Hi! I'm so sorry that I never posted a Halloween special. I didn't finish it in time! Heck, it's not even finished now. -.- I promise there will be a Christmas one and one on the 27th Dec for the Kagamine's birthday!
Warning: This one shot is my first time writing TWINCEST. It's taken me ages to work up the courage to write a twincest fanfic and I'm finally brave enough. So if you don't like twincest, DON'T READ!
I dedicate this to xX little kagami Xx This is because she is a faithful reviewer to my new story There's A First Time For Everything and I'm very grateful to her. :)
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Forbidden Movies
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I could feel my heart practically leaping out of my chest.
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I was hot all over. I could barely breathe.
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Butterflies were flapping wildly around in my stomach.
Why, of all people, did it have to be her making me feel like that?
It was calm and quiet Sunday. Everyone was out of the Vocaloid Mansion, enjoying a day at the beach. Well, except Rin and I. The night before we'd stayed up late watching horror movies and neither of us could sleep afterwards (not that I was scared or anything…ha ha…)
Instead, we overslept and everyone went without us. Not that we minded. After all, we hadn't had a day just to ourselves for a while. It was always so loud in the house that sometimes my ears threatened to drop right off.
Due to us still being very sleepy, we decided to have a lazy day watching even more movies. Maybe just not the horror ones. We decided to watch one movie for each genre. We'd made it through adventure, comedy, sci-fi and we were currently watching Totoro for animation. Ah, Totoro, it never gets old.
We were sat in the living room, on a big purple sofa. Rin was snuggled closely up to me and I had my arms around her. Our eyes were fixed on the screen but my mind was elsewhere. I was trying my best to pay attention to the lovable forest spirit but it was no use.
I could only focus on Rin.
How she was close enough for me to feel her warm breath, smell her citrus hair and hear her cute giggles at the sight of a big bear-rabbit thing playing in the rain. It was so overwhelming I couldn't think straight. I'm sure it is fairly obvious.
I was in love with Rin.
However, fate was cruel. I had to fall in love with the one girl who I wished I hadn't. But I couldn't help it.
I was in love with my sister. My twin sister.
I understood that my feelings were pure taboo but I couldn't stop it. Ever since we were little, we had been oddly close. Not as close as siblings usually are. We always had to be next to each other. Even when we moved out to join the Vocaloids when we were twelve, we had to hang on to each other for days before we got settled in.
I've always felt attracted to Rin. When we were little, it was just a harmless crush. I guessed it would pass over time. I'd meet a nice girl who was really pretty and fall for her instead. I met plenty of nice girls who were really pretty. When I met Miku and Gumi I was hoping I'd fall for them but I didn't.
Around the time we turned thirteen I realised it was more than just a childish crush. I was deeply in love with her.
I knew there is no chance for Rin to feel the same way. I was just her older twin brother by thirty seconds. I was merely the person that she could rely on, cry on and sometimes bicker with. It hurt a lot.
But what hurt more was the fact that even if she felt the same, it was impossible for us to be together. We'd never get accepted by society. Worse still, imagine how disgusted the other vocaloids would be. I didn't want to think what our parents would say.
I felt something prodding my face, snapping me out of my thoughts. I looked to the side and found that Rin was gently poking my cheek.
"It's finished," Rin said and yawned shortly after. The noise she made was adorable. "Wanna watch something else?"
"Go on then," I sighed. "It's not like we have anything better to do."
"Ok," Rin said and wriggled out of my arms. She slowly stood up but wobbled a bit before she made her way over to the TV set. She bent down and ejected the disk. "Whatcha want to watch now?" she asked.
"What genre haven't we had yet?"
"Um…there's crime, mystery, supernatural. I don't really feel like them though," Rin replied.
"Me neither," I agreed while lifting my arms up to stretch. I yawned, shut my eyes and sighed sleepily.
"Oooo!" Rin squeaked.
"What?"
"Let's watch a romance!"
O.O
My eyes snapped open and grew wide in shock. My breathe became heavy. Watch a romance with Rin? NO! I couldn't possibly! What if I tried to make a move on her? I'd probably scar her! Nah, nuh-uh, no way, mm mm, NO!
"Fine."
It was useless. I just couldn't say no to my adorable twin. It was always like that. Rin sometimes took advantage of it and made me do things like her chores and homework.
Rin popped in a DVD and quickly scurried back over to the sofa. I opened up my arms and she gladly fell into them and resumed her previous position. At least I could cuddle with her like this. Even if it did make my heart pound about a million times per minute.
"What is it then?" I asked while fiddling with Rin's bow.
"It's called First Love Academy. It's an anime I borrowed off Gumi," she answered.
I calmed down a little bit. At least it wasn't live action. That would have been unbearable.
Rin pressed play and the opening credits began. The song playing was a little cheesy but I had to admit, it was catchy. I was a bit confused at first but after a bit I understood the story. Basically two boys, one popular and the other a geek, were both in love with their class president and battling each other to get her.
I realised the geeky boy looked a little bit like me. If only I'd fallen in love with our class president, Teto, then maybe things would be a lot easier.
About half way through it, Rin paused the film and said, "I need the toilet."
I let her free once again and she skipped off to the bathroom. I felt thirsty so I got up and wandered into the kitchen. I was relived to find Meiko and Kaito had been shopping and found a new bottle of banana milk. I also grabbed some
orange juice and poured Rin and I a glass of our favourite drinks.
"There you are," said Rin as she appeared in the kitchen doorway. I held up the glass with orange juice. "Thanks!" she grinned and we both went back into the living room.
As we were sitting back down Rin said, "I wish the geeky one would just confess already. That's what I'd do if I had a crush!"
"Hn," I replied as I was busy bashing a pillow to make it more comfortable.
"Len?" asked Rin.
"Yes?"
"Do you have a crush on someone?"
BAM. I was not expecting that. I stopped bashing the poor pillow to death and looked towards Rin. I was met with her big, azure eyes. She was waiting for a response.
"No," I lied.
"I don't believe you," said Rin as her eyes narrowed.
"Have I lied to you before?" I asked. I could feel my palms begin to sweat.
"Yes. Remember when you accidentally overfed my goldfish and it died? You told me Orange clawed the thing out of its bowl. I ignored poor Orange for a month," huffed Rin.
"Really, Rin?" I sighed. We were six when that incident happened. SIX! I didn't mean to overfeed Goldie. I was using his food as snow for him but it never occurred to me he'd eat it. Stupid six year old brain.
"Yes, really. And anyway, I can see it in your eyes," she said and leaned in really close to me, staring into my eyes. She was close enough for me to kiss her.
"OK fine," I admitted just so that Rin would retreat to a safe distance from me.
She did so and said, "Knew it. Must be a twin thing."
"Right…" I said doubtfully. I couldn't help but feel a pang in my chest when Rin referred to us as twins.
"Are you gonna tell me?" she said while cocking her head to the side. She looked like a puppy.
"I don't think so," I sighed. She looked rather sad at that but quickly shook it off.
"Ok, but you have to confess to her."
"W-WHAT?"
"You heard me. You either tell me who it is or I'll make you confess to her," said Rin with a smirk. That's a bad thing about Rin. Her blackmailing.
"Rin, I-I-"
"WHAT GIRL DO YOU LIKE?" yelled Rin almost angrily. So much for our peaceful Sunday.
"I never said it was a girl," I pointed out.
Rin's eyes grew wide and she shuffled away from me a bit. "L-Len, I never th-thought you were-"
"NO! I'm not like that Rin. I was simply making a point," I quickly put in. Well, I'd just made the situation even more awkward.
"R-right," giggled Rin who was now slightly pink in the face. "So?"
"Rin…please…" I begged.
"Nu-uh! Who is it?"
"Alright fine! I'll confess!" I cried. Rin smirked and I gulped. I'd have to confess to Rin? Crap.
"Either ring her now or tell her tomorrow at school," ordered Rin. I didn't really want to confess to some random girl so I guessed there was no getting out of it.
"A-alright. I'll tell her now," I mumbled. "Just…how do I tell her?"
"Idiot," muttered Rin while shaking her head. "Just say it. Say I love you!"
"R-right, ok I-I will," I stuttered.
"Why don't you practice on me, eh?" offered Rin. I stared at her in confusion. "It might make things easier!"
I took a deep breath and whispered, "I love you."
Rin cupped a hand around her ear and said, "You'll have to speak up sweety, granny can't hear."
I chuckled a bit at her words and said a bit louder, "I love you."
"Still not loud enough, deary," said Rin in her old lady voice.
"I LOVE YOU!" I bellowed.
Rin leapt away from me and fell off the sofa. "I think you made your dear granny deaf," spluttered a slightly dizzy Rin.
I pulled her back up onto the sofa and said, "I think she was deaf already."
Rin smiled and said, "At least you've said it. Go tell that girl what you just said, but maybe not quite so loud."
I couldn't help but notice the tinge of sadness hanging off her tone. But why would she be sad? She'd just won. She'd forced me to confess. Hang on, was it possible she liked me back? No, she couldn't. But…there was a chance, right?
"Go on, tell her," Rin said softly for what felt like the thousandth time.
I sucked up all my courage and said, "I just did."
"H-huh?"
The next few moments happened so quickly I can only remember them as a blur. Somehow my lips were suddenly on Rin's smaller pink ones. They stayed there for a few seconds and…SLAP!
The next thing I knew was that there was a searing pain going through my left cheek. I looked to see a rosy red Rin with her hand raised. If Rin slapping me wasn't bad enough we suddenly heard a BANG! We looked to the side and stared.
Everyone was standing in the doorway with their jaws on the floor. They were obviously back from their beach day early. The 'bang' was Kaito who seemed to have fallen over.
I heard a whimper and turned to see tears streaming down Rin's face. I held up my hand but Rin pushed it away, sprang up and ran out the room and up the stairs. I could hear her wailing. Rin never cried, let alone wailed.
What. Had. I. Done.
Ignoring the gobsmacked witnesses I charged after my poor twin and bounded up the stairs. I heard a door slam which was presumably our shared bedroom's door. I could also hear Rin loudly sobbing.
I'd ruined everything. My relationship with Rin had been destroyed. I'd managed to keep it normal for so long and one little slip up had changed everything. Rin probably hated me now. I didn't blame her. I was a sick, sick human being. I was supposed to protect Rin and stay her loyal brother. But no, I had to go and fall in love with her. Damn it all!
I arrived at the our bedroom door and tried to open it. I wasn't surprised it was locked. I instantly began pounding on it, determined to get her to let me in.
"Rin! Rin! Open this door!" I demanded.
"No! Go away!" cried Rin from the other side. She began to wail again.
"Please, Rin! I'm sorry!"
"NO! You stupid pig! I HATE YOU!"
Rin's words echoed in my head several times before I properly took them in. When they finally sank in, I stopped the pounding. Rin hated me. She really hated me.
"I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" Rin screamed over and over.
I could barely stand it. It was breaking my heart. I sniffed and felt a tear slide down my cheek. Then another and another and another until I was in full on sobbing mode as well. My heart, that beat for Rin and only Rin, was slowly crumbling to pieces.
"I HATE YOU!" Rin continued. Her voice was becoming horse but she didn't let it stop her. She carried on throwing the same hurtful phrase at me again and again.
I was crying so hard I could barely breathe. I brought my hands to my face but quickly lowered them when I felt a sting again in my left cheek. I looked at the hand that had touched it and found some red liquid on it. Rin had slapped me pretty hard.
"I HATE YOU! How dare you mess with my feelings! Did you find my diary or something? You…you bastard!"
At first, I could only notice that Rin had called me a swear word. She had never done that before. But then I noticed what she'd said prior to that. Her diary? Things started to click together in my head. I gasped in realisation. I had to get that door open!
I backed away from the door and took a deep, shaky breath. With tears still streaming down my face I charged to the door and crashed my shoulder against it.
"Ahh!" I cried in pain. But there was no time for nursing it. I backed away again and slammed myself against the door once more. Wincing at my shoulder I stepped back. Third time lucky, I thought. I ran to the door, threw myself onto it and thankfully it bust open.
I quickly looked around, trying to find Rin. My eyes landed on a little lump at the end of Rin's bed. It was shaking and whimpering, not something a lump would usually do. I stumbled over to it and knelt down next to the bed.
"Rin," I whimpered.
"I thought I told you go away," gasped Rin.
"You did," I gulped. "But I need to talk to you."
"Why?" asked Rin, still hiding under the covers. "Why'd you do it? Though it'd be funny messing with little Rinny's feelings, eh? Well, I certainly didn't think it was funny."
"No, Rin. I didn't think that but-"
"And when did you find out then?" she said. "Got a hold of my dairy when I went shopping with Gumi last Thursday?"
"No, Rin, I-"
"You've broken me, Len! Broken me! Can't you see how much I love you?"
There it was. As soon as she had mentioned something about a diary I realised something. Rin must have thought I'd found out she was in love with me and I wanted to make fun of her for it. It all made sense now. Even better, she loved me back! But I wished we wouldn't of found out like that.
"Yes, now I can see. Rin, you've got to listen. I love you too!" I confessed.
"What?" she asked and a little blond head popped out from under the covers. "You…you weren't making fun of me?"
"No! I love you dearly Rin. I know I shouldn't, but I do!"
"Oh, Len," sniffed Rin. She scrunched up her pretty face yet again and let a fresh batch of tears flow. I stood up, clambered up onto the bed, pulled Rin close and cradled her in my arms. I began to cry again along with her. We stayed like that, sobbing in each other's arms for what felt like ages.
After a while, Rin whispered, "You're definitely telling the truth now?"
I kissed the top of her head and replied, "Of course."
Rin nodded. "Then, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't believe you. I'm sorry I hit you. I'm sorry I said all those horrible things. I'm so sorry!" she cried.
"Shh, Rin shh," I said while I stroked her hair. "There, there now."
Rin pulled away from me a bit and I stared at her questioningly. She leaned back in but slightly higher up and shut her eyes. I understood and copied her actions.
Our lips met and it was almost like I had been transported into another world. The kiss was soft, sweet and gentle. It was full of love, all I could ever want.
I became brave and pushed my tongue past her lips. Rin gasped but quickly returned my actions. We began to explore each other like we had never dared to before. All I could feel, smell and taste was Rin. Rin, Rin, Rin. We didn't want it to stop. We wanted the kiss to last forever more.
We suddenly jumped apart when we heard footsteps. I looked over to the now broken door that was still hanging open and caught a glimpse of teal and magenta. Rin must of seen it too for she sighed and said, "What are we going to do?"
"I honestly don't know," I replied truthfully.
Rin turned her attention back to me and whispered, "I love you, Len."
"I love you too, Rin," I whispered back and gave her one last peck. "Come on then. I think we need to clean ourselves up.
Rin climbed off of my lap and we made our way to the bathroom. We splashed cold water on our red, puffy eyes and Rin attended to my swollen cheek. She kept saying she was sorry over and over again.
"Kagamines! Dinner!" called what sounded like Meiko's voice.
"Are you ready?" I asked Rin and took her hand.
"Yes," confirmed Rin and we made our way down the stairs.
Dinner was awfully awkward. No one said a work except Kaito, Being the idiot he was, he wouldn't shut up. After a while of his blabbering about goodness knows what Meiko yelled, "SHUT UP!" He obeyed but began shifting uncomfortably.
"Rin, Len," said Luka and we all stared at her. "While you two were upstairs we were having a little chat. We've decided not to interfere with you situation. Being your band members and best friends, we don't care if you want to be a couple."
Rin and I gasped and looked around the table. Everyone was smiling and nodding understandingly at us. Miku was even wiping a single tear from her eye.
"But," said Luka. "I can't say the same for the rest of the world, not to mention your parents. Do you promise to keep this a secret?"
"Yes," Rin and I said in unison.
"Then…we hope this goes well for you," said Luka with a smile.
I could hardly believe it. There was still that horrible weight on my shoulders at the thought of society finding out but at least our friends accepted us. That would satisfy me for the time being.
After dinner Rin and I retired to our bedroom. Gakupo offered to fix our crumpled door in the morning and Meiko had checked my shoulder for me. Thankfully, nothing was broken. Miku was extremely happy for us and Kaito even gave us some of his ice cream. Miracle.
We'd pushed our single beds that were on the opposite sides of the room to meet together in the middle. Now, we wouldn't have to leave each other.
We got into our pyjamas and climbed into bed. We gave each other a kiss goodnight and settled down in a warm embrace. However, from that day's events neither of us could sleep. After lying awake for an hour I sat up and brought Rin up with me.
"What are we doing?" whispered Rin.
"Come on sweetheart," I said and kissed her on the cheek. "Let's watch another movie."
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And there we have it! My first time writing twincest! And I've probably scared all my readers and reviewers off now but there we go! Totoro is a shout out to all fellow Ghibli fans and First Love Academy is a song by Rin, Len and Gumi. If you haven't heard it yet, go check it out now! As usually, I never intended for it to be this long but never mind.
I don't know when I'll update next. Probably around Christmas since There's A First Time For Everything is taking up the creative writing section of my mind. XD Bye for now!
And please review. It makes me want to keep on writing! :)