AUTHORS NOTE: I found myself a BETA! And she's amazing! Anyway, I hope you all have been enjoying this fic. The two songs in this chapter are Haunted by Kelly Clarkson, and God Must've Spent A Little More Time On You by N*Sync. Comments, favorites, reviews. ANYTHING. It's motivation! :)
It was around 2:30 and I was getting ready to leave the house to head down to Mike's studio. I was wondering why he wanted me to go down there.
"When are you going to be back?" Quinn was at the counter when she asked me. I looked at her as I grabbed my purse from the table.
"I'm not sure, I'll let you know though. Why do you ask?" She looked down. "Q? Whatsup?" She looked like she wanted to tell me something.
"It's nothing, Britt. You better get going you don't want to keep Mike waiting." She smiled at me and continued making her late lunch. I got into the car and headed down to Mike's studio. When I got to the doors of the building, a handwritten sign was hanging on the door.
Sorry for the inconvenience, all classes have been cancelled today due to personal agendas. See you all tomorrow.
I grabbed my phone and saw I had a missed call and a text from Mike.
Disregard the sign out front. Come around back, I'll be back there.
I walked around the building and saw Mike sitting at a table drinking a beer. He saw me and smiled.
"I'm glad you could make it Britt. Come, have a seat." I walked over to the table and sat next to him. "You must be wondering why I asked you to come down today. Well, when you told me that you didn't have a outlet to express your emotions other than singing, I thought you should try dancing." I shook my head.
"Mike I haven't even danced before and I.." He interrupted me.
"Just trust me. Give it a try. I won't make fun of you I promise." He stood up and motioned me to follow him. His studio was so big. It was beautiful.
"This place is so nice, Mike. Tina would've loved it." He smiled.
"She saw it before she passed away. The first people to dance in here, was us." He looked up at the picture of them together on the wall. "And I will always remember it. Anyway, let's get down to business. I found a song that both of us can relate to and it's pretty easy to dance to. It's simple." He showed me the steps and how his routine went. I felt like it came all too easily for me.
"Wow Britt. You look like a natural. Let's try it with the music." He walked over to the stereo and pressed play. "You ready?"
"As ready as I'll ever be." I told him. The music started playing.
Louder, louder
The voices in my head
Whispers taunting
All the things you said
Faster the days go by and I'm still
Stuck in this moment of wanting you here
Mike and I moved around each other with ease. It came so naturally. I didn't over think anything. I danced as if Santana was there watching me.
Time
In the blink of an eye
You held my hand, you held me tight
I felt like I had been doing this for years. Why hadn't I thought of this sooner? Memories of Santana started to come to my mind. I felt like this could be something I could get used to doing. Something that I knew I would love.
Now you're gone
And I'm still crying
Shocked, broken
I'm dying inside
The tempo of the music got faster. The faster it got, the more emotion I put into it. I felt like I was letting everything go. I never felt this way in a while. I felt happy. Genuinely happy because I felt like I was emptying the emotions I kept in me for so long onto the dance floor.
Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
The routine wasn't that long and Mike ran over to the stereo to shut it off.
"Britt. You're amazing. Have you danced before?" I shook my head.
"I never did. But this? It wasn't hard. I liked it. Actually, I loved it." I smiled. I wiped the sweat off of my head with my shirt. We sat on the ground and talked. After about a half an hour of reminiscing about high school, he brought up a question.
"When did you start, feeling better? Like, about Santana being gone." I looked at him.
"Honestly? It still hurts until this day when I think about it. I'll think about going home and she won't be there. I'd be going home to dinners for one, and a lonely couch when I'm watching Glee. It was our favorite show to watch together." He looked at me, and flashed me a small smile.
"You still love her, don't you Britt." I nodded.
"With everything I have in me. I feel better everyday. It just takes time. The hurt will eventually go away, Mike. Trust me."
"You're a great friend, Britt. Do you want to be my dance partner? There's a competition coming up in a couple weeks, and you'd be perfect. You've got a lot of talent. I haven't seen someone who picked up on my moves so quickly before. But it's only if you want to." The biggest smile appeared on my face.
"Really? I'd love to!" I hugged me and we both fell over. He started laughing.
"Don't hurt me, Britt. Or you'll be out a partner!" We laughed.
"I should probably start heading home. It's getting late." I stood up and hugged Mike one more time. "I'll always be here if you need someone to talk to Mike. Don't worry okay?"
"Thanks Brittany. That means a lot." I said goodbye and walked out to my car. I sat in the drivers seat for a bit. I was exhausted. I hadn't used so much energy in a long time. Driving home, all I could think about was Santana. I wondered if she was proud of me, if she knew what I learned about myself. That I could dance. I'm sure she knows; she always watches me. I got home and Quinn was sitting on the couch watching tv.
"Hey Britt. You hungry? I have some extra lasagna in the oven. I know it's your favorite." She got up from the couch and walked over to where I was in the kitchen.
"I actually just want some water. I'm so exhausted from dancing with Mike, I want to sleep." She put the extra lasagna in the refrigerator.
"Oh okay. That's fine. Did you have fun? You look like you did. I haven't seen you this happy in a long time." She started putting her hair in high pony.
"I am happy. I felt like I released so many emotions I've been holding inside of me. It feels great. Maybe you should dance too Quinn. It could help!" She chuckled.
"I don't dance, Britt. I'm not good at it." She smiled and walked back over to the couch. I drank about two glasses of water and headed upstairs. I layed on my bed, and fell asleep.
I opened my eyes and found myself on the stage in the auditorium. Not all of the lights were on. I walked from the left to the right side of the stage and that's when I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around and Santana walked out from the darkness. I smiled.
"You look so much better than when I first saw you, Britt." She walked over to me and kissed me. "You must feel a lot better after dancing with Mike today."
"I knew you were watching." She nodded.
"Of course I was. You're amazing Britt. So graceful and fluent with every move." I blushed.
"Stop it babe." I giggled a little.
"You're so cute. Dance with me, my love." She held out her hand. I grabbed it and moved closer to her.
"There's no music?"
"Don't worry, I got it covered Britt." Music started playing and we started swaying back and forth.
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
there's an angel
It's a miracle..
"This is the song I would listen to all the time. It was exactly how I felt for you. I'm sorry I didn't share this with you before." San kissed me and continued dancing.
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent a little more time
On you..
Santana put her head on my shoulder and I felt her embrace get tighter. I missed her so much. I missed the feeling of her touch. The way she fit so perfectly when I hugged her.
In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified
"I love you, Brittany. This is the song that I want to make ours. You know? How all couples have their 'song'?" She smiled. "I want this to be ours. It perfectly describes how I feel for you. How I will always feel for you." The music continued playing in the background as we talked.
"Of course it can be our song, baby. Whichever song you want." I kissed her again. I missed the feeling of her lips on mine. "Can you try and promise me something?"
"Anything, B."
"Could you come and watch Mike and I dance in the competition in a couple of weeks?" I looked at her with optimism in my eyes.
"I was already planning on it." She held my hands. "I don't want you to ever forget what you meant to me. I want you to know that as long as my memory lives within you; so will my love. Brittany I won't be able to stay around much longer." Tears started filling my eyes.
"What do you mean?" I didn't understand.
"I have to leave here sometime, baby. I can't stay here forever. As much as I want to, I can't. This isn't the last time you'll be seeing me. I'm just preparing you for what's coming." I started crying.
"I don't want to lose you." She looked at me and flashed an innocent smile.
"Baby you already lost me."
"You know what I meant, San." She grabbed my hands and pulled me closer to her. Our foreheads were touching each other.
"I'm always going to be with you no matter what, Britt. You know that. I know you're strong. Like I said. This isn't goodbye. It's a see you later. Okay?" I hesitated but I nodded anyway.
"I'm guessing you have to go now?"
"No babe. Not this time." Everything went dark. When the light came back, we were in her room. She was wearing her favorite Louisville cheerleading shirt. Hair down, no make up on.
"Come here babe." She layed on her bed and I layed next to her. We cuddled and I smiled.
"I've missed this." I told her.
"I know you have. Shh. Rest now okay? I know you're tired from all that dancing today." She kissed me one last time and I felt myself falling asleep.
"I love you, San." I got the words out before I was taken over by exhaustion. But before I completely fell asleep, I felt a kiss on my forehead and the words I loved hearing.
"I love you too, Britt. Proudly so."