Chapter 3

"you're breaking up with me?" Brooke asked sadly.

"yeah, look I know now is a really bad time to do it considering the information just revealed and the fact that we're locked in a change room, but it just has to be done" Rachel said. Brooke looked at her and got up and walked to the other side of the room to sit down. She wasn't sure how to feel, but knew she couldn't look at Rachel right now.

"as awkward and painful as this is, we have to finish the other secrets… it's only fair" Rachel said.

"alright, let's do number 3" Haley said. Rachel reached the paper from where she was sitting and re-read it. "F - I wish I wasn't me" Rachel said looking up at the other two girls who hadn't yet revealed their secrets.

"not me" all three girls said at once. Brooke looked up with no emotion, she wasn't happy, sad or angry, she was just neutral.

"I know who it is" Brooke spoke up. "it's pretty clear"

"really then who is it?" Peyton asked. "'cause I know it's not you, and I know it's not me" she said being honest with herself.

"think about it" Brooke said.

"okay well… Haley, I can kind of understand if she wouldn't want to be her…" Peyton said acting like she was just talking to Brooke.

"oh and how is that Peyton?" Haley asked bitterly.

"because you cheated on Nathan and you feel guilty for it." Peyton bitterly said back.

"try again" Brooke said staring at Rachel.

"it's you then huh?" Peyton said looking over at Rachel who was looking up to hold her tears back.

"why?" Haley asked.

"I guess I should start by saying I envy you, Brooke." Rachel said making everyone look at Brooke to see her reaction. Brooke's eyes squinted a little, but she wasn't angry. "if you look at me, you see some hot looking cheerleader with big boobs and willing to sleep with anything that moves. I've had plastic surgery over and over, I could be a model with my looks… but I'm not happy."

"I don't get it, why do you envy Brooke then?" Peyton asked.

"do you know why Brooke?" Rachel asked.

"yeah…" Brooke replied sadly. "… I get it"

"can you tell us then?" Haley said getting a little impatient.

"you guys are blind…" Rachel said.

"don't you get it?" Brooke asked Peyton and Haley, while looking at Rachel. "she's me… 2 years ago"

"she's right" Rachel said with a fake smile. "I'm her." She plainly stated.

"I still don't get it" Haley said. Rachel just scoffed.

"no, I get it" Peyton said standing up and walking into the middle of the room. "Rachel's who Brooke used to be. No offense Brooke, but she used to sleep around with guys just for the sex. She was the popular girl in school, pretty, played dumb, and superficial" Peyton said looking back and forth between Brooke and Rachel. "and she envies her … because Brooke changed."

"that's right" Rachel said. "and it doesn't matter how hard I try because I can't."

"now I'm lost" Peyton said sitting back down.

"I get it" Haley said standing up taking Peyton's place in the middle of the room. "Rachel can't change because… it's not who she is. Brooke acted different from the person who she was on the inside two years ago, but she got tired of being that person. So she showed everyone who she really was, and she was accepted. But Rachel…Rachel can't act like that person because she isn't covering anything. She is who she is, inside and out."

"I don't have a person to change into. That's the worst part, I was born a bitch and I will forever be a bitch… that's why I don't want to be me"