Mom's mouth was hanging open and I didn't know what to do. I knew that this was going to happen, but I never really planed out what I was going to tell the. Mom had a bit of a temper so this wasn't going to be that easy. She even looked at me as if she was going to kill me, and for a quick moment I thought that she really was going to. I knew that i wasn't going to get any help from dad and Marlee because just like me they were both afraid of mom. I mean who wouldn't be scared of her? She even scared our last and previous Kings, king Clarkson and King Maxon.

" Would you like to explain what just happened young lady?" mom asks as she folds her arms around her chest. Great.

" Well," I pause to think about what I'm going to say. That's one thing I get from my dad. " It's kind of what happened to you, except for the fact that I kind of like the Prince."

The words came out before i knew what I had just said. This was really bad. Mom gave me a shocked look as if that was the last thing she thought I would say, the last thing that they all thought that I would say. To them I hated the prince, all because of what mom had to go threw. I don't want to hate someone just because his family or grandfather hurt my mother. I mean if I did win mom wouldn't have to be with us. Its just that I want to make my own choices. I'm my own person, not who my family want me to be. I'm just Holland, and nothing will ever change that.

" You heard me, I like the Prince." I say challenging them. " And there is nothing any of you can do about it." It was true. No one can change how I feel, not even I can change it.

" You are not allowed to do the Selection, do you understand me?" mom yelled.

" Can't you just be proud of me? All I want is to just have a chance. I'm sorry if you love with the King didn't work out but it doesn't mean that you have to hate Prince James. For all I know he could be the love of my life." I yelled back as I ran out of the room.

Hot tear's were running down my cheeks. Why couldn't any of them just deal with things. I thought that parents were supposed to love you no matter what choice you make, even if they don't like them. All my life I've just always wanted to belong to this family, and sometimes I think that I do, but no matter how hard I may try, the only daughter to America and Aspen Leger has and always will be Marlee. I should just stop trying and except things. The Selection will be my way out of this place, and even if my mother doesn't like it, I don't care anymore. It's my turn to make my own choice.

My room was the only place where I could truly be alone. I cried there not being able to help myself. Once the tear's came there was nothing that I was able to do to stop them. It was complete hopeless.

I don't know how long it was until there was a knock on my door, but I didn't move to see who it was. It was probably Marlee coming to ask me what the heck was wrong with me, and if I was crazy. She was going to side with mom no matter what I said to her. After all i wasn't the one who gave birth to her, but if I was I would feel pretty bad for myself.

After waiting for a few seconds someone came in. As they did I whipped my tear's away. My family had never seam me cry, and I didn't want it to start now, even if I didn't want them to see the pain the caused me.

As I put my head up I saw my dad give me a sad smile. I wanted to yell at him, I wanted to tell him that I didn't want his pity, I just wanted to be left along. I didn't though because I knew that, that would hurt his feelings, and knowing how I felt I didn't want anyone else to feel as bad as I did.

He walked up to me and gave me a hug. That was all it took for my to start balling. My father was the one that I could count on sometimes. He was the one that I knew kind of loved me. We were much closer when I was younger, and he was much happier. That all changed because of Marlee though. She was always there to make something or someone that I loved end up hating me, and when anyone was around, she would give the her so called sisterly love but I've always known that it was nothing but an act, along with everything else about her. She was just a fake and did what she had to, to get what she wanted to, and made it look like I was the one who did all of the bad things.

" Are you alright?" he asked.

" Do I look alright to you?" I mummer.

Dad wasn't the smartest but that might have been because he was a Six before becoming a guard and a Two he. He didn't get to learn like mom and I did, even if it was just her mother who taught her.

" Sorry I'm not the best with these things." he says laughing.

He was wrong. he was always there for me when I was down. Marlee must have made him forget. I'm surprised he still knows who I am still.

" I'm sorry." I stopped to sniff. " I just want to get away from everything."
" Can you tell me what happened?" he asked as he kissed my hand.

" It all happened a few days ago, with Ryan. He's going to New Asia, and he's known for a while now and didn't tell me." It was a pretty sad reason, but he might be able to find something in there to understand that life isn't just a fairy tale.

" And the Selection is the only way out?"

" Well, I wasn't really thinking at first, and then it hit me. The Selection would be a good way for me to get away from it all, and I wasn't lying when I said that I like Prince James. Also, for a long time I've always wanted to know what he really was like." Letting it all out felt good.

" I'll talk to your mother about things." He got up and kissed me on the forehead and took his leave. " I'm proud of you Holland."

I smiled at that and fell asleep.