Breakable
A Fan Fiction written by Naoki-onee and FishFriend
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Chapter 6: It Just Doesn't Matter
You thought we'd be fine
all these years gone by
The door swung open, to reveal a silhouette I could have recognized in my sleep. I thrashed out again, hoping to whatever force in the universe there was, that Alice would show me mercy. To no such luck. Alice only pinned my arms to my side with one arm, and as I tried to scream again, she covered my mouth as well. I tried to kick her, and only found that I could not reach either of the males, or the female. The red haired silhouette stepped closer, closing the door swiftly. The tears were coming, and my breath was coming in erratic gasps.
Now your asking' us to listen
Well then tell us bout everything
No lies we're loosing' time
I heard Carlisle's slightly frazzled voice cut through the thick air. "I think she's having a panic attack. She's too stressed for this. I should sedate her. Edward, Alice…" At his name, I thrashed out again, straining all of my muscles. My heart beat increased, and I was barely getting any air. "I wonder what sedative would be best… Nothing too strong, otherwise she'll be completely out of it." Carlisle sighed.
Alice loosened her grip on me as tears streamed furiously down my face. I was scared out of my mind. What did Edward want? He told me he didn't want me. That he didn't love me. Was he back to reestablish this? I wouldn't be able to fix myself again after that. "Edward, can you take her? I don't want to be the one to hold down my best friend so you can try to make amends, and hurt her." Her voice was pleading, though I could hear the sharp edge underneath. Amends? That sounded….odd.
Because this is a battle
And it's your final last call
As Carlisle rummaged around the closet, I realized that it wasn't a liens closet, but a supply one. Carlisle turned a syringe in hand. I bit Alice's hand in an attempt to escape, and to avoid being drugged against my will. Edward spoke up then, his voice heartbreakingly gloomy, but a sadly amused expression played across his too-perfect features that had come to haunt me . "I don't want her sedated. Alice, just let her go and stand in front of the door." I was released after a moment of hesitation from Alice. "Edward, do you think this is the best idea?" Carlisle asked cautiously. He knew that it wasn't his situation to deal with.
I just stood there stupidly, gawking at my former boyfriend. He nodded at Carlisle, then turned slowly to me. "Bella…" he breathed.
It was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
But why aren't you sorry, why aren't you sorry, why?
This can be better, you can be happy, try!
I stiffened and looked away, no use in escaping now it would be futile. Besides trashing around would get me sedated, and even in my job I still did not like needles. He kept talking, "Bella, I wouldn't leave you without a good reason." I couldn't stop myself, I scoffed. He HAD a good reason. I was boring, he didn't love me, and the thrill of going against nature had worn off. I started detecting what he was REALLY meaning instead of focusing on what he was saying.
"I'm sorry for leaving you!" I'm bored, and I remembered how fun you were.
"I had a good reason honestly." Just believe me so I can break your heart again for the enjoyment.
"Bella at least pretend to be listening to me!" Let me dazzle you.
You've got them on your side.
And they won't change their minds.
Now it's over
and I'm feeling' like we've missed out on everything.
I just hope it's worth the fight.
"I think you should just tell her. You won't get a response out of her in this state Edward."
"I think she can take it Edward. She deserves to know the truth." Were they…on my side? Trying to tell me the truth? No, they left with him. They missed everything, I won't believe anymore. I was broken once, but never again. This was a fight they didn't have the upper hand in. They didn't know me anymore.
Cause this is a battle
And its your final last call
I lifted my nose as if to show I couldn't care less what they were saying.
I wasn't supposed to have to put up with them! I was engaged, I had moved on, I had gotten a successful job! But as my eyes betrayed me and looked at his face, I could tell that if I was near him, that wouldn't matter. It just wouldn't matter.
And his next words made me certain of another factor.
"Bella, they were coming for you. Jane was coming for you. She was bored, she wanted to have some fun. We left. And when she found our trail in Denali, we told her that you had died in a car accident. Heidi came and lived with us for awhile, and made sure we were telling the truth." Edward said in tones that broke my heart all over again.
His words made certain that I would never be able to truly love Patrick fully (and the way he deserved) again.
It was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
But why aren't you sorry, why aren't you sorry, why?
This can be better, you can be happy, try!
As I simply gaped at him, my mind blanked and my thoughts became a puddle. My decision evaporated and my judgement became terribly impaired. My body felt like liquid and I couldn't feel my heart, it was beating so fast.
Though all I knew at that one moment was how good his lips felt against mine.
Because this is a battle
and it's your final last call...