So I've got exams atm and I'm really finding this storys helping me wind down from studying, I'm enjoying it, hope you guys are too! It would mean so much if you'd tell me how your finding it too, or even just a follow or that!

"So, now that you're finally sober, you want to tell me what the hell was going on with you on Saturday?" Puck asks, giving me a concerned look. It's taken until Sunday evening for me to be over my hangover enough to sit up for more than 20 minutes without hurling.

"I just got a little carried away. I guess I still don't know my limit." I say, trying to convince him that was all it was. "I think we both know me and alcohol don't lead to a sensible girl. Least this time we won't have to deal with it for nine months."

"Quinn. What happened last night?"

"Nothing, Finn brought me home. I went to bed. The end" I say, looking at my feet, and I know I've pretty much given the game away as soon as I do.

"Did you sleep with him?" He growls. "Quinn answer me!"

"For your information, I didn't. I was going to, because I felt guilty about kissing you. But he stopped me. Said it wasn't right considering how I was. It's funny though. The more I think about it, it was so similar to last year. Getting wasted at a party, getting taken home. Just ended differently, and we know that this time we've not ruined our lives again. But maybe that's because of who the other person was.

"Stop it Q."

"What?" I say, avoiding his eyes.

"You're pushing me away. Making everything mean less than it did. You were never, EVER just a conquest for me. You were all about love, I've loved you for as long as I've known you. I don't get why you can't see that. Maybe that's how you deal with it, burying your heart away and hiding your feelings, but not me. Those nine months that you 'dealt' with, were the best of my life!" He sighed "they meant everything to me. When you were staying with me, and we were getting ready for Beth coming, I was happy for the first time in my life. Having you there completed me. So don't make out that they were just this huge mistake that we have to regret forever. Yes we messed up, but it lead to something so much better than just some mistake, Quinn, it lead to our baby."

I can't hold back the tears that come from what he says. So instead I sit in my living room and let him hold me while I cry. I can't help but think how wrong this is. I'm dating Finn. This shouldn't be happening! Puck and I shouldn't be alone in a room, let alone a house! It's like we're trying to repeat everything again. I think about my actions last night. Am I that stupid to almost do the exact thing again? Let someone else knock me up when I'm drunk? At least it would've been my boyfriend this time. But now, here I am sitting with his best friend, again!

"Q, please don't get so upset. I didn't mean to hurt you or anything, I swear I didn't! I just think we need to talk about things."

"I ruined your life, Noah." I whisper.

"What are you talking about?! Q, you are my life!" he tells me, cupping my face in his hands and pulling me so close that I can count his eyelashes. "I know I still kind of suck as a person, but I'm way better because of you, Quinn. You make me want to be a better person, you inspire me."

"But I shouldn't!" I wail, "I took everything you wanted away. You were going to be a perfect father! You would have been everything both of ours weren't and more! But I stole that opportunity from you. I put her up for adoption, I took away your chance. You say I make you a better person? Well how much of a better person would Beth have made you? All I've done is make everything worse!"

"Quinn Fabray. You are my world. I love you, I need you. You are perfect to me, but you need to stop blaming yourself for this! WE chose to have Beth adopted. We both signed the papers, and we both need to move on. Every day I think of her. Heck, every minute! I wonder what she's doing, what she likes, what scares her, and I wish I could see her all the time. But we weren't ready. We were stupid kids and I know that the decision we made to give her up to someone as amazing as Shelby can only mean her life will be incredible. And we gave her that." He's looking at me, and I can't help but feel better when I see the sincerity in his eyes. "Personally, that makes me feel like a pretty good person. But without you, I couldn't have been that good to her. Yes, I would have kept her. But that would've been wrong. You made me do right by the best thing I've ever done. So I can never thank you enough for it."

"Noah." I whisper.

But I'm stopped by him kissing me. And that's all it takes. That one kiss is enough to weaken me, to let him in again.

For the first time in what seems like forever, I feel at home. Lying in his arms is where I belong. That one kiss took me right back to the girl from last year, drinking with Puck, all sensibility going straight out of the window. Except this time, this time it was like it was real. It wasn't some drunken mistake, it was just natural. Like two people knowing where they were meant to be, that this was what they were meant to be doing. Except it isn't. Because I have a boyfriend, who just so happens to be his – on and off - best friend. Well, I guess I really haven't learned.

"I wish it could be like this all the time Q, I really do."

"Noah. Please don't." I say, and I wish I didn't have to be horrible all the time. Why am I fighting this?

"I get it Quinn, you're not ready. So what, you want me to keep waiting?"

"Honestly, Noah, I think I am. But I can't do this to everyone again. I've just got things back on track and – "

"Why are you so obsessed with what people think of you?!" He yells, scaring me with how fast his temper flares. "What do they matter?! They're just stupid people in a stupid town that we'll be way better than in like two years!"

"The stupid people at school don't mean a thing to me, Noah." I say calmly, "But my mother does. She's a mess. She's lost her perfect daughter in me, her other perfect daughter in my sister who refuses to speak to her, and is divorcing my father. The only normality she knows is a bottle of vodka. If I don't give her something, then she'll drink herself into the ground."

"Oh. God, Quinn I'm sorry I didn't realise things were that bad."

"I know, I know. Nobody does and I'd like it to stay that way." I tell him, already worrying about what I have to say next. "But I ruined her life once, I can't do it twice. So I need her to think I'm her perfect star again. I need to be like she was at my age again. So right now my priority is my image. I need to be that straight A, head cheerleader who also so happens to be Prom Queen. And Noah, I'm sorry but Finn's my best shot at that."

"Why can't it be me Quinn? Why? We could do it too!" He says, and I can see that I'm breaking his heart.

"Nobody would believe it. Think about how often we fought last year, how often we off, then on then off again! It's too unstable for people to see it as real. I just need this time Noah, please let me make things better for her."

"I love you Q, so I'll do whatever you need. As long as you promise we can be together after you rule again, and I can join you at the top." He smirks. "But, I'm staying here tonight, damage is already done now anyway right?

"Fine. You can stay. But not a word to anyone."

"Hey! How you feeling now? I hope you were okay after I left yesterday, but you know mom was worried and what not." Finn says, flashing me his goofy smile. I suddenly feel a lot worse.

"Oh yeah, I'm okay, still feeling it a little bit but life goes on." I smile, and move to change the subject from last night, before the guilt gets too much. "So, your dancing was better in that performance there. Have you been practicing?"

"Really! Wow. Yeah I guess I have been doing a – " I can't help but watch Puck over Finn's shoulder. He's talking to that Lauren, and he's doing that flirty stance thing he always does when he picks up cheerleaders. But Lauren? Seriously! Not really his type. Oh god, I'm jealous. I am standing speaking to my boyfriend and I'm getting jealous. This is ridiculous. I don't even know what Finn's been saying. I think it's okay though. He doesn't seem to have noticed.

As we leave the auditorium I feel more and more guilty about last night. Finn doesn't suspect a thing. After it all, he still trusts me. I treated him terribly last year and he forgave me, and has been super trusting with me since. And how have I repayed him? By doing it all over again.

"Finn, I've been thinking about the weekend and what went down. How you stopped me and didn't take advantage." I say, interrupting him. "It was really sweet of you, and you really proved yourself to me. I feel like I can really trust you. So, um, why don't you come over tonight and we can spend a little more time together?"

"Oh. Um, yeah, I'd love to Quinn!" Finn beams.

"Great, I was thinking you could just come over straight from school after Glee club?" I smile as he nods, and he walks me to class.

So I kind of struggled with this. I really want Quinn and Puck, but I'm trying to keep this real to the story (I know I have changed a few things) and I tried to make it into a believable way for Quinn being a bit of a bitch over the whole Finn thing. I think it works, let me know if you do. Anyway thanks for reading!