Whitesilence POV

Chapter 17: Secret Revealed

3000 years had passed since Starscream and I started dating. That just tells you how compatible we are. Honestly, I think Starscream is afraid to hurt me. But then again he might just be scared to do anything that will tick off my dad. Still, I laugh when I see him beating up an inferior soldier then turn around and kiss me with so much passion my knees almost give out. He always says that he loves me so much that it hurts and that he hates every minute that I'm not with him.

Of course that is out of the military scene. Starscream has a slight superior position than me being the Second in Command. Yours truly is a General in Megatron's small group of Decepticons. You can bet that Thundercracker is infuriated that I have a higher rank than him. He states that the only reason I'm a General is because Megatron is my dad. I earned my place by fighting like a little demon in any battle that we were thrown into.

Anyways, when we aren't on our own time you wouldn't even know we were dating! We are at each other's throats so much that sometimes even Megatron thinks we're going to kill each other. New recruits would tell you that we hate each other and we want the other dead so that our position would be secured. One walked in on us while Starscream had his arms around my waist and was kissing my neck. The kid's optics got huge when he saw us, we almost fell over laughing. At that point I managed to recover and threatened that if he told anyone I would make sure he died on the battlefield and I would make it look like an accident. He nodded his head so fast that it almost snapped off.

We laughed at it when the kid left. He then went back to kissing me. We tend to vanish into his room every few nights but we have never spark bonded. We just kiss non-stop and, well, Starscream tends to curl his hands around my chassis. I don't mind anymore but when he first did that I freaked out. He apologized over and over as he pulled away. I calmed down and relaxed so he would know that I was sorry for freaking out. He then tried again and I only tensed up. After a couple of nights I was fine with it and Starscream often found me sliding my fingers around the seam on his cockpit. Well let's just say that he shuddered so much that I was shaking.

Anyways, we were standing at the entrance to the base waiting for some more Decepticons to turn up. Megatron had arranged for more reinforcements to increase our numbers against the Autobots who seem to get three more soldiers for every one that we kill! So when the new Decepticons came into view I froze up in panic. Starscream looked at me and lifted an optic ridge. To everyone else I was glaring at him but in reality the look was a cover-up.

'I'm fine. Just got a chill.'

'That was more than just a chill. You just stiffened.'

'I'm fine.'

As the Decepticons stopped in front of us, I saw the leader and clenched my fists. I knew who he was and I hated him with every fiber of my being. He looked at me and a cruel smile slid across his face.

"Ah, the suicidal femme is still amongst the living." He growled.

'WHAT!'

I moved forward and stood beside Megatron glaring daggers into the mech. He laughed but I knew that I was scaring him. It was etched into his stance, not to mention that I could see into his mind and saw that he was scared.

'Watch your mouth Silverdart because I'm not a small, weak little femme anymore. You are looking at Megatron's top General.'

"M-m-megatron made you his top General?!" The mech said in shock. "You command his soldiers?!"

"You seem surprised." Starscream stated.

I smiled mentally as Silverdart stood there with his mouth hanging open. His yellow optics were bigger than his whole face and I heard some of the young mechs behind me snicker.

"Why would he make a femme his top General?! Femmes are weak and useless! The only thing they are good at is reproduction!" Silverdart screamed.

I could just feel the hatred coming off of Megatron at that statement. Starscream was growling behind me but what I did surprised everything. I started laughing.

'Look at me Silverdart. Do I look like a weakling? Do I look like I would bend to any mechs wishes? Do I? No. Mechs bend to my wishes because I am stronger than I appear. Femmes have an advantage over you mechs. We know how to get mechs to listen.'

Silverdart stared at me. "You…little glitch! You think you're all that because Megatron is standing right beside you! If he wasn't there I bet you wouldn't be so fragging cocky!" He yelled.

"THAT IS ENOUGH!" Megatron roared making everyone jump. His optics were filled with a lot of rage. "Silverdart, Thundercracker will escort you and your men to their new quarters." He growled.

Silverdart and his followers rushed past as Thundercracker vanished back inside. Megatron than waved all the other soldiers off until only Megatron, Starscream, and myself remained. He turned to me and I saw a strange anger in his optics.

"My quarters, NOW." He snapped.

I jerked in surprise as he spun around and stormed back into the base. I rushed after him with Starscream right on my trail. I skidded to a halt as Megatron stopped in front of his quarters. He entered his access code and shoved me into his room rather roughly and walked in behind me. He left the door open for Starscream but slammed it shut behind him when he entered.

Megatron walked over to me and grabbed my arms and shook me several times. My head snapped back and forth and when he stopped my head was in a lot of pain. I leant my head forward as I tried to get the pain to go away.

"What was he talking about?!" Megatron demanded.

'He thinks that femmes are….'

"That isn't what I'm talking about!" Megatron hissed. "I want to know what he meant when he called you a "suicidal femme"."

I closed my optics in shame. I didn't want to talk about. This wasn't a happy memory and I didn't want to tell them about it.

"Whitesilence I demand that you tell me what he meant!" Megatron hissed again as he brought his face within an inch of mine.

I felt tears beginning to fall from my optics. 'I don't want to talk about it.'

'You know that you can tell us this.'

I looked at Starscream and smiled sadly. 'I don't want to make you two depressed over this. It isn't a happy thing to talk about.'

Megatron pulled his face away from mine and closed his optics. His grip relaxed on my arms and I felt the circulation start up again in my arms. He pulled me tight against his chest and rocked back and forth. He kissed my head gently and I felt more tears flow down my face.

'You can tell us what happened. We won't judge you…at least not too much.'

I sniffed softly and buried my face in his chest. 'This is how it happened.'

Flashback

I staggered back to my feet as Silverdart laughed at me. I wiped my mouth with my hand were he had broken my lip from his punch.

"How can Megatron think that you are useful? You're a femme! Femmes are no good at anything other than spark bonding." He snarled.

I felt tears run down my face as I glared at him. 'You're wrong! Femmes can so do other things than spark bond! We are soldiers in this war too!'

He growled as he grabbed me. "I'll show you that even you are useless at everything including spark bonding!" He snarled.

I freaked and started to punch him but he just laughed. He was 300 years older than me and easily flipped me over his shoulder. I pounded on his back in desperation. I could hear the other mechs laughing and cheering him on.

He entered his quarters and threw me on his bed. I tried to get up and run but he pinned me underneath his enormous body. He laughed as he grabbed my chest plate and forced it open. I screamed in my mind as he opened his chest compartment and shoved his spark against mine.

I screamed again as I was filled with agony. I twisted underneath him trying to get away. He pulled away from me, slammed my chest compartment shut painfully, and punched me in the face.

"You glitch! Why don't you just stay still?! If you would just submit you might actually enjoy this!" He snarled.

'I don't want to spark bond with you! I don't want anything to do with you! You're a vile, disgusting, abusive waste of metal!'

He punched me in the face again and left the room. I rolled off his recharge bed and slammed against the floor. I lifted my head as energon seeped out of my nose. I felt tears roll down my face and for the first time in my life I wanted to die. I looked around the room and saw a discarded sword lying on the ground. I smiled sadly as I picked the sword up. It was a long blade with a golden chain attached to the hilt. I placed the sword against my chest plate and took a deep breath.

'I'm sorry Dad. I really am.'

I pushed the sword into my chest but somehow it had moved and missed my spark by a micrometer. I screamed in pain as I collapsed to the ground as my energon pooled around me. I heard someone enter the room and someone screamed above me. I blacked out at that point.

End Flashback.

I was still crying as I finished my story. Megatron had his arms wrapped tightly around me. I could sense Starscream's fury from where I was standing as well as Megatron's horror.

"I'LL KILL HIM! I'LL MAKE HIM PAY FOR THAT!" Starscream screamed.

"No Starscream. I have a better idea." Megatron stated softly. He stroked my head gently. "We will make him follow Whitesilence orders to the point. If she agrees to it." He added.

'As long as Starscream or you are nearby than fine. He must be punished for what he did. Would you believe me if I said that he only got a slap on the hand for rapping me?'

Megatron growled. "Trust me I will punish him for doing that to you." He stated.

I hugged him tightly as I smiled. This is one of the days when I love being his kid.

Author's note: I'm sorry if I spelt "General" wrong. And this chapter is rather sad don't you think? Now you know why there is a scar on her chest slightly off of her spark chamber and why she was slightly depressed when she returned.