"Yes, Yes. I understand, thank you."
I don't understand Ryouta-kun anymore. It was so easy to read him before, but now I can't even figure out what his thinking. Even the love he used to shower me with, they all have turn into a frightening possessiveness. But I was so in love with him then, I just ignored the subtle allusions of him being possessive.
"Ne, Tetsucchi? Do you want to see Oka-san?"
"Of course!"
"Then let's go see her."
"What are you planning Ryouta-kun? I don't want Oka-sama to get involved in this."
"Is that why you didn't tell her what has been happening between us? You know, I was surprised when she called asking for my help and not once had she mention about our separation."
"I just…I couldn't tell her. I don't want her to know; I don't want her to be disappointed at me."
"You couldn't tell her that the marriage you went into, without telling her, is suddenly not working well, huh."
Oka-sama gave me her blessing to this marriage even when it was too sudden. This marriage between two men that's taboo here, even then she still accepted me. How could I tell her that the marriage she so trusted didn't work well? How could I betray the trust she gave me? Even if my body gets covered with bruises and even if I get hurt, I promised myself I'll bare this myself and not make Oka-sama cry.
"No, we don't need to see her right now."
"I'll pack our stuff. We'll leave today."
"Wait, Ryouta-kun. I said we're not going."
"Really? You're willing to have your mother wait for you. Oka-san who's worried sick about her lost son. Do you know how worried she was when she found out you were gone? She was crying and pleading-"
"Stop!"
"How could you make your own mother cry like that Tetsucchi? If you show up yourself to her right now, she'll be relief."
"Oka-sama. I want to see Oka-sama."
"I'll pack stuff then. Wait for me here then we'll go see Oka-san."
I know very well that this is a trap. Oka-sama, who knows nothing, will just complicate the whole situation with me and Ryouta-kun. But he's right, I can't just hide from my own mother, I can't just make her worry about me all the time. But I know very well too that this means being tied to Ryouta-kun once again. Pretend that everything is fine and not make her worry, he knew that that's the conclusion I will come to.
It's sickening to think that he's trying to use Oka-sama to control me and it's more sickening to think that I have no power against him. It would have been better if I didn't remember anything. Maybe I forgot those memories because I wanted to forget them. When I had no recollection of my past, the Ryouta-kun that kept coming in my dreams are all the past him - The past him that I loved so much.
"I'm done Tetsucchi. Let's go."
"Please don't involve Oka-sama with our problem Ryouta-kun, I'm begging you."
"Of course, if you say so."
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"What are these?!"
"It's what you ask me to get Akashi-sama."
"There's nothing helpful in any of these."
"Ryouta Kise has clean records Akashi-sama. The only thing I could get are basic information about him. I'm sorry."
"Wait…so he works for Kaijou airline huh."
"Yes Akashi-sama."
I need to see Tetsuya. I want to see him. I just want to make sure that his safe, make sure that no one will hurt him. I have to see him.
The thought that Tetsuya's in danger keeps on persisting in my mind. The scene always repeats itself where Tetsuya disappears from my sight and wherever I look has no traces of him. I can't have that. It's not fine with me that he's with someone else, but as long as his happy, I told myself over and over again, that I'd hand him over to him. Even if the smiles aren't for me anymore I still want him smile. I'm not going to let anyone take away that smile from him.
"Akashi-sama! Where are you going?!"
"ToTetsuya."
"Do you know what time is it right now?"
"I'm going to see him. I'm sorry."
*ring ring ring*
"Hello? Is this the airline where Ryouta Kise works?"
"I'm sorry sir but we cannot give anyone information about our workers."
"My name is Seijuurou Akashi, President of Akashi Corporation, let me speak with a higher up, unless you want to be reason why your airline becomes bankrupt."
"Yes sir, right away."
So this name really has benefits too.
"Seijuurou Akashi of Akashi Corps., what an honor to have you call us."
"I didn't call for business means Genta Takeuchi, what I came for is information."
"About what?"
"About who is the correct question. You're the president of the Kaijou Airline, you should have the access to your database, am I right?"
"Of course I have access to our database."
"You just need to send me Ryouta Kise's information, his home address and phone number, anything you can give me, and of course I'll guarantee you the same support from us to your airline, that's is all."
"I see, I'll send them to you right away then."
Having capabilities like this and not fully talking advantage of it is shameful, that's what father always tell me. I finally understand what he meant.
Ah, the message's here. So this is where he's hiding Tetsuya…wait…what?! What's the meaning of this 'transfer to San Francisco base' will be on effect by next weeks. What the hell's the meaning of this?!
*ring ring ring*
"What's the meaning of this transfer?!"
"It means what it says, he's transferring base in San Francisco."
"Can't you stop it? I demand you to stop it."
"I can't, we already informed him of our approval."
"You're the fucking president; you can if you want to."
"Look Akashi, he has a signed contract with us. I can't just revoke that or else we'll get in trouble."
"Tsk."
I don't know how long I've driving but I need to reach Tetsuya before it's too late. To think that he was planning on doing this, damn bastard. Just a few more miles and I'll be there, wait for me Tetsuya.