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My mom was a drunk, my dad was never there. I always knew that if I had a child I would make it my duty to not emotionally scar them like my mother so graciously did to me. I was ecstatic when I first found out about Mykel, or Kelly as we so affectionately call her. I was finally going to get my chance to right my mother's wrongs. Sure she may have come earlier than expected, and I may not have finished at University but Sean and I knew we would give her a good life, and I would give up school a million times over for my Kelly. Some days I wonder though, what it would be like if it were different, but then maybe I wouldn't be writing this book, and then where would I be.

"Aww mommy, no bed yet ok." Mykel tried to reason with Ellie for the third time that night.

"I know your tired Kelly, it's way past your bedtime anyway. How about I tell you a story hmm," Ellie said softly as she gently stroked through her daughters red hair.

"Hmm, ok mommy. I still no sleepy," Mykel said as she yawned slightly.

"Do you want to hear the story of how Daddy and I met again?"Ellie laughed as her daughter shook her head happily as she snuggled under her covers and grabbed her big teddy. "Ok scoot over some, I think there's enough room on this toddler bed for me, you, and Mr. Yogi. Lets see, it was a warm and breezy Saturday morning. I didn't want to be there but I was a woman on a mission, if mommy was going to be a world famous journalist someday she had to get her practice in early. A lot of things had been going bad for me but that Saturday when I saw your daddy I found stability. He was so cute, so mysterious, so..." Ellie look down to see her daughter gently breathing and peacefully sleeping in her arms. She gently leaned her back against her pillow and tucked her in, giving her one last kiss on her head before she got up to leave her for the night. Ellie looked up at the window in her daughters room. Sean had put two locks on the window since the screen incident the other night. When Ellie was certain that Mykel was safe she finally left her room, but not before taking one last look back at her daughter, she didn't even notice Alex standing out in her hallway.

"Aw, you really love her Elle." Ellie jumped a little, slightly startled by Alex being behind her.

"Oh Alex, I didn't know you were up here. I thought that you and Jay may be downstairs with Sean."

"I just wanted to talk to you Elle, without Jay around. I still can't believe how great of a mom you are, I could never be that good, that gentle,"Alex said slightly emotional.

"Alex where is all of this coming from," Ellie asked curiously as she led Alex towards her bedroom so they could talk. "Mykel is going to be three years old next week, you have seen us interact plenty of times, what's the real reason you need to talk."

"It's about me and Jay, I just – what if there was someone I liked better?"Alex asked suddenly becoming shy.

"Excuse me ?" Ellie said shocked and confused.

"I don't know if Jay is the one for me? I mean we don't have what you and Sean have, let's face it Jay isn't the most romantic guy in the world. I guess what I 'm saying is, have you ever felt like Sean had ruined your life, or was maybe holding you back?"Alex looked up at Ellie hoping that her friend could at least relate to her in some way. She needed reassurance that everything was okay, and even though she wasn't making complete sense in her statements, she was never more sure about her situation as she was at that moment.

"I love Sean Alex, and I will admit that I imagined my life to be a lot different now than it is, but so what. I am still going to reach all of my goals, I love my daughter; I can honestly say I have loved her since the first time I heard her heartbeat. Plus to look up and see Sean, tough guy Sean, cry from hearing it and seeing that grainy image, that's when I knew everything would be alright."

"So you've never thought about being with anyone else, not once." Alex asked getting a little louder.

"What don't you get about that Alex, monogamy is not a difficult concept."Ellie was now kind of annoyed, what was Alex implying? She was married to Sean, it was a conscious decision that she made, not just for Kelly but for herself. Marriage made things easy for them, they could all be on the same insurance policies, she got discounts from the government, and she would be able to apply for money on her own for University. She loved Sean, she loved Sean. Ellie started snapping the familiar blue rubber band around her wrist, she didn't have time for guilty thoughts or actions, and certainly was not trying to dig things up that may have happened in the past.

"Not even Craig?" Alex snapped.

"What?" Ellie asked snapping back to reality.

"I said not even Craig?" Alex asked again, now knowing the answer to her question.

"What about me?" Ellie turned around shocked to see Sean, Craig, Jay, and Marco standing in her bedroom doorway.

Ok, it's been a while since I have updated and this is a short chapter but I wanted to give you something. It is about to get a whole lot more intense so I hope the number of people who like this story will increase. It hasn't gotten many reviews but as long as people want to read it I will keep writing it.

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