Here's chapter 5, I hope you guys like it, and the verdict is 6 chapters, but the sixth won't be up until the Friday night. Sorry for mistakes, next time I'll edit better, but I was trying to keep my word:)

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Regret

Chapter 5

Olivia Benson rushed into the hospital, quickly going over to the front desk, short of breath, tears in her eyes, and her body tense and rigid, never relaxing. She never remember feeling anything like this, she never felt like her life was going to end when she walked into the hospital, she never felt her heart racing this hard, never feeling so out of breath, but every thing was different now, everything was changing - not that she didn't like it, because she did, she was getting her happy ending, but being in the hospital because her secret girlfriend (?) had been shot was not something she wanted. All she wanted to do was to see Amanda and make sure she was okay.

"Excuse me, I'm looking for Detective Amanda Rollins? She should be here?" Rushed Olivia, worry etched on her face.

"Are you family?" Asked the nurse, her hazel eyes staring back at her with new excitement, tired of being seated there all day.

"Yeah, I'm her wife, and I got a call that she got shot." Responded Olivia, never hesitating, the vision of Amanda in pain glued in her head.

"Detective Benson, I never realized you got married," came a voice from behind her.

"Yeah, haven't you heard, I got hitched." Said Olivia, turning around to face Cassidy, a glare set on her face, her body tensing just the slightest bit.

"Well I guess I should go, congratulation are in order," Casidy scoffed and then shoved her shoulder with his own. Olivia just rolled her eyes, ignored him, and gave all her attention back to the nurse, who stared at her with suspicious eyes.

"Can you tell me where my wife is at?" Olivia said, her voice raising just a little, enough to snap the other woman into action.

"She's in surgery right now, so you'll have to take a seat and wait for the surgeon." Informed the nurse, never looking up from her screen. Olivia huffed and went to take a seat to start the antagonizing slow wait.

Olivia never wanted to go through this ever again, the thought of a love one possibly dying is daunting, and the possibility of someone dying when you're just getting started was even more horrifying. The terrifying thought of not being able to spend anymore time with Amanda was scaring her more than she thought possible. Her knees bounced up and down in a repetitive motion, her hands became clammy, her skin hot, almost feverish, her eyes constantly on the door, never missing anything when the door open, always putting attention to the doctor. After an hour the team came and they all sat, all taking turns in grabbing coffee or a small snack for everyone, but all wanted to stay seated, not wanting to miss anything, just wanting the missing detective from their team back.

After two hours of waiting, the white stale doors burst open and in came in a woman with dark black hair, dressed in dark orange green scrubs, and white sneakers, her eyes searching the room, skimming over everyone and everything, stopping when she came across the small group at the back of the room, where all of their eyes were trained on her. Slowly she started walking to the now standing group of eager faces.

"Are you the family of Amanda Rollins?" She asked, her voice soft and warm, a small smile on her face, letting them know that nothing was wrong.

"Yeah, I'm her wife," said Olivia, her voice rushed, ignoring the weird looks that she got behind her, her eyes only on the surgeon.

"Well Amanda had a simple bullet wound to the shoulder, nothing complicated, but she can, and probably will have problems with her arm later on. She suffered to a lot of pain and lost a lot of blood, so we'd like for her to stay here for a few days, make sure that she's healthy enough to be taken care of without a doctor around. Currently she is now drugged with a lot morphine so that the pain won't be so great. She'll probably knocked out for a few hours." She finished explaining.

"Can I see her?" Asked Olivia, her whole body telling her to go run and find Amanda, but patiently she waited for the woman to respond and tell her where Amanda is.

"Yes, but only immediate family, so I would suggest that the rest of you go home," Said the doctor, her voice kind, yet it had a little edge to it. The other detectives simply nodded and started to head out, each clasping a hand on Olivia's shoulder for support; she thanked them with a nod before turning back to the doctor.

"Follow me, and I would like to warn you ahead of time that there will be a few machines, but that's perfectly normal, and there's nothing to worry about." Assured the doctor.

"I'm sorry, I didn't catch your name?" Asked Olivia, staring at the other woman.

"Torres, Callie Torres," Responded the raven head with a nod; Olivia simply nodded back as they stopped just outside a white door, and before Olivia could open the door, Callie began to speak, "She was lucky, unlike what people believe, these wounds can be fatal, and she might have trouble in the future, so she'll need all the support she can get." Said Callie, looking at the other woman in the eye. Olivia simply nodded her head, and frowned at the thought of Amanda being in pain any further. "I'll be back later to check up on her, okay?" Said Callie as she began to walk away. Olivia just nodded and began to turn the door knob.

I know that it was short, but I think the next will be longer:) Review please!

-Buddy2197