Authors Note: I know that I have written about a funeral from Brittany's POV in "My Knight In Shining Armor" So i'm going to try and change it up, and make it different from the last one. Hopefully it lives up to everyones expectations.
The song I use in this chapter is called "It's So Hard to Say Goodbye To Yesterday" by Boyz II Men. Playing it while reading will definitely make it harder. I had a difficult time writing this.
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Nearly everyone Santana knew showed up for her funeral. Her entire family, our old classmates, and even people who didn't like her. It was understandable though. Even though they didn't like her, they respected her as a person and came to pay their condolences. The eulogy was going to be given by me, and I wanted it to be perfect. I sat in my room for hours writing and rewriting it. After what seemed to be hundreds of crumpled up papers, I finished it.
"We would like Brittany to come up here and give the eulogy." Mrs. Lopez said. She motioned me to come up on stage. I got up from my seat and made my way up the stairs. I looked up and saw the picture of Santana with flowers all around it. I stayed strong for so long I felt like I couldn't do it anymore. But I knew I had to, I knew Santana wouldn't want me to be sad. Mrs. Lopez gave me a hug, and walked off the stage. I looked out into the crowd and began to speak.
"Santana was, everything I could've ever imagined. She was smart, strong, understanding, and most importantly, loving. There was never a day that went by that she didn't remind me of how much she loved me, and how she would never hurt me. She was my soul mate. She was the one person who made me think, that there wasn't anyone else out there for me. She was perfection, perfection in a sense of imperfection. Everything that she was and wasn't; qualities and flaws, was what made her exactly what I wanted. And everything I needed. We balanced each other out; she was my missing puzzle piece. I loved her with every ounce of blood in my body, and will continue to love her as long as I live." I wiped a tear from my eye, and put my piece of paper back in my purse. "If I could have the Glee Club come up here, I'd like to share a song while Santana's slideshow plays here on the screen." Rachel created the slideshow of Santana with her family and friends. I hadn't seen it yet, so I was anxious for it to play. The music started playing, and the slideshow began. The song matched perfectly. It started with pictures of Santana as a young child with her family. So innocent, her eyes filled with confidence. Even as a child, Santana knew what she wanted in life. I looked over at her parents, they had smiles on their face but tears still fell from their eyes.
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
The pictures started showing High School days at McKinley. That was the Santana I remembered. Her beautiful smile, and big brown eyes. The way her Cheerios uniform hugged her body so perfectly. I missed it. I missed her.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And that's when it got really tough. Pictures of us together started showing. Video clips of us riding four wheelers at my aunt's ranch, and us at the park playing on swings. It was all of my favorite memories with Santana. It took all I had left inside of me to not break down then.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
As the song finished, the instrumental went on and watched as the pictures of us still played on the screen. The last video was something I recorded and Santana was talking to me. I remembered that day like it was yesterday. We were sitting on the bleachers at the football field after Cheerios practice one day. We always had time like this, but this one in particular was my favorite. The music went quieter, so everyone could hear her talking.
"San tell me how much you love me" I saw her smiling at the camera, and she sort of turned her head and did that cute smile she always gave me.
"Britt you already know how much I love you. You just wanna hear me say it." She chuckled, and ran her hand through her hair.
"You already know that I love hearing it, so just tell me!"
"Alright, alright. Stop giving me that pouty face. You know I can't resist that." She smiled, and then looked straight into the lens. It felt like she was actually there. It made my heart drop. I could feel the tears coming faster. "Brittany, you are my one and only. You are the first person that I have ever fallen in love with. Falling is actually an understatement. It was more like, destiny. Destiny is what brought us together. My angel from heaven. The only one in the entire world for me. Don't you let anyone make you think that what i'm saying isn't true. Because I meant everything from the bottom of my heart. You're sexy, loving, and you take care of me like no one else. You know exactly what to say to calm me down, and what to tell me when i'm crying." That's when she grabbed the camera and put it down on the bleacher in a way that you could see both of us sitting. She scooted closer to me, and held my hands in hers. "Brittany Susan Pierce, I love you with everything my entire heart and soul. And nothing is ever going to change that." Santana kissed me, and then pulled me in for a hug.
The video faded out. That's when I realized I was in denial the entire time. I didn't want to allow myself to believe that she was gone for good. Watching her on the screen, made me realize she wasn't coming back. I wouldn't be able to look into her eyes anymore. I wouldn't be able to feel the warmness of her skin against mine. I was going home, to an empty bed. I wouldn't have anymore sweet kissed from her, or long hugs in her arms. All those thoughts ran through my mind, and that's when I broke. Rachel and Quinn grabbed me, and held me up. Being strong didn't last that long. The emotions were hitting me like a high-speed train. I couldn't handle it. Santana was gone, and there was nothing I could do about it.