A/N: I'm losing motivation to write...

Forest Level Six:

Reflections and Rejection

You came. You really, really came.

Renji-sama shot right past me and clenched the wooden bars of the cells. "How do you know her?" I closed my eyes trying to escape this confusion. But my ear could hear, perfectly. I felt dizzy. Woozy. Sad. Then I fell, into the darkness of my mind.

It was dark and cold. It was snowing and I looked as she stared longingly at Kurosaki Clinic. She was looking up at it. The snow that fell on her cloths stuck out. She was dressed for the season, but she was in all black. A dark snowflake in a winter paradise. Her hair was a little longer than mine, around mid-back. Creamy orange tied in pigtails going straight down.

"It hurts, it hurts." She mumbled, clenching her heart. "It hurts to not be wanted." She looked at me, "It hurts to not be loved by your dearest."

"Maybe, he wasn't your love."

"When I left. He worried about me. He came for me. It made me happy."

I looked at the opening door of the clinic, a boy around eight, Kurosaki-kun, and a young woman around 30, his mother. They walked down the path to the street. They went right though the girl. She didn't move. She didn't blink. She didn't breath. A soft smile appeared. "Remember went he held your hand. How did you feel?"

I remembered when I was ten and sick. Kurosaki-kun held my hand all the way to the nurses office. "I felt fuzzy and warm inside. Like someone turned on a heater in my heart."

"What would you do for that to happen again?"

"Anything."

She turned away and slowly walked as she disappeared. I saw her faintly, and her voice echoed, "Good."

I should ask for her name. The next time we meet.

I walked. I walked far and far. But I didn't know where to go, there were a lot of doors but I didn't know which was the right one. They all felt wrong, so I walked. It was different here than the other places here it was…confusing. Everywhere I went I wanted to break down and cry but I didn't, I closed my eyes and imagined what made me happy. Kurosaki-kun, Renji-sama, Ayu-chan, everyone. I chanted over and over in my head

"Wah…"I heard a echo on sniffles. A small, crouching human shadow in the darkness appeared. I started walking forward. A child with short orange haired and a black dress with decorations on the hem appeared. The dress blended with the darkness.

"Are you lost?" I crouched down.

"I've been lost for a long, long time. I've been all by myself." I stared at her, "Will you go to the light, lady? I'm scared, I'm a crybaby."

"That's not it, anyone would be scared being in a dark place like this all by themselves." I breathed and smiled, "Let's go together."

"No! They'll all laugh at me, I have to go down!" She pointed down to the darkness we were standing on. She sunk down, "I don't want everybody to laugh at me."

"I won't laugh."

She looked at me, "You promise that the light won't hurt?"

"I promise." I put a hand over my heart and smiled.

"Will you come with me, Big Sister?" She said clinching my robes. "I'm really scared."

"Yup, I don't want to be alone anymore too."

I could tell she was about to cry, "We're not alone anymore, we have each other!" A white light appeared in front of us. She backed up, "I'm a baby, I'm too scared to go."

"Me too." I walked closer and held out an arm, "But this feels nice and warm. I want to go here."

She took my arm and walked in. As we walked in to the light I felt her hand disappear from mine, "Thank you, Big Sister, This feels nice. I'm not scared or lonely. I hope that you get your wish to come true. Just search a little harder and you'll find it. Only a little harder." She breathed and in a peppy voice she shouted, "Bye-bye, Big Sister Kaede!"

"Bye!" Ibeamed. I could hear her happily giggle.

My eyes slowly opened the white light hung over my head. I felt pressure on my lower legs. I slowly got up to see Kurosaki-kun and Renji-sama at me feet, sleeping. They look so cute when they sleep, like children. But…once they wake up I'll have to face reality. Truth, guilt, rejection, heartbreak, loneliness. Every night on a star, I wished the world could be my fantasy. I made the rules, everybody had a home and food, and they all found their true love. And sometimes I would stay up at night to hear the rain fall and I would imagine Kurosaki-kun, who hates the rain.

"Kurosaki-kun…"

"Time will make you forget about me." His face was buried in the covers. He can't even look at me, "Just wait."

"I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever."

"Kaede…" He said. He won't even bring his head up to see me. "Please, just forget about me."

"I wish…I could." I said went down on my pillow, "It's hard to tell my mind to stop loving someone if my heart still does." Tears streaked down my face. But…what's odd is that I want to turn to the only person who can stop me from crying even if that's the one who is making me cry.

"Your love…" I heard him whisper, "Should go to someone who can return your feelings."

"Mmmmnnnm." I nodded getting up to let the tears out faster.

"But, if we could, I'd like to be friends." He shifted his head to see me. His eyes shined and his smile was so sweet. He was like an angel. I wish that that he would confess his undying love to me, right then and there.

"So, should I smile because you're my friend or cry because it will never be?"

He slowly got up, "Well, I think…you should smile." He put on hand on my head and had a huge grin on, "Because that's what I like to see the most!"

"Kurosaki-kun…" I hugged his waist gently not wanting to wake Renji-sama on my legs, "Thank you so much…because I loved you I know that this life is worth living, because I'll find my love one day."

"Kaede…" Even if I just crashed and burned, It didn't matter, being here with Kurosaki-kun, felt good.

I remember what my mother would tell me, 'The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up.' Mother, I don't think I've woken up yet, because I haven't found my love yet. Until then, I will dream.

"Uh, Kaede, not to ruin the mood but why were you and Renji out until morning?"

Kurosaki-kun…were friends, right? Then friends can play jokes on friends, "We're lovers." I giggled.

"WHAT!?!"

"What's going on?" said Renji-sama sleepily.

I think things are going to work out fine. I think.