Breakable

A Fan Fiction written by Naoki-onee and FishFriend

Disclaimer: We do not own Twilight, New Moon or Grey's Anatomy.

Note: Last Chapters song was "Breakable" by Ingrid Michaelson. This chapter song is "Starting Now" by Ingrid Michaelson. Review, thanks!

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Chapter 2: Starting Over

I want to crawl back inside my mother's womb
I want to shut out all the lights in this room

I woke up to someone stroking my hair, and a blinding white light above me. "You had me worried, Izzy." Angela's smooth voice reached my ears, and I somewhat relaxed. Maybe I had been hallucinating, if I was lucky. "Sorry." I sighed, as I sat up, pushing the large medical lamp away from my eyes.

"What…happened?" I asked cautiously, unsure I wanted to know the answer. Angela's deep eyes studied mine for a moment, and I noticed how she assessed me: Like a patient. I had always been under her, as she shuffled around like my mother, taking care of my entire life.


I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink
Scrub away all these thoughts that I think of you

"Izzy, you fainted because…um…you saw something." Angela said slowly. "Saw someone." she corrected herself after I examined her skeptically. She mumbled something under her breathe, and I leaned forward to catch it. "Idiotic vampire, coming back to ruin her life again…" I gasped for air, a pain too unbearable for me to handle at this point in time ripped through my entire frame. Angela wrapped her arms around me, embracing me, trying to hold my breakable pieces together. "Izzy…shhhh…it's ok…" she cooed softly. "You…kn-new?" I asked dizzily in between gasps for air.

"Yes." Angela admitted in a hushed tone. "After…they left." she said in her bedside tones she used with patients that had it bad, medically wise. I looked at the window, and saw a blur move to the shadows were I couldn't see them. Someone was watching and I had a very good idea of who.

So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil
Feel like I watch from 6 feet under the soil

"Angela?" I asked stiffly, my muscles tense. She nodded, her hair sweeping forward into her eyes, and she pushed it behind her ear. "Yes?" she tilted her head to the side. "What…what happens now?" my eyes were watering as I said this, and I pushed them back. I wasn't weak anymore. I wasn't going to let tears escape me again, showing that I was hurt.

I had a life. I had a boyfrie- fiancé, a house, friends and I was happy. Right? Wasn't that enough? Wasn't a Paris enough for someone to be happy? Angela hesitated before answering.


Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears
But I recount the countless tears that I lost for you

"I…" she sighed and used a more confident voice, "I don't know Izzy. It's up to you, he's your ex. I wish I could help Hun, but I can't I just can't." I knew it was true. From now on, it was up to me to show him that I'm stronger now.

I tried to get up but Angela pushed me back down, "You need to rest Izzy!" Shaking my head I got up, "I'm fine Angela. Really. I have to go answer my page before I get in trouble or something."

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise -

Starting now I'll never know your name
starting now I'll never feel the same

Striding down the hall I didn't even spare Edward a look. Lucky for me the trauma room they'd put me in was near the nurses office. "Hello. I was paged here." I looked up at the clock and swallowed, "An hour ago." The lady manning the counter smiled a compassionate smile and turned to get the page. Leaning against the counter I silently cursed whoever had the bright idea of having huge windows so that you could see outside. I closed my eyes and concentrated on finding the good in this situation.


Starting now I wish you never came into my world.

I want to crawl back inside my bed of sin

Well, I knew Angela was on my side, and in a couple of months I'd be married, and hopefully the rest of the Cullen clan wasn't here. Yea; it was probably just Edward, here to ruin my life but alone. I heard the lady put down something and fake cough to get my attention.

I took a deep breath and looked down at the piece of paper the nurse had set down on the counter. I was supposed to show around a new doctor. "Hey, do you know who this new doctor is?" she looked up from some paperwork,


I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin
Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains

"Hmmm, something like Fuller, Cooler, Sullen…" My eyes widened, "Cullen?" She smiled, "Yea that's it. Cullen. With a real funny first name too. What was it…?" I swear my eye twitched at that moment. "Carlisle, wasn't it? His name is Carlisle Cullen." She beamed and clapped, "Do you know him? He's unbelievably cute. I hear he's unavailable and really quiet though and he has a couple of really weird kids too…" I sighed and stepped outside so her talking trailed off, "You have no idea."

Spinning away every piece that remains of you.

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise -

I could tell he was still looking my way so I went down the opposite side of the hallway and took the long way. My mind was made up, I would act like we just met and totally ignore the fact that I knew the Cullens before. Anyways, they were strangers now. I reached the meeting point and looked around, no Carlisle. Ok; I tried, I failed, time to go. I let a half smile crawl to my lips, then hurried off down the hall.


Starting now I wish you never came into my world.

It's my world, it's not ours anymore

"BELLA!" someone called behind me. I stopped in mid-step. No one had called me that in years. I turned slowly to see a human-paced Carlisle coming after me. Plan or not, I wanted nothing more but to get out of there but people were staring already. He reached me and stopped, "Bella?" he asked as if he didn't know it was me. I put a map in his hand as a response. "I trust you can find your own way around Doctor. I hear you're very…talented." I started to walk down the hall but then turned and faced him again. "Oh, and Dr. Cullen? It's Izzy now." I said coldly, "Bella died a long time ago."


Starting now I'll never feel the same
Starting now I wish you never came into my world.