Besides being tired as hell I somehow couldn't manage to fall asleep. I tried everything I could think of, like a warm glass
of milk, playing music, counting sheep. None of it seemed to work. I just lied there staring at the ceiling wondering who else had slept
in this bed. What did they look like, did they have trouble in school, did the miss their home too. All these questions kept spinning
around in my head until I fell asleep around two, exhausted from all the possibilities that had been running through my head.
My alarm clock was ringing and someone was shaking me awake.
"Whas goin' on?" I yawned.
"Time to get ready for school, I got you up early enough to take a shower. Your clothes are also hanging in the closet, wear the
school uniform today," Kailyn ordered. I had no idea how she could be so wide awake in the morning.
I stumbled over to the bathroom and pulled the door open. It took me a minute to realize that this wasn't my old bathroom at
home. I fumbled with the water faucet and burned my hand with hot water. Sucking on my burnt fingers, I used my other hand to cool
it off a little. Within a minute I stripped and climbed in the shower. I let the hot water pour over me and relaxed and let my body get
the chance to wake up.
I wonder what today would be like. I couldn't stay in my room all day like I wanted and I would have to face a new horde of people.
I'm sure they were all nice and I could get along with them easily but I didn't "play nice" with others all the time. I wonder if I
would have Leroy and the others in any of my classes today. I believe that England was supposed to be handing out schedules today
at breakfast. I finished bathing quickly and wrapped a towel around me while I looked for my clothes in the closet.
I had only a few outfits hung up and I didn't even hang them up, Kailyn must have yesterday. I had a winter and summer school
uniform, a gym uniform, and my occupation uniform. I pulled the summer uniform and put it on. It fit me well, the skirt wasn't too
short and the shirt didn't restrict my chest or shoulders. The white and the navy blue went well together.
I browsed of the student handbook as I brushed my teeth and looked at all the rules that this place had, what a strict place. I spit
out my tooth paste and rinsed my mouth and continued reading. After a few more pages of rules I threw it down with disgust, like I
would follow any of them. My brother and I had never been one's to follow the rules or do what we were told.
Once when we were six we were told to sit still and listen while daddy was talking to the countries. So I took the liberty to crawl
under the table and pick pocket their wallets. The countries always had fun money to look at. Teddy and I snuck over to the corner
and dumped all of it out and mixed it together. We pretended to play bank and we later cut out little people and shapes and played
house. After a while we got tired of that and started to go through their wallets again, this time we found little plastic cards.
"Doesn't Daddy have one of these?" I asked Teddy.
"Uh huh, he feeds them to those machines," He pulled it from my hand and examined it.
We ended up asking our father what it was and he found out what we did with all the currency. We got in big trouble. I chuckled
as I remember that and I felt a bittersweet pain in my chest. I wish I could go back to those times sometimes.
I left my dorm so I wouldn't be late to breakfast and I met up with Ami. She looked just as perfect as she had last night, actually
she looked even more perfect if that was even possible. We ended up talking about what kind of class would we get and hopefully we
would be in the same classes. We sat down at the same table with Leroy, Lucky, Roze, Kiko, and Teddy. This was the first time I
really got a good look at their uniforms. The boys wore just about the same thing but with navy pants.
"Took you girls long enough, what did you have to do? Order your clothes from China?" Leroy laughed.
"It takes time to look this perfect. There are lots of things that girls have to do!" Ami sniffed.
"Sure there are," He rolled his eyes.
"Don't disrespect the ladies now, Leroy, they take their time to look pretty for us and we should appreciate that," Kiko cut in
before Ami got her feelings hurt.
"Yeah, Leroy. Don't worry Ami you can take your time, and Sam too. You both look nice," Lucky smiled.
I scoffed, I still had wet hair pulled back into a pony tail and I didn't wear makeup.
"What was that, Sam?" Kiko asked.
"Nothing but make sure you complement me when I actually try to look good, okay?"
Lucky shrugged and started talking to Ami, they seemed to get along great.
"You do look great today, Sam, really pretty," Leroy grinned and winked at me.
"Thanks…"
What was up with him? One minute he was a jerk to Ami and the next he was complementing me.
"Who cares what you guys look like! I just want to know what's for breakfast I'm starving!" Teddy grumbled.
"Yeah speaking of that, I'm hungry too," I agreed. As if on que the caters stepped out from behind double door and carried
out food to our tables. Just smelling it made my mouth water and I quickly piled my plate high with bacon, omelets, and pancakes.
Within minutes half of my plate was clean and my cheeks were bulging out like a chipmunk during autumn.
" Wow, you must be hungry," Ami looked at me in surprise and she carefully cut her pancake in small bites.
I keep chewing and give her a shrug as I wipe some of the grease off of my chin.
"Samantha! What are you doing?" France stormed over to me.
I push some of my chewed food to my cheek and replied,"Eating."
"I see that! Why are you eating like an uncivilized child! Didn't Britain and I teach you better?"
I look down at the bacon between my fingers and slowly took a small bite.
"That's not what I meant!"
"What's going on Francis?" Alfred walked up.
"Look at 'er, she's eating like a little boy!" France yelled in frustration.
"She looks like a healthy, young girl," America grinned.
"Impossible, both of you!" France threw is hands up in the air and stormed off.
America laughed and handed me a napkin," You got something on your cheek."
I grabbed the napkin and wiped at one of my cheeks.
"No, you didn't get it," he took the napkin from me and rubbed my other cheek," There we go."
I swallowed my food," Thanks."
"No problem, everyone should listen up England is about to make some more announcements in a minute."
Just as he said that England stood up and called everyone to attention.
"Speak of the devil," America muttered and sat down at our table.
"Good morning everyone, today's day one and we have a lot to do. First of all your schedules will be passed out momentarily," As
England said that several teachers moved around the café and handed out papers to people. After everyone had gotten one England
spoke up again.
"Your classes are divided into four classes a day and switch every other day. One day you have your normal classes like math,
science, and English and on the other day you have your specialized classes like foreign languages, foreign affairs, and foreign
policies. On those days you learn specifically what you need to know for your future occupation. You will wear your occupational
uniform on those days too. On regular school days you will wear your regular school uniforms and on the weekends you may wear
your regular street clothes. Any questions?"
He waited for a moment before he began again, "No? Good, lets continue. School begins at 9:30 and ends at 5:30, similar to a
regular work day. You are allowed to roam the campus until 8:45 and then you must be in your dorms and not a minute later. If you
are caught you will be punished. The only exception to this rule is if you have permission or it involves a special club activity.
Speaking of clubs those will be open to start next week."England's voice faded into the back ground at I looked at my schedule.
First, today, I had Geometry with Mr. Gilbert Weillschmidt. And after him I had Chemistry with Mr. Alfred Jones. I guess lunch
was somewhere in there and then English with Mr. Arthur Kirkland and I finish off the day with Mr. Francis Bonnefoy and Sexual
Education. That could be nothing but trouble.
Day two involved things more directed to my field of work. My first class was blank for some reason. I wonder why? Second
class was Gym with Mr. Ludwig, then History with Heracles Karpusi, after him I had technology with Mr. Kiku Honda. The last class
of the day was art with Italy. Okay there weren't many classes that fit with my line of work most of it was up to me to learn on my
own. It was hard to put guide lines to my occupation.
Teddy leaned over and looked at my schedule; we appeared to have a few classes together. Before I had time to ask the others
dismissed us and we all had to get to our classes immediately. It was sort of disorganized because none of us had a clear
idea where we were supposed to go. Teacher pointed up to the right places and soon enough we found our rooms and mingled in our
seats.
Luckily I had Lucky in my math class so I would have someone to talk to. Outside the halls emptied and classes started but still
our teacher didn't appear. Just when I was about to mention his absence the door opened with a very looking German man dragging
another German man.
"You can't just skip teaching!" Mr. Ludwig yelled.
"I wasn't I was just getting some last minute things done," our math teacher apologized.
"By getting a beer! It's ten in the morning!"
"It's never too early for a beer, West, didn't I teach you right?"Before Germany could yell at him, Prussia pushed Germany out of
his classroom and closed the door.
"He's so strict, doesn't he have is own class to teach? Anyway good morning future leaders that aren't as awesome as I am. I am
the awesome Prussia and I will be teaching you Geometry! Who else could make a boring subject ooze with awesomeness but me The
Most Awesome Teacher Ever. No one that's who!" He walked up to the white board and wrote his name hastily.
"My name is Mr. Gilbert Weillschmidt, but I won't expect you losers to remember that so you can call me Your Awesomeness,
The Awesome Prussia, Mr. Awesome, or something along those lines."
He took a long drink of his beer and set the mug down on his desk and pulled a stack of papers and threw them at a kid in the front, "Pass those out loser,"
The kid looked shock but stood up and handed out the papers.
"That is the list of stuff you'll be learning and blah blah blah. Listen I don't really care. I'm here to teach you math that you won't
even use. To get to the point that you all care about, I will accept bribes of beer, money, and women but since you can't get a hold of
that you'll just have to learn."
He drained the last of his beer and frowned, "Damn it, hey you," He points to the kid he shoved the papers at," Go get me another beer and don't get caught by West."
The poor kid was shoved out the door before he could object. After that Prussia sat down at his desk and told us to talk quietly
among ourselves, he still hadn't drunk enough to get rid of his hangover. About ten minutes later the kids came running in and handed
Prussia is beer. With a speed unimaginable he grabbed it and drank about half of it in one gulp.
"I like you kid, what's your name?"
"Jordan–" he started to say when Gilbert cut him off.
"Okay, Carl, from now on you are my right hand man,"
"But that's not my name."
Prussia ignored him and when to go check out his blog for the rest of the class leaving us to our own doings.
Lucky and I ended up talking about our lack of math skills and Pokemonuntil the bell rang. He and I had a lot in common and he
was a pretty chill dude. I think he and I would become great friends.
I waved goodbye and followed the flow of teenagers and ended up on the top floor. I wandered over to a large window near the
stairs and looked at the view. I could see just about all the way to the forest and the lake that was in front of it. Hopefully it would be
warm this weekend because I wanted to get a good feel for the school's layout beyond the halls. I wasn't a big outdoors fan, I much
preferred my video games and my comfy bed, but it was just too beautiful to pass up. The grass was so green and the lake looked like
it was surrounded by little fairy wonders that Scotland would tell me about when I was little to make me shut up.
A finger tapped me on my shoulder and I turned to face Mr. Kirkland.
"Oh hey there Mr. Kirkland," I wasn't used to using his last name yet.
"Hello Sam, what's your next class." He looked busy and very annoyed.
"Alfred's-"I glanced at my schedule.
"Over there," he pushed me to a door and busily walked off to help other students.
"Thanks,"I mumbled and walk in the classroom.
Mr. Jones classroom was decorated with science joke posters and a periodic table. All of the classes in school were pretty small
with about ten students each so there was plenty of room for all of his models. I walked over to his desk and looked at it. It was a
very nicedesk, polished wood and stuff and neat despite the fact that it was his desk. I spied an unopened coke beside his computer
and picked it up. I popped the tab and took a sip before I sat down at a desk. Not a minute later I was joined by Teddy and Kiko, who
apparently had the same class before. They sat down on either side of me and we compared our first classes.
"Mr. Kirkland acts like he has a stick shoved up his butt," Kiko grumbled, " I mean really it's like English is my second language
or something."
"That's just how he is. You get used to it and learn not to Americanize your English too much and you'll get along fine with him.
Just keep in mind that he is heavy on the sarcasm," I pat him on the shoulder and hand Teddy the coke.
"So how did your class with Prussia go?" Teddy took a drink of the coke.
"Well he was late, he drank about two beers, and worked on his blog. You know being awesome," I grinned and rolled my eyes.
"How do you guys know the teachers so well?" Kiko inquired.
"Well it's a long story," Just as Teddy said that Mr. Jones walked in,"One that we'll have to tell you about later."
Teddy handed me back the coke and America started to take the roll.
"Jenkins, Leroy," Mr. Jones paused and glanced around,"No Leroy?"
The door burst open as Leroy came running in the room covered in sweat and panting," Sorry…. I'm late…. Mr. Lud..wig had
me running like a dog….. he doesn't like Nazi jokes,"
"No kidding," Mr. Jones laughed," Take your seat."
While America continued with the roll Leroy took a seat behind me and dropped his bag on the ground.
"Well welcome to the first class of Chemistry, dudes! I hope you guys will have as much of a blast as I will. I'm pretty laid back
compared to England and the others and I'll joke around with you guys a lot,"Our energetic teacher beamed," Let's get a little work
done before we can play though." He walks over to his desk and causally takes of his jacket and throws it over his chair and grabs a
stack of papers.
"Has anyone seen my coke by the way? I thought I left it on my desk…Sam?"
I leaned forward in my desk," Sup, Alfred."
"Mr. Jones and where did you get that?"
"Off of your desk?"
"Give it here," he holds out his hand. I took another sip before I hand it back.
He rolls his eyes and finished drinking the rest of the can," You could have saved me some you know."
"Sorry, Teddy and I were thirsty," I shrugged.
He shakes his head and grinned," Here everyone take a paper. This is your syllabus telling you everything that is gonna happen
like all of the kick ass experiments."
I grabbed mine and very carefully ignore what it says and start to fold the corners and edges. Alfred goes on talking about the
basics of what we're going to learn like how to make "kick ass Hollywood explosions" and some "dusty old book work sometimes".
By thetime he finished I was done making this great paper airplane and I began to color on it and put flames on the side and drew
little people piloting it.
Behind me Leroy leaned in close to me and whispered,"That looks cool, but I bet you don't have the guts to throw it."
"Wanna bet?" I whispered back.
"Yeah, I'll bet you ten bucks if you throw it and hit the teacher."
"Twenty and you have yourself a deal, good sir,"
"More money for me," he laughed," deal!"
"Your loss," I winked at him and look careful aim. With a quick thrust and a flick of my wrist, I sent the little plane flying
towards its doom and watched as it flew around Mr. Jones' head and nail him on the cheek.
The class erupted into giggles, including Mr. Jones, himself. I whistled a little tune and tried to look as innocent as possible.
"Hey Sam, can you tell me why you don't have a paper on your desk?"Mr. Jones asked me.
"Huh, it seems to be on the floor at your feet," I smiled.
"How could it have gotten there?" Mr. Jones mocked and picked it up.
"I don't know, Mr. Jones, the pilot must have wanted to have an early take off." I rested my chin on my hand.
He unfolded my paper and handed it back to me and leaned in close to my ear," I know it's the first day but try to behave."
He winked and walked back off to the front of the room. I sighed and listened to him crack some jokes and he pulled up some
videos on the computer of things that he would like to try. Soon the bell rang and everyone stood up to go to lunch.
"Hey, Sam, would you stay after for a minute?" Mr. Jones asked.
"Sure,"I looked around and waited for the class to clear.
"So listen, I just wanted to remind that I'm your teacher now and it's not going to be the same like it is at home. You can't just
call me"Alfie" or "Alfred". I'm your teacher and you have to treat me like one, okay?" He watched me for a second.
"So you want me to talk bad about you behind your back for assigning me loads of homework that I won't do?"
He laughed," Yeah, sure. Get to lunch."
I laughed and walked down to lunch and thought about how weird it was going to be calling Alfred by his last name.
Lunch was nice, there where all sorts of things to choose from again and everyone seemed to being enjoying their first day back
including the teachers. I settled down at the usual table next to the window. I guess this was going to become a regular thing but that
wasn't a bad thing. I liked having people I could joke around with, especially since I can't hang out with the countries on the same
terms I'm used to. I could feel that Teddy was enjoying their company to and we shared a look and smiled.
"That's just crazy," Kiko shook his head at us.
"What is?" Teddy and I said together.
"That and the thing you guys were doing like a silent conversation!"
"Sorry we don't realize how odd it must look to you guys. We've always acted like this so it's just natural," I explained.
"We are super close with each other," Teddy added.
"Well I think that is awesome! I wish I had a twin," Ami sighed.
Roze looked up from her book she had been reading,"What's it like to have a twin, someone who knows you so well?"
"W-well it's.. you know," Teddy stumbled over his words.
"It's pretty awesome to know that someone will always have your back and the can feel when your down and now how to fix it. It
does have its down falls like you can't have your own privacy or keep secrets. Actually some twins aren't always this close some just
have normal sibling bonds. I guess it all comes to how well you know each other. You just pick up on stuff if you are close enough.
Twins just have a better advantage," I smiled and added," Teddy thinks you're cute."
Everyone at the table laughed and Roze smiled at Teddy. Teddy was blushing furiously and gave me a look that could kill.
"Oh yeah you guys never did tell me how you know the teachers so well,"Kiko said.
Teddy and I gave each other a long look. We didn't really talk about it often and never around strangers. Teddy tilted his head
slightly towards the group "should we?" I chewed my food slowly and thought about it for a second "We don't have to give them all
the details." Teddy frowned and looked slightly worried "No we don't have to talk about that…" I slowly nod and Teddy turns to the
group.
"Well our parents knew the countries well and they died when Sam and I were young. So the countries took it upon themselves
and took care of us. We primarily lived with America though since that is where we grew up." Teddy took a drink of his soda.
"How did they die?" Leroy asked.
"Leroy! You can't just ask that!" Ami whispered and hit him in his arm.
"They just died," I muttered and continued eating.
"We're so sorry we didn't mean to say anything to make you uncomfortable, you don't have to tell us anymore," Ami said in a
sympathetically and patted me on the arm.
"Okay,"I didn't feel like speaking much I just wanted this conversation to be over.
"So that's why you took his coke," Lucky spoke up.
"What?"I asked.
"You took Mr. Jones' drink and you didn't think that that was weird,"he explained.
"Yeah well I do it all the time at home so it isn't that weird to me and Teddy," I grinned," Heck we're always teasing each other."
Teddy and I tell our new friends the stories of how we would always take Alfred's important documents and make treasure maps
and write stories on them for him to read during meetings. Yeah these people were our friends. Teddy and I trusted them enough with
that piece of our history so they had to have been something to us and it's better to make friends rather than enemies.
Lunch ended too soon and our group dispersed and made our ways to our different classes. I had English next so I walked back
towards America's room, I'm pretty sure the English room had to be around there somewhere because I had seen England around
there. Sure enough Mr. Kirkland's room was right next to Mr. Jones' room. Who had been the idiot to plan that one out I thought as I
walked in and took my seat.
"Hey, Sam! We have two classes together," Leroy sat down next to me,"Isn't that awesome?"
"Yeah that's pretty awesome," I laughed. It wasn't hard to please this guy apparently. He was always so happy.
"So English with England, how about that," Leroy grinned.
"He's always taught me English," I shrugged, I guess it was special to other people.
"This should be an easy A right?"
I snorted and shook my head," Yeah right?"
Mr. Kirkland walked in, shut his door, and walked over to the chalk board. He wrote his name and turned to us," Good
afternoon, I hope you enjoyed your lunch. I am Mr. Kirkland for those of you who can't read and I will be your English teacher, but
you should already know that. And no Mr. Jenkins this will not be an 'easy A'," he mocked," This is a very difficult class and you
will fail if you don't grasp the material and slack off."
He gathered several large packets of paper and handed them out to us.
"These are your syllabi and your required reading material in the other. I won't take the time to go over these I expect that you
know how to read. Instead I want you to take this pre-test," He handed us another lengthy packet," turn them in when you are done
and sit quietly."
I browsed through some of the questions first and saw things like what is the main plot to Hamlet and how did you think
Shakespeare described so and so to be, in the mix where hard grammatical problems and long bits of poetry asking for a long
thoughtful response.
I sighed and got started. Halfway through the class I looked over at Leroy and he looked like he was passing a kidney stone. I did
my best not to laugh and continued with my test.
Not soon enough the bell rang and I stood up and handed in my work and said good bye to Mr. Kirkland and went to look for
Sexual Education. I don't even see the point of this class; honestly, I mean we all know babies are made. Was this just an excuse to
make teens feel uncomfortable or did they just want to give France something to do. It turns out that Sex Ed was right across the hall
from in the hell decided the layout for this! Who in their right mind would put England next to America and across the
hall from France? I hoped that there wouldn't be fights in the future between those three.
I took a step into Mr. Bonnefoy's room and I almost walked right back out, almost. France caught my arm at the last second and
pulled me in.
"Ah where do you think you're going Sam? You have class with me."France directed me to a seat right in the front.
"I'm scared of this place and I almost choked on the perfume you have in here. Don't you think you have enough?" I looked around the room for escape routes, too bad I was on the second floor.
"You can never have enough perfume," Mr. Bonnefoy laughed," Now go ahead and start on this little quiz while you wait for the
other students to arrive."
I was handed a little pretest that was supposed to test my knowledge of sex. There were several slang words and even a little box
at the bottom where you could write about your favorite positions. My face went a dark shade of red and I just stared at my paper.
"A-are you serious?" I stammered.
"Yes,"Francis waved his and at me, "Write."
Several other flustered and embarrassed students arrived and sat down as far away from our teacher as possible. Apparently this
was a smaller class than usual because there were only about six of us. Each of them received the pretest and began filling it out.
Slowly one by one everyone handed theirs back including me.
"Sam, this is blank." Mr. Bonnefoy looked over my paper.
"Yup,"I said.
"Oh well, I shall have you knowing all kinds of things by the end of the year," He winked at me.
"And that goes to the rest of you too. By the end of this year you all shall be as knowledgeable as sex gods. Don't be nervous it's
only a natural thing, a part of life. Think of this class as a romance class rather than sexual education. You all will learn so much more
here. I'll be here for all of your relationship questions and troubles. I will teach you how to charm any person in your path, how to
throw an excellent party, all of this knowledge and more. And who should teach you other than me, Mr. Bonnefoy, a true Frenchman
who knows the language of love. You shall also be learning other things like birth control and pregnancies but that's not really fun.
I'm here to put you all at ease. Now let's all get to know each other shall we?" He waved his hands as he finished his little speech and
handed us some getting to know you worksheets.
We worked on those most of the class while Mr. Bonnefoy walked around and chatted about the questions and really got to know
us while telling us about him. Despite having such an awkward class he was a really good guy most of the time, except when he
instigated little spats between himself and England.
The bell rang and I walked out of the room feeling pretty good about having that class. As long as he didn't get too excited and
graphic I could probably handle that class.
I had about half an hour before dinner started so I decided to head back to my dorm and put up school things and hang up the rest
of my clothes. I pulled out all of my syllabi from my classes and skimmed them to get the main points encase they asked us about that
tomorrow. Plus I was just that bored. I almost had all of my clothes up before I had to wash up and go to dinner.
The food was great but I wonder how long it was going to last. All of the other school I had been too had crappy food. Actually it
would probably last considering the tuition of this place. You could run a small third world country with the amount of money Hetalia
Academy pulled in. The dinner conversation wasn't awkward or forced in fact it was light and pleasant, like the past conversation
didn't happen. Every time Teddy or I would fall quiet or seem distant Ami or Lucky would go out of their way to make us feel better
and a part of things. That was really nice of them.
England held a small speech about the day and wishing us a good day and reminded of us the curfew once more. We all departed
and most of us headed towards the dorms but instead Teddy and I headed to the back garden to get some fresh air and look around.
"Are you okay? You seem… blue," Teddy asked me casually.
"I'm just getting used to school, people, and I just hate not being able to treat the countries like I normally do. I have to ignore all
of our relationships! I can't treat Alfred like he's a good friend or like I usually do! Do you know how hard it is not to tease him and
joke around with him? Or I can't just give him a good night hug!" I raged.
Teddy gave me a half hug and patted me on the shoulder,"I know, it sucks to be so close to someone and have to act like a
stranger. I know the countries mean a lot to you, to us."
"They're our family. They've protected us and loved us and since mom and dad died they're all we have besides each other," I sighed.
"I know and I also know how torn up you're feeling about this. I can feel how angry that makes you and lonely, though you would
never admit that. But you're not alone you have me and our new friends to help you get through this and even the countries to some
degree. You just have to adapt and you're good at that. You picked up our life and held it together through the time when that
happened." He gave me a playful punch on the shoulder.
I smiled.
"Chin up, shoulders back, face your fears like a soldier in the middle of combat." He chanted.
"Nothing can bring us down as long as we're together and are strengthened by our cause to protect the people." I shouted back.
"That's my sister!"
"Thank you," I laughed and gave him a hug.
"Good night sis it's about curfew," Teddy gave me a curt wave and walked to the boy's dorm.
I grinned and walked back to the girls dorm and went in. Inside the lounge was full of girls giggling and talking. I smiled and
joined them for a few minutes not saying much but listening to all of their problems. I was analyzing how to fix their problems and
everything that could go wrong and weighed the pros vs. the cons. I nodded and went up to my bedroom.
I sat down on my bed and relaxed. I could already feel the melancholy creeping back up on me. Teddy was right I was lonely. I
missed how things had been, I missed anime marathons, video game contest, how many marshmallows you could fit in your mouth
with Alfred and Teddy. Yeah this was different from what I was used to. Yeah…. Different…I fell asleep thinking of possible
solutions that could make this situation more adjustable and less painful