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A/N: Ah the moment of truth. Finally we get to see who Alex picks. This was by far the most re-written chapter ever lol. I hope you enjoy it.
"Sean I need you to sit down." I was so nervous; we were only 20 years old.
"What's wrong Elle?" Sean asked as he sat down on the couch and I took his hand into mine. We had just gotten our relationship somewhat back to normal. Sean was still on probation, but he was trying to turn his life around. Jay had gotten him a great job at the garage he worked for and I was about a year and a half away from being finished at University. This couldn't have happened at a worse time and I was so afraid of what Sean's reaction was going to be. I refused to kill or give up my baby and if Sean wasn't ok with that than I would just have to figure out a way to make it on my own.
"Elle, what's wrong? You know you can tell me anything." I smiled at Sean and pulled him into a kiss. If we were going to break up over this I wanted to get one last kiss in. I thought back to the night with Craig over two years ago. I still hated myself for letting it go as far as it did. Sean had been perfect. He never cheated on me once. I was so selfish for not understanding that he needed his space. It may have taken several years but I always knew things would be normal between us again. And then this happens. I broke the kiss and braced myself for the worse.
"Sean, I went to the doctor last week and he told me – well ..." I sighed as I gripped his hands tighter. "He told me that I'm pregnant."
"He's so beautiful Libs," Ellie cried as she gently cradled baby Aaron that afternoon. She was just as disappointed as Sean that they had missed the birth but Liberty was just happy to see them. Ellie had jumped at the chance to hold the baby and was in awe at how perfect the child looked. They had dragged Jay with them to the hospital even though he was still depressed about Alex. He showed as much interest in the new baby as Mykel, who had grown board with him after about ten minutes and made her way over to the T.V in Liberty's room. Everyone could tell that whatever had happened between Jay and Alex was serious; they just weren't sure how to bring the situation up.
"I just can't believe he is finally here. I can't even begin to describe the feeling." Liberty said sincerely as she leaned on Towerz' arm.
"He's so tiny mommy, and he sleeps a lot." Justice said as she examined her brother in Ellie's arms. She had been anticipating the day she would become a big sister but for some reason it seemed a lot more eventful in her five year old mind.
"He's going to sleep a lot for a while Just, he's still got so much growing to do." Towerz said as he pulled his daughter into a hug.
"It's not going to be hard at all Elle," Sean said as he took the baby from her into his arms.
"What's not going to be hard?" Jay asked as he looked up from watching T.V in the small room with Mykel.
"To love another one," Ellie smiled.
"Oh my god," Liberty almost shrieked. "Are you really?" Ellie smiled and nodded.
"Wow, congratulations you guys, I really mean it," Towerz said cheerfully as Sean passed him his son.
"I need a smoke," Jay said as he got up to leave the room. It was a conspiracy, everyone was either pregnant or had a child, everyone but Alex. He had convinced himself that was the reason she wanted to be with Paige. When Alex was with Jay she was reminded of the child she lost, and the fact that she had never gotten pregnant again.
"Where Uncle Jay going?" Mykel asked innocently, still not aware of what was going on.
"I don't know baby but why don't you come sit on Mommy's lap."Ellie said sweetly causing Mykel to run eagerly to her.
"Maybe I should go check on him," Sean said concerned. "He had a fight with Alex last night and he never got a chance to finish telling me about it."
"Oh man, I'll go with you." Towerz said as he kissed his son gently on the forehead and passed him to Liberty, who readily cradled him against her.
"I hope they can finally work things out." Ellie said as she played in her daughter's hair.
"If Jay and Alex are still tolerating each other this long, then nothing is ever going to tear them apart," Liberty said softly as she motioned for Justice to come interact with her new brother. "Don't worry Elle; I have a good feeling about this."
"Do you want some more coffee hon," Paige asked Alex sweetly. It was a routine that had happened for many nights since they had gotten back together. Last night had been different though, Paige thought. Alex stayed on the couch, and cried harder than she ever had before. She told Paige about everything from the ring to Taryn. Paige knew she had lost her to Jay, and even though Alex wasn't aware she had been suspecting for a while that Jay and Alex would soon have a permanent tangible reason to be together. It broke Paige's heart but she had grown to love Alex so much that she truly wanted her to be happy.
"I'm fine Paige." Alex said as she made her way back to Paige's couch. It had been a long night, and an even worse morning. Alex woke up feeling sick and tired. She had cried for a long time in Paige's arms the night before but she couldn't help that a part of her wished it was Jay who was holding her. It was at that moment that she realized it was Jay who owned her heart. She would always have a place in it for Paige, but Jay, he had the deed. "I'm sorry for doing this to you again. It's like whenever Jay and I have a problem you're the one that I turn to." Alex said as she pulled the blanket protectively around her on the couch.
"Alex, I love you and I always will. Alexis loves you and I want you to be with me forever, but I'm not sure if that is what will be best for you." Paige said as she sat down on the coffee table in front of Alex.
"I just don't know anymore Paige. I do love you, it's just-"
"Jay had a part of your heart Alex long before I ever came into the picture." Paige blinked back tears knowing that she was making the most difficult decision ever. "I am always going to be your friend, I am always going to be there for you but even I can see that you and Jay complete each other."
"But he has hurt me so much," Alex said as she sat up and looked at Paige.
"He is only human. He has been completely faithful to you for 5 years. He got with Amy again when you two weren't together. He didn't know about his daughter I'm sure. He has grown up and changed so much and I know that he loves you. Don't worry about me you have done more for me these past few months than you could have ever known." Paige smiled. "I am going to start going to the gym with Marco and I am finally ready to start eating right." Paige sighed as she stood up and smoothed out her pants. "Did I fail to mention I put Matt out for good a few days ago?"
"Finally," Alex sighed. "I am so proud of you Paige." Alex sat back for a few minutes before she finally got up and walked over to Paige. "I love Jay, as much as we fuss and fight, we are made for each other. Paige I am going to always love you I just-"
"I know Alex; I know you don't even have to explain." Paige said as she wrapped her arms around Alex, taking in her scent one last time. "I will miss this, us being together and all."
"Thank you, for being so amazing." Alex said as she pulled Paige into a kiss. It was crazy just how much emotion and power went into that kiss. It was the goodbye kiss. The kiss marked the end to a chapter, to a series. The kiss had love and conviction. Alex always knew that she had Paige to turn to but deep down she knew that no matter what, her heart belonged to Jay. She could only hope that it wasn't too late to make things right between them.
Jay rubbed his eyes as he watched the hustle carrying on outside the emergency room exit of the hospital. He closed his eyes and listened to the approaching ambulances and for once, didn't know what his next move would be. He needed Alex more than anything and he wanted to make things right. He needed to work things out with Amy too, but he hated her so much. He hated her for the way she treated his daughter, and how she messed up his life. He also knew that he didn't need a test, that little girl looked so much like Jay that she could have been his clone. He was so stressed and confused, none of his friends could even begin to understand.
"Jay?" Sean asked cautiously as he and Towerz walked outside of the hospital. If they didn't know any better they would have sworn that Jay was crying.
"Leave me alone ok, I came outside so I didn't have to be around you." Jay bellowed.
"Look man, I'm sorry for whatever it was that you and Alex fought about but this is a happy occasion, we have a new addition man. You and Alex will work it out, you always do." Towerz said as he walked towards his friend.
"Don't man." Jay threatened. "I don't need to talk about this, go back inside or whatever and I will be inside in a minute."
"Jay stop being so stubborn man, Alex wants to be with you not Paige." Sean said loudly. "She will be back, you will make up, and life will be good again. Now you are going to be an uncle again be happy for me man, for me."
"How can I be happy when everybody and their mother have children but Alex? Believe it or not that is what she really wants. I took that away from her; I know it was my fault somehow. Do you know why we fought? Because Amy's daughter is my daughter and that is the one thing that should have been Alex's, my child!" Jay said finally breaking down. "I love Alex. I want her to be with me forever, but because I was a stupid, insecure, asshole my entire life she won't."Sean and Towerz looked at each other in shock. Jay was not the emotional type at all, so this was a new territory for them. They knew him well enough to know that if they didn't handle this situation carefully they could mess things up even more with him.
"I'm sorry man, but if it's true and you have a daughter now you should be happy. I know Taryn and she needs a stable parent in her life. Amy is crazy, why do you think we let her stay over our house so much." Towerz said calmly.
"Jay," Sean said as he stood in front of his friend. "Look at me man. I am sorry but you and Alex have got to stop blaming yourselves for her miscarriage okay. There are a lot of reasons that they happen. When you are meant to have a child together you will. She may be upset about Amy now but can you blame her. Give her some time to come around." Jay looked up at Sean still not saying a word. At least Sean knew he was getting through to him. "Look, in the mean time you should try and work something out with Amy, it sounds like this girl needs you in her life and how can Alex fault you for that." Jay thought about what his friends said to him for a long time. He didn't respond and he didn't show any emotion. A few minutes later he turned and walked back into the hospital.
"I'm not saying I feel better, but I think you two might be right." Jay said as he turned to look at Towerz and Sean. They were just about to head to the elevator when Towerz suggest that they stop at the cafeteria.
"Are you kidding man Hospital food sucks," Sean laughed.
"Well we haven't eaten today, I know Liberty is starving." Towerz said as he headed towards the elevator.
"We should at least go out and get her some real food."Jay said as he stopped walking.
"Food is food," Towerz shrugged.
"No man we are not letting you do that to yourself, let's go." Sean laughed as they turned around to head towards the parking lot.
"Is that Marco over there?" Jay asked curiously as they passed the Emergency unit.
"I think it is." Sean said as Marco turned around and noticed them. "Oh no he's coming this way. Let's go," Sean said as he began to walk faster.
"Jay," Marco called out as he began to come closer to them. "Oh Jay, I'm so glad you're here."
"Marco," Jay said now getting worried. "What's going on? It's not Alex is it?" Jay asked anxiously.
"You didn't here?" Marco questioned.
"Hear what?" Jay said as he grabbed hold of Marco.
"It's Amy," Marco said sadly, as Jay breathed a sigh of relief.
"Oh I don't care about her," Jay said coldly, ready to walk away.
"Jay she- she died this afternoon." Marco said. "I'm in charge of her daughter's case. That's why I'm here."
"She died?" Sean said in shock as he looked up at Towerz. Jay didn't know what to think. Suddenly everything around him became black.
A/N: Well what did you think? I am so sorry to all of my Palex lovers. I know this could have went both ways but I really do love Jalex more. I think they need each other. Sappy I know. I had known since the beginning that I was going to kill Amy off, it is kind of sad but Jay is really going to be in for the time of his life now. I won't give anything away but that will be focused on more in the sequel. Thanks for the reviews. And my Palex lovers I hope you aren't to mad. They're relationship was complicated in my story and on the show, and I can only hope I did it justice. Only 3 more chapters left we still have to find out what's happening with Craig, and well … you'll see just make sure you review. I love you all more.