If people were to ask me now if I'm happy the way it is, then I'd honestly tell them that 'I don't know' and apologize. I'm happy that Takeda-san, Sana-san, the rest of this household, and especially Seijuurou-kun to treat me as part of their family. I came to their life uninvited yet they still open their house for me who is a stranger. There's always food serve in front of me, clothes are provided for me, and a shelter to take refuge in…yet I'm still not content. The desire to remember my memories never faded away. I could hear it in my sleep every night, those silent cry of 'come back' like a tape on repeat, and then I wake up. The grief in his voice always leaves me with a little tear in my eyes… but where do I comeback?

Seijuurou-kun and I are going to a business trip in three days, and I don't why but I'm getting nervous as the meeting approaches. I have the feeling that he's planning on doing something or that something unexpected will happen.

*knock knock*

"Tetsuya, Are you awake? It's time for breakfast."

"I'm coming Seijuurou-kun, please go ahead."

"It's fine, I'll wait."

I should probably open the door, knowing him, he well must probably wait outside until I come out.

"Come in Seijuurou-kun. I just need to go to the restroom quick."

"Pffft…I almost forgot your hair get really messy during mornings."

"What's wrong with it?"

"It makes you look a lot adorable than usual, that's one and-"

"Don't start anything so early in the morning Seijuurou-kun."

"As you wish Kuroko-sama."

This guy is really too much sometimes. Towel…towel…where's my towel? The water in my face is starting to drip in my shirt.

"You looking for this?"

"Thank you…but please don't scare me like that?"

"You don't look scared at all… Come on breakfast's going to get cold."

As I was wiping the water in my face I saw a glance of my reflection in the mirror, and I thought what's adorable or cute in this face. I just don't get it. I don't get him.

"Good morning Sana-san and Takeda-san."

"Good morning Kuroko-kun, the food is ready to be serve come and sit."

"Thank you."

It's suddenly so quiet, I don't know what to say to Seijuurou-kun, where are Sana-san and Takeda-san? The quietness is uncomfortable I'm not used to it. Why isn't he saying anything? Is it rude to talk while eating? We were talking normally while eating at his office, why so quiet now? He's probably thinking about something, or he's just quiet in the morning. No…no…it's impossible for him to be quiet, not even in the morning.

"Is there something wrong Seijuurou-kun? You've been quiet this whole time and you were just teasing me a few minutes ago, are you okay?"

"I was just thinking about the trip."

"Is it really that important?"

"Yes it is."

"…"

"Are you done eating now Tetsuya? I bought more clothes for you, I want you to try them."

"Clothes?...for men right?"

"Pffft…yes they're for men, unless you want me to buy you dr-"

"NO! Absolutely not."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes!"

Well I'm glad he's talking again, that's at least better than him being quiet. I still don't like his teasing though, but this is better, especially when he looks like he's enjoying the day.

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"Come, the clothes are in my room."

"…"

"I'm not a pervert Tetsuya, and there are no dresses in there. I promise."

"Okay then…"

"Pfft…stop being so nervous."

"I think I'll just try the clothes tomorrow Seijuurou-kun. I don't trust you."

"I can be nice you know, come on."

I didn't really buy dresses, I really only bought clothes but his reactions are pretty amusing. I can't help but tease him.

"I think you bought too many Seijuurou-kun. How long will we be there anyway?"

"Only a week, unless you want us to stay there for more days, I won't mind."

"A week is fine. It'd be rude if we were away for too long, I'm pretty sure Sana-san and Takeda-san would end up worrying."

"We could have them come with us if you want."

"What about your work?"

"I can handle that, I just want to go far away from here. So after the business trip, let's not come back here anymore Tetsuya."

"What!? We can't do that. What about Sana-san and Takeda-san?"

"They'll come with us. Remember the person that Dr. Miura recommended? He lives abroad, in America. Let's go there after the trip and live there."

"I want to see that person, but living there is too much."

"We could still comeback. I know it sounds strange right now, but we could try right? Besides its better if we live near the doctor, I mean what if you need some treatment or some sort, wouldn't it be better to be right there instead of flying back and forth here?"

"You're right…but-"

"Let's just try, if you really don't like it then we'll go back. Please."

"If the doctor do require treatment then we'll stay, but we'll go back immediately after the treatment, okay?"

"Thank you Tetsuya, I know that it was a selfish request. Please forgive me."

"Truthfully I'm still not sure about this but I know that you just want what's best for me."

"Wait here, I'll ask them if they want to come, and to prepare some papers for you so we could fly."

Finally, we could finally get away from here. It's an absurd plan but it might work. It's wrong, I know, but I want him to be with me. I can't turn back now, no, I will not turn back now.

"Haruhiko! Haruhiko! There you are! I want you to prepare Tetsuya's prepare we're going to America."

"What!? You can't do that Akashi-sama, do you know what you're doing to Kuroko-kun?"

"He agreed to it."

"That's because he doesn't know anything! I'm just concerned about you Akashi-sama. You cannot continue lying to him, he deserves the truth…he deserves to be happy with his family."

"DON'T I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AS WELL!"

"You can't continue lying to him, what if he starts remembering? And for god sake's Akashi-sama, Kuroko-kun is married."

"I know that! I know that…but I can't give him up yet."

"…Have you fallen in love with him Akashi-sama? I let it go at first because I thought that you just wanted to play around… I thought you'd let him go once you get tired of him. Do you love Kuroko-kun?"

"…Yes…yes…I do love him. You're right at first it was just simple curiosity, but now I want him stay with me and live together with me. I love him Haruhiko, please."

"I understand Akashi-sama, but you must tell him everything. If he accepts you even after knowing the truth, then I won't object."

If I can have this, then I won't ask for anything anymore. I'll be content with this. If we're away from here then I could be Tetsuya with no worry, smile freely with him, laugh and do whatever we want. But if he happens to remember, if he start remembering about his past…then…no…no….no…I don't want to think about that right now.

"Seijuurou-kun, what took you so long?"

"I'm sorry Tetsuya, Sana and Takeda won't be coming with us, but the papers are being prepared now, we can go abroad immediately after the trip."

"Are you okay Seijuurou-kun, you look like you're about cry."

"Tetsuya have I told you that your very important to me? because if not then let me tell you right now that you are very important to me Tetsuya."

It's hard to control tears, but I'm trying. Trying not to show my weakness, trying not to look fragile in front of him, but I can't. This overwhelming emotion is eating me up little by little and the tears cannot be controlled anymore.

"I'm happy to hear that Seijuurou-kun. Don't cry anymore."

"I'm not crying."

"You always that."

"I do?"

"Yes, but its fine. I like the honest Seijuurou-kun."