"Takeda-san"
"Good morning Kuroko-kun, you're up early today. Did you get a good sleep?"
"Yes, thank you for asking. Uhm…Takeda-san?"
"Sana-san is fine, Kuroko-kun. You also call my husband Takeda-san, one of these days Haru and I will get confused if you call us both Takeda-san.
"Ah, I'm sorry. Then, uhm S..Sana-san, about Dr. Miura, what time is she arriving? She's coming today right?"
"Ah yes, she will be here at afternoon. You must be delighted Kuroko, I heard today is your last check up."
"Yes I am, and I also wanted to ask her a question"
"About what? Oh my, did you finally remember something? I remember Akashi-sama gave you back your belongings, perhaps the person who gave you that bracelet?"
"No, I haven't actually, not even after seeing this bracelet."
"I'm sorry for asking that Kuroko-kun. Now then, I need to go Kuroko-kun. Breakfast should be ready in a few minutes, I'll tell them to bring some here when it's ready."
"Thank you, Sana-san"
*door closing*
Two days ago, Akashi-san gave me the clothes I was wearing when he found me, as well as this bracelet with my name engraved to it. A name I can't remember. I don't even know if it's really my name. I could've borrow this from someone, or found it somewhere and decided to claim it, or, or, or that Akashi could have bought this and thought it would be funny to play with me. I don't know. Tetsuya Kuroko, Tetsuya Kuroko, Tetsuya Kuroko, Tetsuya Kuroko and still, no matter how many times I say that name, nothing.
*knock knock* *door opens*
"Akashi-san? Do you need something?"
"I heard from Sana that you're up, I thought I'd come and visit."
"Thank you for the concern Akashi-san, but you don't need to do that"
"No, I insist on it, plus I'm bored. Now then Tetsuya, why do you still call me Akashi-san? You can just call me Seijuurou, were the same age anyway"
"Same age?"
"I mean to say, you look like you're around my age. Around 23-25 years old"
"How old are you?"
"I'm 25 years old. Now will you call me Seijuurou?"
"I'm sorry, I still can't call you that. I feel uncomfortable to call you by your first name."
"Straightforward answers huh, well aren't I the person who saved you, why would you feel uncomfortable to call your savior by his name?"
"The way you say it make it seem like I owe you big time"
"You do, I could have left you there, but I didn't."
"Fine, thank you so much for saving me Seijuurou-san"
"Seijuurou. Just Seijuurou, adding –san to it make it sound like I'm an old person."
"Seijuurou…-kun"
"Fine, I'll accept Seijuurou-kun"
Why does this guy want me to call him by his first name so bad? I just don't get him. He barges in my room as he likes, talks as if he knows everything, and savior? Didn't you said that you almost ran me over and almost killed me. Although, he did 'save' me in a way, and even let me stay here.
"What with that look Tetsuya?"
"Huh? It's nothing S..Seijuurou-kun"
Akashi-san, I mean Seijuurou-kun left after that. He's 25, of course he must be heading to work, although with a house like this and with servants I'm somehow curious of whatever his job is.
Dr. Miura came in the afternoon, just like what Sana-san said. It was the usual check up routine, except this time she's finally taking this bandage off of my head. Finally.
"Sana-san told me that you wanted to ask me a question."
"Ah yes Dr. Miura, I want to know how long does retrograded amnesia last?"
"Truthfully Kuroko-san, that depends on the patient. Usually it's only temporary, but that also depends on how and why you forgot your memories in the first place. There are some who immediately remembered, usually after spending some time with family or people close to the them. Some remember them by familiarizing with places they used to go or objects that meant a lot to them. And there are also some who could not recall their memories back at all. The brain is very complex, Kuroko-san."
"Does that mean I might not be able to recover my past memories at all?"
"Yes, I'm afraid so. I'm not a specialist on the brain, but I know enough to tell you that. Like I said, our brain is very complex. Don't stress too much Kuroko-san, you have to be positive and not lose hope."
"Yes doctor, thank you."
"I need to go now Kuroko-san, call me when you have more question. I also know a brain specialist; I could recommend you to him if you want."
"Yes, I would like that doctor. Thank you so much"
*knock knock* *door opens*
"Kuroko-kun Akashi-sama has called for you. He is waiting for you at the entrance door."
"Huh? I'll be there then"
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Is it really okay to take him there? Should I show him the wrong spot? If the bracelet didn't do anything to stimulate his memories, then whether I show him the correct spot or not would not do anything at all.
"Seijuurou-kun, sorry for making you wait. Sana-san told me that you needed to see me."
"Yes, since you're all right now I thought I'd go and give you a drive around. It might help you remember something. I'll take you to the spot where I found you first."
"Really, this isn't a joke right?
"No, I am not joking around Tetsuya. Are you nervous?"
"Well yes, of course I am."
"You don't have to be nervous, plus didn't you want to go outside?"
"Yes, thank you."
"Let us go then."
The drive was only a few minutes. My mind kept wandering around and my heart was beating faster than the usual. So many questions left unanswered but somehow, to be honest, it was exciting. It was exhilarating to lie to the pitiful Tetsuya. It's exciting to see him make different kinds of expression.
"Here we are Tetsuya."
He looks so nervous and lost. Head turning round and round looking for something familiar…but can't. Well it's not a surprise that he would look lost, but the way his acting now…
"Tetsuya, you don't have to pressure yourself to recognize this place. It's okay, take it easy."
"How could you say that? This could solve all my problems, I just have to remember."
"Calm down, Tetsuya."
"Shut up! You don't understand"
Anxiousness, uneasiness, and then disappointment, that's probably what he felt just then. Ah, there's some tears flowing from his eyes. He's crying. Amnesia must be that terrifying.
"It's okay Tetsuya. You can cry as much as you want to."
I want to comfort him. Should I pat his head, or…
"Hugging me isn't comforting me at all Seijuurou-kun.''
"Oh, I'm sorry I thought it might calm you down if I hugged you"
"Hahaha, hahaha, hahaha. You've never comforted anyone have you Seijuurou-kun?"
I think I just did something embarrassing. It's just he looked dejected and he was crying, I should have patted his head instead.
"Its fine Seijuurou-kun, I feel somewhat better now. Thank you. I would actually like to go home now if possible."
"Home?"
"Yes, we should head back home Seijuurou-kun. Sana-san and Takeda-san are probably waiting for us."
"Ah, yes of course let's go."
That surprised me, how could this clueless guy casually say stuff like that. We should head back home, make it seem like a family. The way he said home struck me. There was a bittersweet feeling to it, and my heart felt unsettled for a moment. How could this guy make my emotion sway in an instant like that? How?