Crescent Moon and I went to the prom together, I looked fantastic and Crescent looked quite handsome. After the prom we went to a party together. I felt very uncomfortable being at the party. There were a lot of ponies doing drugs, drinking and having sex. Like in the living room in front of everyone. I don't mind drinking but all the other stuff should be done behind closed doors. I went to sit on the couch and a filly started giving a stallion head in front of me. It freaked me out BAD! I jumped up and asked Crescent to take me home. He poured me a shot and told me to calm down, that this was how the world really was. My stomach turned. This was not how I wanted to see the world. I liked it being all good and happy and not seeing this shit again! He took me home and apologized to me. My mom and Holly Pop stayed up and waited for me. My mom gave me a long lecture about safe sex. Stupid right? Why would you give your pony a sex lecture AFTER prom? And besides she was late on that. I had lost my virginity to Danny Boy. I regret that though. I loved Danny Boy and thought it was special. He didn't apparently. And Crescent Moon would not have sex with me even if his life had counted on it. He thought having sex with a filly was absolutely disgusting. And he couldn't see how mares and stallions had sex. Holly Pop knew Crescent was gay and knew nothing happened. Twilight said I should have brought Lady to prom. And I really wanted to! I would have put a pretty dress on her and held her while we danced.
A few days later the fucking unthinkable happened. I was washing dishes and Red Ryder was playing outside. He was playing with a broken broom stick. You know ponies always find a stick to play with. I was keeping an eye on him through the window. Zeb came into the kitchen.
"Yeah, you stupid piece of shit you better wash these dishes." I bit my lip so hard it bled a little. He went outside and then I heard screaming. I looked out the window to see Zeb beating Red Ryder. I was in shock, I couldn't move. Red Ryder ran inside crying, he held onto one of my legs.
"Please Flutters please! Don't let him hurt me!" I extended my wings blocking him. Zeb ran inside.
"Where the fuck is he! I was going to fix that fucking broom and he's playing with it!"
Zeb started at me. I turned around and grabbed a knife and held it at Zeb's throat.
"Don't you fucking touch him, or I WILL kill you!" Zeb stepped closer.
"Would you really?" I was so angry and hurt for Red Ryder. He was just a little pony, how could Zeb be cruel to him over a stupid fucking broom! I pressed the knife as hard as I could, without cutting him.
"I would gladly kill you if you touch him again. I will go to jail for the rest of my life happily knowing Red is ok and unharmed. While you are rotting in the ground!" He nodded and walked away. I set the knife down and held Red Ryder.
"I love you baby. He will never ever hurt you again. I promise. And if he does I will make him go away." I closed my eyes holding Red, I took peace from this moment knowing at lease Red would never be hurt again. I was starting to drift deep into my mind, not in a slumber, but in happiness. When I felt a mind numbing pain fly up my wing and down my back.
"Fuck!" I turned around to see Zeb smirking. He full-fledged kicked me in the back.
My mind snapped.
"Go downstairs Red!" Red flew downstairs. I jumped ontop of Zeb, knocking him onto his back, I pressed the knife hard to his neck cutting him slightly. Zeb's eyes widened, he began shaking, and I could see in his eyes the utter terror.
"I said if you ever touch him I WILL fucking destroy you. Now you are taking me to the hospital you piece of shit." He got up and wrapped a bandage around his neck, then wrapped a scarf around his neck. He called my mom, told her she needed to come home and watch Red, because I had crashed while flying and broken my wing. We went to the hospital and sure enough my left wing was broken. They wrapped it and put a cast on it. We came home and Zeb didn't tell mom or anypony what had happened. I called my dad and said I needed to move in with him. My mom cried and cried when we were packing my bags.
"Your dad finally won. You're moving in with him. He finally won." I didn't realize I was something to win between my parents. I moved to Ponyville where all my family lived.
I was so happy to be living with my dad, although I was so sad about leaving Lady behind. I hurt me deeply but I couldn't be around Zeb anymore. I was 17 years old. I started school. My final year. I was quite proud of myself. I busted my rump all my years in high school to graduate on time, so I could take care of animals. I was working hard in school. I kept an actual A B average. For the first time ever. Then one day I met him Hayseed Turnip Truck. Everypony just called him 'Hayseed' or 'Truck' I know he's not the best looking pony but I liked him a lot. We started dating and I felt pretty happy. I had a foal-friend who constantly hushed the voices in my head telling me I was ugly and stupid. He was there for me.
The only thing that stunk about living with dad was Bennie and Lemon Tart. Lemon Tart was always pointing out my flaws. Bennie and Crash made all A's, why don't you? Seriously they were in elementary school why wouldn't they make straight A's. I pretty much left mom's and moved into the same situation! Except without the physical abuse.
Lemon was just like Zeb. When my dad was out of ear-shot she would tell me how ugly, stupid and worthless I was. How Bennie and Crash were better than me. How I would never be her pony and she would never love me as her own. Also she never wanted me to live with them. It hurt deeply.
Maybe Lemon and Zeb were right. Maybe I was stupid, and ugly and...Worthless. My heart was breaking. I finally gave in I was a worthless pony. Why bother with anything. I'm not going to turn out to be anything special. I had Hayseed though. We had fun together. We went to Medieval Pony Fair's, movies, mini-golfing and we would just go for nice walks together. Plus we went to school together so I got to see him every day. Like I said earlier he wasn't the handsomest pony, and he wasn't the smartest but he was sweet. My dad didn't like Hayseed nor did anyone else in my family, but you know teenagers in love. I stopped focusing so hard in school and focused more on Hayseed. So obviously my grades slipped a lot! I had A's B's C's and F's. I didn't care about my grades I mean I was worthless right?
Lemon started telling my dad that I was sneaking out of the house at night to go see Hayseed. That I was doing drugs, and having sex. Which wasn't true, well I did have sex sometimes with Hayseed. I was safe though, we always used condoms. I didn't want to have a pony at a young age just like all the other fillies in my family.
I enjoyed being at Hayseed's house though. His parents and brothers were so nice to me. His parents were nicer to me than my parents generally were. My dad wasn't really there for me anymore. Whatever Lemon said my dad would back her up, even if I had proof I was telling the truth. It hurt too I felt like it was pointless for me to have moved in with my dad if everything was going to stay the same! I talked a lot to my Grandma Grey Mare about how I felt and how Lemon was to me. She and Papa Foal would try to talk to my dad about Lemon but he never herd what anypony was saying.
It was getting close to the Running of the Leaves festival and it was time for me to visit my mom. I took a train ride back to Manehattan to see her. Finally getting to Manehatten I was so excited to see my family and very excited to see Lady. Just a warning you forget when you're away from family, all the bad things and only remember the good. Don't forget the bad.
Arriving at my mom's I looked all over the house for Lady. I began to get worried because there wasn't a trace of her. I panicked a little and asked my mom where Lady was.
"Oh I forgot that I didn't tell you. Lady died."
"What? No. How?" My heart broke in two.
"She was running and hit her temple on the corner of the steps. She had a seizer, we took her to the vet and she died. She died a few months ago. We buried her in the back yard." I ran outside tears streaming down my face. There was a little spot with rocks surrounding it. With a small pink rock engraved with Lady. I sat in the mud crying. I cried so hard my stomach hurt. My body rocked with every sob.
Why? Why Lady? Why didn't my mom tell me Lady had died? Why wouldn't she tell me? I felt a hoof on my shoulder. I slowly turned praying it wasn't Zeb, to my relief it was Holly Pop.
"Hey. I'm so sorry mom didn't tell you about Lady. It was wrong of her not to tell you. I thought she did." I turned around and cried into my sister's shoulder like a pony.
I was so close to Lady. Like Celestia herself took a small piece of my soul and put it in Lady. She was y friend, my baby. Now she was gone, I would never see her again…