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Chapter 3 - Jacob
"Hanna?"
I look up at Jacob, who's sitting on the other side of the couch, and realize I've spent the last hour in complete silence.
"Yeah?" I ask as casually as possible still trying to hide the fact that my voice was shaking.
"We promised we'd tell each other the results of our tests remember?" he says giving me a strange look.
"But the rules say we're not allowed Jake," I say as sternly as possible. Since I had been told that I was... Divergent... I knew I had to be more careful. I promised myself I couldn't tell anybody. Anybody. Not even Jake. I know this was going to be hard. We hadn't kept a single secret from each other since forever, this was going to be the first time. But it had to be done, I couldn't tell him just because I needed a shoulder to cry on. If I told him he would also be in danger, and that was the last thing I wanted.
"When have rules ever kept us from doing what we want?" Jake says with a hint of sarcasm. But there was a slight edge to his voice, I knew he was quickly getting suspicious. I had to do something to throw him off the trail.
"Erudite," I quickly say, avoiding eye contact.
"What?"
"The aptitude test? I got Erudite. You?"
He anxiously started fidgeting and looking at his shoes.
"Jake? What did you get?"
He anxiously looks up at me and says, "Hanna, that's the thing. I didn't get a proper result."
My mouth falls open as I stare at him trying to process the what he just said.
"Wh..wha..what?"
"I got 2 factions Hanna. I got 2. Candor and Erudite. April, the one that was testing me, said its dangerous. I'm dangerous."
Suddenly I feel a whole rush of guilt. He trusted me and told me his secret and I didn't. But I knew if I told him now it would be too late and he'd feel betrayed. I couldn't tell him now. Maybe it was even better with him not knowing, if I told him he could be in more danger. I slowly move to where he was sitting and hold his shaking hand.
"You're not dangerous. Maybe you're just different, it can't be that bad. Can it?" I say, acting as if I didn't already know that answer.
"She put my results in as Erudite but she said if anyone finds out the real result I'll get killed. She said I'd get killed Hanna!" he says in a shaky voice.
"Jake, you're gonna be ok," I say while gently putting my arms around him, attempting to comfort him. "No-one's going to kill you, If no-one finds out." I say softly.
A single tear rolls down Jakes face. I look away, I've known him long enough to know he hates it when people see him cry. He barely ever cries though, so it means this must have really shaken him up. Same as me.
"Yeah. I wasn't going to tell you because anyone who knows could get killed, but we've never kept a secret from each other and we're not going to start now." Jake says giving me a weak smile which I return.
"Hanna, she also says its in my best interest if I.."
"If you what?"
"If I move to another faction."
My eyes widen, no way was this happening.
"But its ok, Hanna. I'm not listening to that stupid stiff, I'm staying here."
I smile at him trying to make it look as real as possible. But it was far from real. I felt like dying. This will be one of the hardest things I'll ever do. Jacob wants to stay but I know that to stay means to die. I want to live. It's selfish to leave him behind, but I know that if we no longer no each other he's also got a better chance of survival. It might hurt him for a while but at least he'll live.
I'm going to move faction. And I know which one.
