how could the one man she had ever loved do this to her, treat her like this. She wiped her eyes as she pushed to her feet and headed through to her living room and sinking down onto the sofa, she was in shock and it hurt, it physically hurt, she hadnt felt pain like it before. Seeing the answer machine flashing she sighed before pushing to hear her messages. "You have two new Messages. Message One left today at 18.47" the voice spoke before Paulines voice came through the machine "Im sorry Stevie.. I wish I could say something to make you feel better but I guess Dale is no better than Damien... he has left here and I have told him not to return.. if you wish to talk you have my number". The line went dead and Stevie sighed as the answer machine cut in once again "Message Two left today at 19.03" the voice angered her more than she could ever imagine "Well well... looks like Mr Reliable aint all that great eh Stevie. Well I did the sensible think and told Kayleigh to do one.. so if you fancy hooking up call me". Stevie sighed, she really thought Smithy was better than Damien, she thought he was a true gent but now he had shown his true colours maybe Damien would make her feel better. The knock on the door startled her from her thoughts and she pushed to her feet and headed out to the door she slid the bolt accross and stared at the man staring back at her "You have got some front..." he cut in "Please Stevie.. hear me out...". She shook her head "No.. you have blown it Smithy.. I loved you". He smiled slightly "Just give me a chance... two minutes". She sighed "Why bother?" she asked. She pulled his ring from her pocket and passed it too him "Have this back as well... I dont want it" he smiled "So thats it... we chuck it away?" he stressed "You slept with my brother Stevie..." she interupted "Yeah... before we were together.. I wouldnt now". He smiled slightly "I love you... and I know you love me too Stevie". She nodded "I do yeah.." he gestured inside "Two minutes... can I come in please Stevie?". She stepped aside and he moved in the front door, she grabbed his wrist as he turned towards the living room, she pushed the front door closed and smiled "You say what you have to say here". He nodded "Ok erm.. I always lost everything to Damien... what ever I had he took it". She sighed "Yeah.. you've said but you know what that is no excuse to cheat on me.." he placed his hand to her face "She kissed me... and I just.. for that one split second I had the only thing that was important to him.. and she wanted me..". Stevie shook her head "Thats no excuse.. you had me". He nodded "And all I can say is you are all I want... but you have no idea how it feels to always be second best Stevie.." she shook her head "Dont give me that.. everyone gets pushed away at some point.." he nodded "Yeah.. but I had it my whole life... my dad didnt want me... he already had Damien.. I was the mistake.. my mum hated me cause I was the reason he hit her..." Stevie shook her head "Thats not true.. your mum loves you". He nodded "Now maybe... but she didnt... she shipped me out when I was eight years old Stevie... sent me to live with my Nan.." she cut in "Maybe she wanted to protect you..". He laughed "Yeah right.. when I came home I was twelve and she said it was the worst mistake of her life.. having me back cause my Dad started all over again.. until he walked out..". He smiled slightly "They both wanted Damien.. me.. I was just the inconveinience" he sighed "You know what I have wasted enough of your time.. I am so sorry for everything I have done.." he gently kissed her cheek and smiled "You got my car keys?" he asked and she gestured to the unit next to her, he grabbed them and smiled "I do love you Moss... with all my heart and I know I did wrong.. but I finaly wasnt second best..". She smiled "You never were to me Smithy... I had the choice while we were away and I choose you.. I wanted you.. and despite everything I still do.." he smiled placing his hand to her face "If you decide you can forgive me.. I'll be at home waiting for you".
Stevie had spent an hour in the bath, the bubbles hadnt helped and she felt worse as she climbed out and slipped into her dressing gown, she knew there was only one way to get over Smithy and as she dialled the number guilt ran through her, she believed Smithy had only shared the one kiss with Kayleigh and she knew that he was sorry for that but she still wanted to punish him and she knew the perfect way. She had left the message and fifteen minutes later there was a knock on her front door. She pulled it open and smiled the smallest of smiles "Welcome back to the right side" he spoke as he stepped inside, he took her hand and led her towards the bedroom, she paused in the door way and sighed "You have loads of birds to fall back on Damien... why me?" she asked and he grinned "Cause you are the only way I can fuck Dale over... he will fall apart once he knows you have let me back into your bed". She smiled "He is your brother.." he cut in "And I love getting one over on him.. you know when he was younger he fell in love so easily.. and I used to love every second of getting his birds into bed, it was like a sport... but you.." he laughed as he pulled at the knot holding her dressing gown together "I am going to enjoy you the most.. because you sweetheart... have the ability to really break his heart". She pulled back from him "I dont want to.." he nodded "Im not stupid Stevie... why else would you of called me here?". She smiled slightly "Because I am a fool... I love Smithy and if I do this..." she gestured between them "He will never ever forgive me... I think you should go.. Im going to sort things out with Dale" she headed towards the bedroom. He watched her leave before pulling his phone out and moving to the door, he watched as she dropped her dressing gown to the floor, leaving her in just her revealling underwear before snapping a photo. He smirked as he typed a text 'Just getting her warmed up for you mate' before sending the photo. He smiled as he dropped his phone into his pocket "See ya" he called as he headed towards the front door.
Pushing her key into the lock she sighed as the chain caught the door she pulled it shut once again before she began to knock gently on the front door she straightened her outfit before smiling gently at him as he pulled the door open "Im ready to talk". She jumped as he slammed the door shut and she smiled to herself slightly before leaning down and glancing through the letterbox "Smithy.." she called as he headed into the frontroom, she saw the door close and she shouted "You got this the wrong way round... Im mad with you.. its you who kissed someone else". She sighed as her phone beeped in her pocket and she pulled it out glancing at Smithys name, she smiled slightly, thinking how imature this seemed before opening the text. She could feel her heart in her mouth as she stared at the photo, before her eyes fell to the text underneath 'And you call me a cheat'. She leant back down to the letterbox "Smithy it not how it looks... I promise you.. I love you.." she waited for a reply and when nothing came she typed a text to him. 'I swear nothing happened Smithy. you are the only man I want please you have to forgive me'. She sent the message before she sunk down and sat on his door step, she remained there for just under an hour and a half before deciding to return home and talk to him tomorrow.
The next morning came all too soon, she had barely slept and she had never felt so guilty, she knew she had to face him but it was going to be so difficult. She sat in her car staring up at the building, she couldnt do this, he would hate her for sure now and all she had ever wanted to do was love him. She was sure she had been sat outside for what had felt like hours and she knew every minute she stalled it would be harder to walk through the doors and too his office. She had just built up the courage to make her way inside when her mobile began to ring. She sighed as she stared at the name, however hard it would be to talk to Smithys Nan she just couldnt ignore her. "Hi Dot.. how are you?". The woman sighed down the phone "Very well.. I was speaking to Pauline about you and Dale... she says you are having problems?". Stevie sighed, she was starting to feel like she was dating his whole family "I never meant to hurt him.. nothing even happened between me and Damien". Dots voice angered "You and Damien?" she asked "I was talking about Kayleigh". Stevie rubed her eyes "Look Dot.. I was upset and angry.. nothing happened with Damien and now I dont really know if Dale will ever forgive me... I love him with all my heart but when I saw him kissing Kayleigh I just snapped..." Dot interupted "You promised me you wouldnt hurt him... I have nothing else to say on the matter" and with that she hung up. Stevie sighed chucking her phone for the second time in twenty four hours, how it was still working she had no idea. She climbed out of the car and heading for the station.
She sighed as she stood outside his office and gulped back the fear as she banged confidently on the door she waited a few moment until he shouted "Yeah". She pushed the door and walked inside, he eyed her for a few seconds before turning his focus back to his computer screen "How can I help?". She shut the door and sighed "We need to talk" she smiled. He sighed "Unless this is to do with work Stevie... I have nothing to say to you". She moved over to the desk and leant on it "You cant be serious Smithy... we need to talk about yesterday.. last night". He laughed "What you and Damien?" he shouted, fear shot into her body as he rose to his feet towering over her "How long had I been gone when you dragged him into bed?" he asked. She shook her head "It wasnt like that I swear Smithy.. nothing happened.." he moved round the desk and backed her against the wall "You are a tramp... I dunno why I ever thought you would be any different to every other woman I have met". She sighed "Please Smithy... you are frightening me". He moved back from her "Get out..". She smiled "Dont I even get a chance to tell you my side Smithy.. what happened... cause that photo... that doesnt prove anything". He laughed "Have you looked at it Stevie... you have hardly any clothes on". She smiled slightly "I didnt sleep with him... I was going to... I invited him round.. and I was going to sleep with him.. but I knew if I did that we would be over so I erm.. I told him to go and I came to you.. because you are the man I love.. the only person I want to spend my life with and I am hoping.." she gulped back the tears in her eyes and wiped her face "That you can forgive me... cause I honestly cant imagine my life without you in it.. I love you and I want to marry you and settle down... Im sorry" she smiled slightly before heading to his office door "I know this doesnt make things any better Smithy but Damien.. he was doing it to wind you up... thats the only reason he has ever done it.. and I dont want to hurt you.. sorry". He sighed "You know what.. its not just about Damien... cause I believe you didnt sleep with him but you ashamed of me... of us.. you wont even consider people knowing about us... but I bet if I was Damien you would be shouting it from the rooftops.." he walked back to his desk and rested down and she sighed as she headed out the office door.
Stevie drained the last dregs of her beer and she sat staring at the empty glass, she had finished her shift and although she hadnt seen Smithy she had a feeling that he was so mad he may not talk to her again in a while. Feeling the hand rest onto her shoulder she turned to the man behind her and smiled slightly "Fancy a drink DS Moss?" the sergeant asked. "I am fine thanks Callum.. I am going to get off in a minute". He nodded "You dont want to join uniform then... we are celebrating a big result?". She shook her head "No thanks" she glanced over the table, Jo, Nate and Ben sat in a heavy disscussion with Mel and Kirsty talking to Rodger and Leon. She smiled as Callum walked back towards the table with a tray of drinks and she ordered a shot of vodka which she downed before she turned to the door, seeing Smithy walk through it she turned back to the bar unsure what to do next. She ordered another vodka and downed it quickly "You think thats gunna help" he asked as he sunk down onto the barstool next to hers. "No.. not for one second.. but it is making me feel better". He sighed as he ordered a drink "I dont really know what you have to be depressed about.. its you who cheated". She grabbed his wrist as he turned away "I didnt and I am fed up with defending myself... I didnt ask to fall in love with you.. but now I am.. and you obviously think that even though I am in love with you I could be with your brother... I give up.. I dont know what else to do.." he cut in "You love me... prove it". She shook her head slightly and he sighed "If you loved me.. you wouldnt care about what Damien thinks or anyone else for that matter.." he headed over to uniform and she sighed as she downed a final shot before marching over to where he stood at the table of uniform. "You want me to prove it" she began and he turned back to face her and she noticed most of the occupants of the table staring at her, she wrapped her hands round his neck, clearly taking him by surprise as she kissed him with all her passion, his hands dropping onto her hips. She didnt even think about the people next to them all she cared about was winning back Smithy.