Hi everyone! So. Here is the next chapter. So close to the end! Only two more to go! I hope you guys enjoy reading this and thank you to all of you guys for the support you've been giving with this story. You guys have no idea how much I do appreciate it all and how much harder I work because of it! =)
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"I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness cause none of it was ever worth the risk, but you are the only exception."
Jayne had never sprinted so quickly in her entire life. It was as if she was running for her life. Then again, some could say she was.
She glanced down at the time on her phone and frowned, breathing shallowly as she kept up the fast pace she was at. She had no time to waste, and her adrenaline was pumping too fast for her to run at any slower of a pace. She ignored the confused stares she was receiving from people because at the moment none of that mattered.
No one else mattered to her but one person.
A relieved smile appeared across the dancer's lips as the arena where the four boys would be performing began to appear before her. She suddenly found herself running faster as she crossed the street, making it in enough time to make the crosswalk. She continued down the street and skidded to a stop as she approached the ticket booth.
Out of breath, Jayne merely held her ticket out, trying to compose herself. The man taking her ticket raised a brow at her, but let her pass as he gave her ticket stub back. She ran into the arena and glanced around, noticing the large crowd forming, the fans going wild with anticipation for their favorite band to appear. She eagerly glanced around, and noticed an empty hallway. She watched carefully as two large men stood on either side of the wall.
"Freight Train," she mumbled to herself as she recognized one of the guards. That meant that the guys were down the hall somewhere.
That meant Kendall was somewhere down in that hall.
Jayne frowned to herself. She knew that unless she had some sort of backstage pass she wasn't going to get past those two, even if she did know one of them. She stood behind a pillar, shielding herself from the two bodyguards. She thought deeply for a second as she bit her lip. She had come too close to fail now, and she had so much she needed to say. She glanced around before her eyes had widened, a smile appearing across her lips. She walked up to the small badge strewn on the ground and nodded.
Fate was on her side for once.
Six people sat in a room, four of them singing scales in order to prep their voices.
It was a big night for Big Time Rush, and the four couldn't be more excited about what was about to happen. They would be performing their first concert for their worldwide tour that they would be leaving for in the morning. Their blood was pumping and they couldn't be more ecstatic about the situation before them. They had been working hard and now it was all going to pay off for them.
"DOGS!" The four sighed as they exchanged knowing glances with each other. They put their attention on Gustavo as he clasped his hands together, looking at his four pupils from the top of his sunglasses. "This is going to be the concert that sets the pace for this tour. So-"
"Yeah, we know," James said as he rolled his eyes.
"Don't screw it up," Carlos finished, predicting what their producer would say. Kelly and Gustavo exchanged glances before the woman smiled softly.
"Actually…"
"What I was going to say was…" Gustavo coughed for a moment as he stiffened, confusing the four boys. "I was going to say…" He cleared his throat once more and rubbed his neck before his assistant elbowed him sharply in the arm making him wince.
"Good luck out there."
The four boys blinked before they grinned at each other and then at their producer. The man cleared his throat for the last time as he avoided their knowing gaze, feeling uncomfortable under their powerful stare.
"I knew you always liked us!" Kendall teased a Gustavo's brow twitched from agitation.
"YOU-"
The outburst had suddenly been interrupted by the door to the room swinging swiftly open. The six jumped as a figure stood in the doorway, panting and trying to catch their breath. Their eyes widened as everyone looked at Kendall, who blinked, shocked at the surprise guest standing before him.
"Ja-Jayne?" Said girl continued to pant as she looked up at the dirty blond.
"I…I'm sorry!" she snapped loudly, catching everyone off guard. "There! I said it, I'm sorry!"
Kendall's brain was moving at 1000 miles per hour. He was elated to see Jayne, but he was confused as to why she was there in the first place. He was also puzzled by what the girl meant by 'sorry'. Did that mean she was sorry that she was interrupting him before a concert? Or did she mean sorry because she was finally coming to terms with her feelings and she, in fact, didn't have feelings for him whatsoever? When that last question popped into Kendall's head, he began to panic.
He'd also question the fact she had somehow found a backstage pass later; there was always a time and place for certain things.
The other five watched the two teens with astonished expression, the sudden outburst still settling in with everyone. Gustavo blinked before he pointed to the girl. "Why-"
"No, no, no!" Kendall's best friends quickly exclaimed, making their producer tense up slightly; he was officially confounded.
Before Gustavo or Kelly could ask more questions, James, Logan, and Carlos began to escort the two out of the room, glancing back at Kendall and Jayne; they had barely noticed their presence.
Jayne had finally caught her breath, but at that point she wasn't sure what she was supposed to say anymore. She had been so sure of herself when she had been running her way to Big Time Rush's concert, but now that she was standing in front of Kendall, she wasn't sure what to do. Her confidence had disappeared in an instant, the moment her eyes fell upon the dirty blond.
As for Kendall, Jayne's appearance had definitely been unexpected. He wasn't sure what to make of her arrival. He was happy but he couldn't help but worry about what was going to happen. The young girl had a tendency to surprise him.
"I'm sorry!" Jayne choked out again, throwing Kendall off as he blinked. He opened his mouth to question the dancer but was quickly stopped.
"I'm sorry for being such a jerk to you! And I'm sorry that I pushed you away when you were just being honest! And I'm sorry that I didn't tell you how I felt when you said all of those nice things!"
Jayne was going too quickly for Kendall to keep up with. It was as if everything she was saying was on fast-forward and there was no pause button nor a slow-motion button for him to press. All he could do was watch and try to catch what the brunette was saying.
"I'm sorry that I'm just scared of being with you! And I'm even sorry that I let my dad's terrible, failed, disastrous marriage scare me too!" she snapped, finding her irritation growing, only that time it was aimed at herself. The singer was lost for words. He wasn't sure how to take all the new information he was hearing. He stared at the girl as she closed her eyes, a hurt expression coming over her.
"I wish that I could be more brave and confident in myself, like you are, but I'm not! I'm not that outgoing, so it's hard for me to say these kinds of things. Especially since I've honestly had no experience with boyfriends or anything like that," she explained as her energy level began to fall. She began to slowly catch her breath as Kendall stared at her with wide eyes. He hadn't been expecting the sudden visit, and he had definitely not expected the sudden outburst from the girl, but he found himself feeling relieved at the whole thing.
This was what he had been waiting for.
Jayne was surprised at herself. She hadn't meant to say all of that. She had practiced what she had wanted to say on her way to the arena, and it was all much more organized and solid, but for the first time she was being…spontaneous. She wasn't planning every little detail and she was just going with the flow, and it felt great.
She only had one person to thank for that.
"…I'd say I'm sorry that I like you…but no matter how much I pretend I am, I never could be." Kendall's eyes widened; was she saying what he thought she was saying?
"Even though it's so unlike me, I can't keep dancing around the facts anymore." Jayne could feel her cheeks burning up; she wasn't comfortable with the whole "confess your feelings" situation. She shook her head as Kendall allowed a small smile to appear on his lips.
"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" Jayne glared up at the dirty blond; she knew that he knew exactly what she was saying. As the two reached the climax to the conversation, a knock brought the momentum to a halt.
"Kendall?"
"Can't a guy ever catch a break!" Kendall groaned as Jayne cleared her throat and straightened out, taking a few steps back away from the dirty blond. The two watched as Kelly smiled sheepishly from behind the door.
"You've got to get on stage."
"I'll be right there," Kendall said as the assistant nodded.
Jayne sighed as she began to walk out of the room, her head was spinning and her heart was racing. She couldn't believe herself for the things she said. It was almost as if she had blacked out and had no control over herself.
"Wait!" Jayne stopped as she looked back at Kendall, who wore a hopeful expression on his face. "Stay for the concert?" He waited for Jayne's reply, but the girl only stood in silence before she walked out of the room without answering him. He sighed as he shook his head and groaned.
He had been SO close.
"Kendall?" Said boy sighed as he turned around and smiled at his friends, who filed into the room with a hesitant air around them. The dirty blond chuckled as he shook his head.
"Sorry about that."
"Don't be sorry," Logan said as James nodded.
"What happened?" Carlos asked curiously as Kendall stared at the three boys for a moment. He shook his head before he laughed.
"I think it's finally over."
The only child of the Kent family sighed as she leaned against a pillar. She hadn't been standing too far from the stage, though seating didn't really matter. There had been no sense of organization when it came to that. It was first come, first served.
"God…" Jayne felt her cheeks begin to burn as she covered her face and shook her head. I can't believe I said all of that! she snapped in her head. She would have continued on with her self-pitying and self-loathing had the crowd of girls around her not gone crazy with screams and clapping. She looked up and watched as the lights dimmed and the colored lights began to shine.
"You guys ready for this!" Jayne watched with a small smile as all of her past problems had dissipated. The only thing she could focus on were the four boys that rose on to the stage from underneath it. She chuckled as she watched James wink at a few girls in the crowd, those same girls releasing shrill screams of joy.
The brunette watched for a long second as the four boys talked quietly amongst themselves for a moment. They smiled at each other before Kendall nodded, and they turned all of their attention to their audience.
"This song goes out to a special someone out there!" Kendall didn't need to say anything else after that. Jayne knew who that was. She also knew that hadn't been apart of the concert venue, and she figured Gustavo was probably throwing a fit backstage, but none of that really mattered to her.
The music started as the crowd hushed for a few seconds, letting the beat take over.
I bet you didn't notice
First time your heart was broken
You called me up and we talked till the morning
Jayne blinked, her eyes as wide as a deer's staring into headlights. She watched Kendall intently as his green eyes swept around the crowd, as if they were searching for someone in particular. Her gaze softened as a small smile appeared across her lips.
And the time that you were stranded
I was there before you landed
He was a no show, I made sure you got home
There couldn't have been anyway for Kendall to find her through the lights and the hundreds and hundreds of people standing in the arena, but Jayne couldn't shake the feeling when her blue eyes caught fire with his green ones. His large smile had sent chills down her spine, but she ignored it all. There was a time and place for freaking out.
I've been right there
For every minute
This time is no different
Whatever happens you should know
Jayne laughed and clapped as the four boys span to the right, perfectly in sync with each other's movements. She shook her head, acknowledging that their dancing had significantly grown better since she had last seen them.
Cause you're not alone girl
Look over your shoulder
You don't have to wonder
Cause you know, you know, you know
Jayne laughed more as she watched the four boys dance as if they had been from the 1920s vocal group. They always came straight back to their microphones.
You're not alone girl
I'll be there to hold you
I'll stay till it's over
And you know, you know, you know
That you're not alone
You're not alone
Jayne had gone to many Big Time Rush concerts, and she always had such fun at their concerts, but this concert wasn't just about the song or the notes. It was more than that. The dancer could almost see the emotion emitting from the leader of BTR; it was unmistakable. Every word he sang, every note that he sang, anyone could see how much heart he was putting into the song, then again, he was known to put his entire being into something when he was motivated enough.
I'll be here for you no matter what
Comes around the corner
Whoa oh, whoa oh, whoa oh, whoa oh
As long as I am breathing
You won't have to worry no more
Jayne couldn't tell if Kendall was trying to impress her, woe her, or telling her the truth through the lyrics, but whatever the case was, she wanted nothing more than to believe every word slipping gracefully from his perfectly curved lips.
I bet you didn't notice
First time your heart was broken
You called me up and we talked till the morning
The girls screamed wildly, some jumping up and down, and some holding homemade signs showing their love for their favorite band. Jayne merely stood, clapping and cheering as loudly as she could. She watched as the boys laughed and bowed a bit, waving to the crowd. Her eyes softened as she watched Kendall, his eyes never stopping.
Their gazes latched on to each other, and for a second it was as if no one else was in the arena. It was only the two of them and everything else had disappeared in an instant. Jayne had forgotten about her fears and her worries, and Kendall could finally breathe at last.
Jayne sighed as she shook her head and turned, walking to the exit. Kendall watched from the distance, though his vision was impaired by the bright lights and the adrenaline running through his veins. He watched as the brunette continued to walk away, and a wide smile appeared across his face.
At last, he had succeeded.