Hello everyone! Sorry for the lateness in posting this chapter. I suddenly got super busy for the past two weeks and couldn't upload, but here is the next chapter. I'm hoping that that problem doesn't happen again when I post the next chapter. Thanks for bearing with me though!
I wanted to change things up a bit with this chapter. I really actually do like Jo as a character so I stuck in this chapter for her, just to sort of give a view point on how she sees everything and show that she's not a terrible person or anything. It was kind of nice to write from this point of view, just because I'm sure a lot of people know how it feels to be on the opposite side of what Kendall and Jayne are going through. I hope you guys like reading this one! =)
Disclaimer: I don't own any BTR characters, just Jayne and Claire.
"Seems like everything's the same around me, then I look again and everything has changed."
It was like any other day for Jo Taylor. She got up and got ready for the day, eating breakfast with her dad and giving her mom a phone call afterwards so they could just talk and catch up. Then she hung out with Camille for a couple hours, having some free time before having to go the set for New Town High. Then the boys of Big Time Rush would come down by the pool and join them for a bit, Jayne meeting up with them after her rehearsal. They'd all sit and chat, laughing and joking around, maybe grab a bit to eat. Then, the others would leave and she'd spend the last hour with Kendall, hanging out and catching up and talking. It was the perfect schedule for her, but today had been different.
Scratch that.
The past couple of weeks had been very different for Jo. For the most part, everything went according to plan, but there were small details that she noticed. When the boys came down to meet Camille and herself, Kendall would sometimes be missing from the pack. The guys would explain that he was waiting for Jayne and that they would meet them later. She would never make a big deal out of it, they were friends after all, and the guys didn't seem to think there was a problem, so why would she?
But she couldn't help but listen to the voice in the back of her head. The voice that kept on wondering why Kendall spent so much time with his next door neighbor. She knew that nothing was going to happen, she trusted the singer completely, and he wasn't the type of person to ever cheat on someone, but still, she couldn't help but feel a little…insecure.
Other than that, things always went like planned. They would all sit, Kendall would sit beside her and kiss her on the temple, making her smile. Then they'd all talk and enjoy the day and relax. It was strange though, even though it was the same, something felt different about the group.
Jo sighed as she stared at the water of the pool, the ripples catching her attention with ease. She frowned a bit as she glanced up, waiting for Kendall to return to the table.
The others had left a good half hour before, letting the couple have their alone time and relax with each other, but somehow, it almost felt like Kendall didn't want the others to leave. She didn't think he noticed it, but he prolonged the conversations, and he always seemed to want them all to say longer.
"Here you go!" Jo snapped herself out of her thoughts as she looked up and smiled at her boyfriend. He smiled at her as he handed her a pink smoothie.
"Thanks." She watched as he sat across from her, and her eyes lingered on him as he took a sip of his own smoothie. He smiled at the taste, looking up at Jo. He raised a brow, confused by the expression on his girlfriend's face.
"You ok?"
Jo blinked as she smiled and nodded her head, taking a sip out of her smoothie. "Sorry, I've been really out of it today."
"Right. You've been a lot busier lately," Kendall pointed out as the blonde nodded her head and sighed.
"Yeah, we've been trying to cram some more scenes in just because the director's not sure what she wants to keep in and what she wants to take out," she explained as the singer nodded his head.
The two sat in silence for a few minutes, neither really knowing what to say. The sound of laughter and talking around them filled the void, fortunately for them. Jo looked up at Kendall as he stared out at the people, just enjoying the day. Jo's eyes softened as she glanced out at the people. She bit her lip as she thought for a moment.
Did she have enough courage to do it? Enough bravery to ask him if everything was ok? It was a simple question, but the answer was what scared her the most. That's why she had continued to pretend the past couple of weeks didn't bother her, because in the back of her head, she knew she wasn't going to like the answer. The answer to that question was either going to make it or break it.
She was terrified it would break what they had.
Taking a deep breath, Jo forced a smile as she reached over to hold Kendall's hand with her own. "Kend-"
"Jayne?"
"What did you just call me?"
"No, no! Jayne's right there."
Jo turned around, and watched as Jayne glanced around the pool area. The brunette's eyes fell upon the two as she smiled. The two waved as she walked over to them, a weak smile on her face.
"Hey. I'm sorry to bother you guys, but have you seen my key around here?"
"Your room key?" Jo asked as the dancer nodded with a sigh.
"I must have lost it earlier, and Claire's still out," Jayne explained as Kendall looked down.
"I didn't see it," he stated as Jo shook her head as well.
"Sorry, Jayne," she said sympathetically as the girl smiled, shaking her head.
"Don't worry about it. I'll find it eventually, I'm sure it's around here somewhere."
"You need help looking for it?"
That was what Jo hated the most. He didn't notice, but Kendall always seemed to go the extra mile for Jayne. Jo didn't even think Jayne noticed it, and it killed her. It drove her crazy, how the two didn't seem to notice that their relationship just wasn't like any normal friendship. It was…deeper than that. She didn't want to say it, but it was almost like Kendall had feelings for her. Feelings that you get for someone when you like them as more than just a friend, but Jo was his girlfriend, so those feelings were only suppose to be for her.
Right?
"No! It's fine, you guys-"
"It's not a big deal," Kendall remarked, standing to his feet. He looked down at Jo as she tried to pretend she wasn't offended by his lack of interest in spending time with her. The actress used her skills and nodded as she smiled and stood up.
"With the three of us, finding it should be easier."
Jayne smiled as she nodded. "Thank you, guys."
She wanted to like Jayne. She did like Jayne. It was the strange bond that the brunette and Kendall had that she didn't like. 'Didn't like' was an understatement. She hated it. That sort of relationship, it was something that was suppose to be between significant others, but for some reason, Jo felt that the roles had changed. She still held the title of his girlfriend, but did the title even mean anything if things didn't seem that way?
"Ok, so if it's not out by the pool, where else could it be?" Kendall inquired as Jayne thought for a moment.
"Well, I met up with you guys here in the lobby."
"Check the couches!" Kendall instructed. He and Jayne walked over to the couches, chatting about something as Jo watched them for a moment. She took a deep breath and released it slowly before she followed after them.
The way Kendall looked at Jayne, wasn't that suppose to the way he looked at Jo? He used to look at her with that gleam in his eyes, and he used to keep her as a number one priority. He used to only think about her, and that smile he showed Jayne, he used to only smile at Jo like that.
No, that wasn't entirely true. Jo had never seen that smile before until the dancer had shown up. She could still remember when the boy had told her about his neighbor. He had gone on for quite a bit about how they had used music as their weapon and how it was hilarious to see the girl's reaction. That was the very first time she had seen him use such a smile. It was as if he was glowing, and like he was floating on cloud nine.
"Oh, I think I found it!" Kendall called out hopefully. Jayne and Jo approached his side as he dug through the cushions. He pulled his hand out with a triumphant smile but gagged as he held a molded cheetoh. He released a grossed out yelp as he tossed it to the side, wiping his hand against his jeans. The brunette beside him smirked as she pat his back.
"Nice work."
"Shut up!" he snapped playfully as he rolled his eyes at her. He smiled as the girl continued to search the other cushions, shaking his head. He began to search as Jo smiled at him.
"Cheetoh, key, they're almost the same," she joked as Kendall laughed and shook his head.
"I swear, I thought it was the key," he stated as he shook his head. "Bitters, you've got to clean these couches once in awhile!"
The three failed to find the key in the lobby, so they decided to move to the front of the hotel. Jayne immediately began to search through the bushes, Kendall asking a few residence if they had seen a key on the ground or anywhere. Jo looked around, searching the ground for anything that shined. She took a couple strides forward and glanced back. Her gaze hardened slightly as she watched Kendall approach Jayne, giving her a joke. She watched as the brunette rolled her eyes, trying to hide her smile from the dirty blond. The boy laughed as he poked her in the side, the dancer quickly scurrying away from him.
Why did things have to feel so wrong to her?
"Hey!" Jo knelt down as she picked up a silver key, standing and waving for the two to come over. "Is this it?"
Jayne released a sigh of relief as she took the key from her friend and nodded her head. "Thanks, Jo!"
Said girl smiled as she nodded and handed the key to her friend. Kendall smiled as he wrapped his arm around his girlfriend's shoulders. "Nicely done."
"Why, thank you," Jo said with a playful smile. Kendall chuckled as he kissed the temple of the blonde. The two watched as Jayne securely placed the key into her satchel. She smiled at the two and sighed as she opened her mouth to say something.
"Thanks-" She stopped, the sound of her cell phone ringing catching everyone's attention. She looked at the caller ID before she rolled her eyes. Kendall smirked as he unhooked his arm from his beloved.
"Is that who I think it is?"
"Of course it is," Jayne muttered as she flipped her phone open, placing it against her ear. Kendall smirked as he quickly approached her side, saying a hello to the person from the other end.
"Hey, Claire!"
"Kendall, shut up! Can't you see I'm trying to yell at my incompetent aunt?"
Jo watched as the two bickered-more of Jayne if anything-and she frowned, feeling the distance between herself and Kendall growing. Even though he was standing right there, she felt like they were miles apart, and it scared her.
"Alright, well, anyways," Jayne started as she turned to her friends and sighed. "Thanks for the help. Sorry to bother you guys," she apologized as the two smiled at her and shook their heads.
"Don't worry about it," Jo assured as she smiled. "I'm just glad you found it."
"Me too," Jayne commented as she sighed and stretched. "Well, Claire should be here any second."
"Heading to the studio?" Kendall asked curiously as Jayne nodded her head.
"Yes. Apparently I have a new routine my coach wants to run by me." As she said the last phrase, the black Lexus that her aunt drove pulled up to the hotel, the window rolling down. A smiling woman waved to the three teens as they all smiled back to her.
"Hey guys, Jayne. Come on. You're going to be late."
"Yes. I'm going to be late for my last minute rehearsal," the girl said sarcastically, Claire rolling her eyes at her niece. The woman looked over at the other two teenagers as she smiled at them, giving them a small wave.
"Hey guys."
"Hi," Jo said with a smile as Kendall grinned playfully.
"Sorry you have to deal with this one again."
"Excuse me?"
"Well, she is my niece after all, I don't have much of a choice."
"Could you two stop talking about me like I'm not right here?" Jayne snapped as she climbed into the car, buckling her seatbelt and getting comfortable. Kendall approached the opened window as he and the girl began to engage in a quick conversation, which was filled with mostly witty banter between them. Jo watched and her smile disappeared as she stared at Kendall, the look on his face making her heart drop.
Kendall... She quickly smiled again as Kendall waved goodbye to his neighbors, the car driving away. He turned back to his girlfriend and sighed as he smiled at her.
"Well, now that that's over." The singer began to make his way into the hotel as Jo followed after him a few steps back. She stared at his back as everything faded around her, the only thing existing being the boy in front of her. She bit her lip as she closed her eyes.
She really cared about Kendall, and she knew for a fact that he cared about her too, but she had a feeling, no, she knew that she was no longer someone at the top of his list. Someone else had taken that spot from her. Maybe if she had been around more she could have stopped it from happening. Maybe if she hadn't been so focused on her career, then things would have worked out.
She knew she was wrong.
There was no stopping what had happened between Kendall and Jayne. Whatever was between them, it was irreplaceable to the dirty blond. Jo knew that clearly almost the second she saw the two interact with each other. She didn't know what hurt her more, the fact that she had been replaced, or the fact that there was nothing she could do to stop it.
"Hey." Jo looked up as Kendall gave her a concerned gaze. "What's up with you?" he asked curiously as the actress blinked, noticing they had returned to their table they had been sitting at earlier.
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know," Kendall said as he shrugged, shaking his head. "You just seem a little spacey today is all," he explained. Jo chuckled as she shook her head and smiled at him sweetly.
"Nope! It's nothing, don't worry about it."
"If you say so," Kendall stated, hesitating slightly. It was strange seeing such an expression of Jo's face. It was as if she had lost something, but Kendall had no clue what it was. He thought for a moment before he remembered his conversation with his girlfriend that had been interrupted by his good friend.
"Didn't you want to tell me something?" he asked. Jo's eyes widened as she stared at her boyfriend. He smiled reassuringly at her as he leaned back in his chair. Jo smiled weakly as she tried to come to a firm decision. She stared at Kendall for a long minute, his relaxed expression disappearing and shifting into a more worried look.
"Is everything ok?" Jo took a deep breath before she smiled and nodded.
"Yeah, I was just wondering if you wanted to see a movie this weekend," she lied. The leader of BTR smiled as he relaxed and chuckled, nodding his head.
"Sure thing."
She couldn't do it. She didn't want to hear the answer she knew she was going to get. She didn't want to break something that had been so perfect for so long. It would be just too cruel for the both of them. She wanted to stay with Kendall, maybe she could just work things out with the blond without having to break their perfect life. How long could she keep up this lie though? Could she close the gap that was growing every single day?
Kendall stood up and stretched as he glanced at his phone. "You've got to get going."
Jo smiled as she stood up and nodded her head. She and Kendall made their way inside, the two stopping in the lobby. The singer smiled as Jo smiled back at him.
"Good luck on set," he said as Jo nodded. She turned to walk away, but stopped as she looked back at Kendall. He raised a brow, confused by her sudden change of action. His eyes widened as he felt her wrap suddenly around him, holding him in a tight embrace. He blinked a few times, letting his brain register what exactly was happening. He hesitantly wrapped his own arms around the girl as he frowned.
"Jo, are you sure everything's ok?" he asked, the girl chuckling and nodding. She hid her uneasy expression from him as she squeezed tightly.
"I just feel like I haven't hugged you in awhile," she said, ignoring the fact she probably sounded a little childish. Kendall laughed as he shook his head, smiling at the girl. They pulled away as he placed his hand on her cheek.
"Have fun," he said as Jo smiled and nodded. She watched as he turned, waving goodbye to her over his shoulder. She stared at his back as he disappeared, her smile twisting into a grimace. She stood alone for a moment, and though she had been in his arms for a good few minutes, she couldn't help but feel cold at his touch. She could feel his arms around her, but the same warmth she used to feel was no longer there. She felt almost hollow in his embrace.
She calmly turned around, making her way outside. She glanced around and climbed into her car, the driver nodding a hello to her. She smiled and nodded back, turning and staring out the window, the scenery passing her by in a blur. She sighed, closing her eyes, and leaned back into the leather seat, staring at the ceiling for the vehicle.
She wasn't going to give up.
