CHAPTER 7

This is it, the showdown.

Tonks hadn't slept all night. Today was the day, the day that Remus was going. She doesn't even no when she will be seeing him next. Her heart was aching and dreading this day, and now it was finally here. She had found out that Remus was at Hogwarts apparently discussing crucial things for his mission. So the plan was that her and Sirius (in his animagus form then change when they arrived at Dumbledore's office) would go to Hogwarts and say goodbye to Remus there, Remus was going to travelling by a portkey that was in Dumbledore's office.

She got up and dressed then went downstairs to have breakfast, not that she was going to eat because she had lost her apatite too. When she entered the kitchen Sirius was there reading the Daily Prophet. He looked up when she sat down

'How are you? Good night sleep eh?'

'Yeah I slept like a log' lied tonks, she gave a force smile

'Good, well we will be leaving in about 30 mins so eat up' he gestured her porridge

Tonks put a spoonful in her mouth than spat it back out when Sirius left. 'Oh no' she thought 'Remus will be going in less than an hour' She felt worse than ever.

As the minutes drifted on tonks just sat in her seat in went into deep thought: Do you think when he comes back he will love me? But he said he doesn't love you (thought a voice in the back of her head) What happens if gets hurt? If he does im going down there myself and bring him home, I don't care if I die in the attempt. Bloody hell Dumbledore's a git for doing this. No one understands him the way I do, I no he was lying when he said he doesn't love me……..

'TONKS!' Sirius shouted

'Huh what? Oh hello Sirius'

'were you day dreaming again?'

'no I was just…thinking yeh'

'well can we save it for later because we really have to leave'

Tonks heart gave a leap, she was going to see Remus soon, then she was going to see him go. She was so nervous that she kept on putting her jacket on the wrong way.

'Ready?' Sirius said, he smiled and held her hand 'its gonna be ok, trust me yeah?'

'ok' that was all she said

They arrived at Hogwarts on time; Sirius (the black dog) was trotting along side tonks. They turned the corner before Dumbledore's office and somebody had ran into tonks. It was Severus Snape, tonks gulped, the last time she saw this man was in her dream.

'Hello Miss Tonks' snape ignored the black dog barking at him 'Why may I ask are you here at Hogwarts?'

He was taller then tonks and she felt rather uncomfortable

'I was..i mean..er.. I am here to see Remus' she managed to get out; tonks was still frightened from her memory with Snape.

He eyed her in a suspicious way and tonks knew that she was once again the victim of having her mind read. She walked past him, accidentally brushed him on the arm. She knew that his black eyes were on her.

'Exploding gum!' she shouted at Dumbledore's gargoyle, she had been told by Sirius that this was the password. Straight after she said that it was turning upwards. Tonks and the black dog stepped onto it and were being lifted up and up and up.

Tonks was shaking and found I hard to stay still on the moving staircase that led to Dumbledore's office. Breatheee she thought.

The moving stairs came to a halt, her legs were numb and waited 10 seconds before she stepped off it. She looked at Dumbledore's office door, then with all her might gave it one loud knock.

'Enter'

Sirius now was transformed back to his human state, by her side.

Remus was standing there next to Dumbledore. She saw that there was a large flat standing up rock near them and guessed that was the portal to the underground were the werewolves lived. Her heart missed a beat and he walked towards them.

'Now that we are all here I would like to say that Remus would be down there for not to long, just about 4 months'

Tonks chocked, just about four months?? She thought, what on earth is this man thinking JUST four months….

They seemed to notice her reaction when Dumbledore had said this and Sirius said 'look on the bright side, you'll have me tonks' he grinned at her. She gave a shaky laugh.

'oh no look at the time, shall we say our goodbyes then?' said Dumbledore, tonks gave a little groan.

After Remus finished saying goodbye to Sirius and Dumbledore he turned to Tonks. Sirius and Dumbledore stood back allowing them some space.

'Do you know that you mean the world to me' started Remus

'then why did you say you don't love me' tonks said quietly

'Because…(he sighed) we both no we cant be together, look what I am, what im about to do. Go down and live with the werewolves!'

'No that's not true we can be together, I don't see you as a beast or a creature like some people do, I look at you for who you really are'

'Listen to me Nymphadora, I am too old, too dangerous and not to mention poor for you'

Tonks couldn't help it but started to cry, her tears rolling down her face like rain falling from the sky.

'But I want to be with you Remus!'

'I know, you mean so much to me I just can't'

They stared at each other and then tonks finally said 'What if something happens to you down there, you expect me to just sit around up here and wait for news about you?'

'Yes I expect you to do just that'

She was crying even more now, Remus grabbed her and pulled her into a warm hug. They stood there holding each other for what seemed like ages. Finally they broke apart.

'I should go' but she grabbed him and pulled him back so they were once again facing each other.

'I lov-' she couldn't get it out, she was crying and shaking.

'I love you' and with that she let out a sob and put her hands over her face.

' I know you do' he kissed her hair and left.

She stood there for a moment whimpering in her hands and went over to the portal that lead to were the werewolves lived.

'COME BACKKK' tonks was yelling and crying and was banging her fists on the rock entrance 'NO REMUS… COME BACK!'

Tonks then reached for the place where you push and the flat rock opened to the werewolf underground. But someone grabbed her by the waist and was trying to pull her back, she couldn't the person because her eyes were all puffed and blotchily. Tonks struggled to try and reach it…..she wanted to go with Remus, she wanted him so bad.

'no I want to go with him, LET ME GO' but the person was to strong, tonks was pulled away from the portal, she was still crying but calmed herself a bit.

No one could understand the pain that she was feeling now, and with that she came to the fact that he was gone.