I Disclaim: I have no Rights or association to Degrassi or any of the characters in this story except of course Mykel , and Alexia, they're mine and you can't have them, if CTV wants to talk business I'm still listening lol.

It was something about the control, when I felt that warm crimson liquid, I knew I had control. I could make my pain weak or strong. Life throws so many things at you, one minute it is going wonderfully, you have love surrounding you and you know your future will be just how you always imagined, but then in a shear instant everything can change, and you find yourself alone with a compass, cutting yourself to relieve your pain.

"Being a social worker is so fulfilling, especially when I get to help those poor children. So now that I am back in Toronto," Marco paused for a dramatic effect. "I am thinking about starting an adoption agency," Everyone was impressed even Jay, although he failed to show it. They were all down in the living room catching up that evening. Jay was rudely flipping through a magazine, and Mykel had actually calmed down quickly after Ellie brought her down stairs. The excitement was just too much for her.

"Wow, I'm impressed Marco that would be great," Ellie said. "I can't believe you are even doing that so young, I really need to go back to University." Ellie replied a little sadly as she looked over at her sleeping daughter in Sean's arms.

"All you need to do is focus on finishing that book Elle," Craig said and smiled.

"Oh yea, that is going to be a best seller," Sean chimed in.

"Yea but what if it's not, I can't be a world famous journalist if I don't get my degree." Ellie said now getting discouraged.

"Why would you want to be a world famous one, so you can get away from Sean," Jay added not looking up from his magazine.

"What, that's crazy. You are suck a dick Jay." Ellie replied as everyone laughed.

"Ok I'll let you have that one Vam- I mean Ellie." Jay closed the magazine and looked at Ellie as he tossed it on the table. "I'm just saying to be world famous, would require, correct me if I'm wrong, seeing the world." Jay smiled as Alex gave him a "where are you going with this" look. "What," he said to Alex, "her life seems pretty great right here to me. She has a good job, a nice house, a nice husband, good friends, and great daughter. Why would you want to drop all that for some dumb degree, to go to the States or Timbuktu, or Haiti or whatever."

"Ellie has talent, and this is her dream. Obviously she would travel, that's one of the perks, she would meet all types of famous people and really broaden her knowledge." Craig said as he sipped his coffee, not really helping the situation any.

"Thank you Craig," Ellie was just happy someone was taking up for her.

"Well Jay's right though," Sean spoke up for the first time on this topic, it was the first time he really thought about it, and how much Ellie's "dream" would change his life. "What are Mykel and I going to do while you are off seeing the world, or in University even."

"Uh oh," Marco and Alex looked at each other, this wasn't going to be good.

"Well Sean, that was always in the plans. I would finish school, maybe even get my masters, after we felt Mykel was old enough to be in daycare." Ellie didn't want to talk about this in front of everyone. "Why don't we drop the subject Sean."

"No I don't feel like dropping it yet," Sean passed Mykel to Jay and leaned forward in his chair. "I thought we were thinking about having another baby, seriously Elle how are you going to finish school with two. You can put it off for a few more years."

"That was just talk Sean, I got caught up in the moment one night. I am going back to school this fall, I have already enrolled." Ellie looked down she didn't want him to find out like this.

"What," Sean hated when people lied to him or kept things from him. "Well when were you planning on telling me this." Sean was pissed.

"I really think we should talk about this later sweetie," Ellie said with an attitude as she went to grab her daughter from Jay.

"Yeah, we will," Sean said as he went to the kitchen and grabbed a beer.

"Um, what the hell are you doing." Ellie said leaving Mykel with Jay and instead walking in the kitchen when she heard the can pop. She was very angry that Sean was drinking, she knew all it took was one sip for him to loose control.

"Jay and I got some beers this afternoon, calm down it's just one." Sean said as he walked back towards the living room, letting the cold brew slide down his throat, God how he had missed that.

" It's just beer Ellie." Marco said trying to reassure her.

"Whatever, if he wants to start drinking again I don't care," Ellie said with hurt in her eyes. She finally retrieved her daughter from Jay's arms and carried her upstairs for the night with no real intentions of coming back down to her company.

"Why did you do that,"Alex said to Jay angrily.

"What did I do,"Jay said playing dumb. Alex just rolled her eyes and shook her head.

"Maybe I should go see If she's ok," Marco said worried as Jay got up to go join Sean in the kitchen.

"I'll go," Craig said as he jogged up the steps.

"That doesn't surprise me at all." Jay said as he walked away.

"Welcome home," Marco laughed a little. It had been about four years since Marco had been back in Toronto to live, and it was still as much drama as when he left. He looked over at Alex to see her staring into space looking like she wanted to either cry, scream, or run. "What's wrong Alex," Marco said as he sat down next to one of his best friends.

"We haven't even been living her for twenty-four hours yet and Jay has managed to turn Sean and Ellie's world upside down. I knew this would happen." Alex twisted the pink ring on her finger, contemplating her next move.

"That's pretty, you know Paige used to have a ring just like that,"Marco said changing the subject a little. "I wonder how she's doing, nobody has heard from her in years. If it wouldn't be so awkward I would call Dylan up to find out."

"I know," was all Alex said. The two sat in silence for a few moments absorbing their surroundings and listening to Jay and Sean carry on in the kitchen. After five minutes Alex couldn't take it anymore. "If anyone ask, tell them I needed to clear my head,"and before Marco could say anything Alex was out the door.

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