It was a miracle that Meredith Evans had ever existed. Who would have ever thought that the pink haired teenager would end up happily married to prince charming? She definitely never would have. Meredith Grey was dark and twisty with mommy issues, daddy issues, trust issues, and so many other types of issues, while Meredith Evans was happy, carefree, and loved her life. The difference in the two: Chris Evans. He had so much happiness that he let it all spill over into her. He had the perfect childhood, mom, dad, and three older sisters. He was intelligent, handsome, and perfect in really every way. The only flaw Meredith had been able to find was that he was a slob. He left his clothes everywhere, dirty dishes in the living room, never helped clean anything, but she never even really noticed. When someone makes you that happy, who really cares? He had somehow even been able to convince her that she could be the one thing she never thought she could be, and she guessed now she never would be: a mom.

"Hey sweetie, do you mind stopping by the pharmacy on your way home from work? I took my last pill today." Meredith said to Chris. He was getting off of work at 4 while she was on until 8.

"I have an even better idea. Why don't we not get them filled this month?"

"Why would you want to do that? You know you hate using condoms, and my cycle will get all out of whack."

"What if we don't get them filled and don't use condoms?"

"If we did that I could get……oh…."

"Yeah, we could have a little me or even better a little you. Wouldn't that be amazing?"

"Chris, you know I can't be a mom. I mean I basically didn't even have a mother. How in the world am I supposed to be one for somebody else?" she asked as she pulled him into a nearby on-call room.

"Meri, I don't know why you think you can't be a mom. You're amazing with children. All our nieces and nephews love you. They even talked you into sitting at the children's table at Christmas."

"I only sat at the children's table to avoid your sisters' glares, but, I mean, that was just for a weekend. If we had a baby it would be ours all the time."

"That's kind of the point."

"Stop being an ass! You know what I mean. What if I screw it up like my mom did me?"

"Would you ever leave a six year old child home alone? Or, have you ever forgotten my birthday or Christmas? Have you ever stayed at the hospital for two weeks straight?"

"Well, no. What's your point?"

"You are nothing like your mother, and I am nothing like your father. Our child would have the best childhood a child could ask for. Are you happy?"

"What kind of a question is that? Of course I'm happy!"

"Don't you want to share some of that happiness?"

"We would be a family, a happy family just like on tv."

"Just like on tv, except even better. Do you still want me to stop by the pharmacy on my way home? I understand if you're not ready yet."

"No, don't stop by the pharmacy."

"Are you sure?"

"Not completely, but I know that I can do this. As long as you are here, I can do this."

Chris had always been able to talk her into doing just about anything he wanted. All it took was one look into those blue eyes, and she was a goner. He had convinced her to start trying for a baby exactly one week before he died. They had tried almost continually for that entire week. Even though she had never been completely sold on being a mom, she really regretted that she was never going to get to have her perfect little family like on tv, her baby with Chris's big blue eyes. Maybe this was just fate's way of telling her that she shouldn't be a mother after all. Maybe Chris had only been in her life so she could get a glimpse of everything she had missed out on while growing up? As the pilot announced their descent into Seattle, she could feel all the demons from her childhood slowly pouring back into her, this was the place where it had all started. This was where she had first become dark and twisty Meredith. It only seemed fitting that she was starting over in the same city where almost 25 years ago her happy five year old world had come crashing down.