Five months passed of me living at Hayseed's house. And it was time for me to graduate! I was so happy and proud. I was the first pony to graduate in my ENTIRE family. I wore my robes and my cap. As they called my name I walked across the stage. The principle moved the tassel to the other side and gave me my diploma. A tear came to my eye. I had done it. After all the ponies constantly telling me I wasn't going to graduate, I wasn't smart enough or good enough…I did it. I walked down the stairs and met up with my family. Amazingly everypony came!

My mom took me aside.
"We did it Fluttershy. Me and Zeb were so hard and mean to you, so you would buckle down and graduate."
"No, I did this. I busted My ass, so I could graduate mom. So don't you dare try to take credit."

My dad asked if I wanted to celebrate with all the family with some pizza. Lemon butted in and said that they had other things to do so they couldn't. So I celebrated with everypony else in my family.

At the pizza restaurant Hayseed purposed to me! He wanted me to be his wife. He really loved me. I wrapped my wings around him and screamed yes!

That night I sat on the porch looking at the moon. I remembered everything in my life leading up to this moment. I was so proud of myself for graduating, for standing up to my mom, being engaged now, and just in myself in general. I was a good, smart, beautiful pony. I shivered a little at the thought. It's really hard to call myself good things. A voice in my head just starts screaming how stupid, ugly or worthless I am. I was able to shut that voice up for a while. I wasn't stupid, granted it's not rocket science to graduate high school, but fuck I was the first pony in my family to graduate! And now I was engaged to somepony who really loved me.

A month afterwards Zeb called me. They were taking Holly Pop to the E.R. she had tried to kill herself. She had taken a whole bottle of pills and was having seizers on the floor. My heart dropped into my stomach. My sister was going to die. P.P.S stepped in and took Red Ryder away from her and gave my mom full custody. I would of taken him but they were not about to give an 18 year old a pony. My heart hurt. I called my mom constantly for updates. Holly Pop was going to make it amazingly. She was a little messed up now from all the pills she took. The hospital wanted mom and Zeb to keep Holly Pop at their house but they refused. She ended up living in a halfway house. She had gotten so depressed because her piece of shit foal-friend was actually married! Yeah he had that apartment so he could have affairs. Fucking pig! She was so hurt, she thought he truly loved her. She didn't think of Red though… But luckily mom was going to pick Red up for the night and found Holly Pop. I hurt for my sister. I wished I could be there to comfort her and make her feel better.

We lost touch for a while. She didn't want to talk to anypony and just wanted to be alone.

Soon Hayseed talked to me about joining the Crystal Empire Guard. He would have to train for 3 months and we weren't married yet so I couldn't go. I would have to stay in Ponyville until he came back.

When Hayseed left I was so depressed. So I discussed it with Hayseed in letters, and discussed it with his parents. I went out and bought another dog! She is a papillon, her name is Cocoa. She was so stunning. She was 4 months old while Angel was 7 months old. Close in age and they would be the best of siblings. I was really happy. Hayseed'd brother, Wheatseed, and I became really close when Hayseed was gone. We would go to the mall, go to the movies, or just sit and talk. He became my best friend. One night I kept having nightmares. Nightmares about Zeb hitting me. Apparently I kept screaming in my sleep. Wheatseed ran into my room and woke me up.
"Flutters Flutters wake up!" I woke up shaking and crying. He held me for a little while. We went into his room and slept. Not together. He slept on his couch and I slept in his bed. I had my Angel and my Cocoa.

I started taking money out of mine and Hayseed's account and setting it in a different account just in case of emergencies. Hayseed pestered me in a few letters to tell him what the new account was but I didn't tell him. I didn't want him to buy something stupid with the emergency money. I was really good about paying bills and buying things we needed and THEN buying things we wanted; only if we had extra money. Hayseed, on the other hoof, was not! He would buy things he had been wanting then be upset that we couldn't pay for things we needed. Plus money kept disappearing out of our account. I wrote to Hayseed but he said he had taken some money out here and there for food and things like that. And the bank was no help they wouldn't tell me what purchases Hayseed was making on his card.

I got a promotion at work! I was a dog caretaker, then a Bather, now I was a Groomer's Assistant! I got a 2 dollar raise. So instead of 8 dollars an hour I now made 10 dollars an hour! I had the bank spilt my checks. Half in the emergency account and the other half in mine and Hayseed's joint account. I excitedly wrote to Hayseed about my raise. I was quite proud of myself.

The next 2 months passed by fairly quickly. With me pulling 10-13 hour shifts Monday-Friday time just flew by. Hayseed graduated the Crystal Empire Guard School and took a train down to see us. We got married in the courthouse. I know it's not the wedding every filly dreams of but at least we were married.
Soon moving ponies showed up at the house and started packing all of our things. I was so excited we were going to have a house of our own! Hayseed left soon after that back to the Crystal Empire. And I didn't hear from him at all.

I called his phone over and over. I called his friends to try to get ahold of him. His friends all said they had no idea where he was. Except one friend, Tex, he always told me where he was.
"He's out fishin'." "He out a guardin' the emire." "He campin'." He was a country stallion. We soon became pretty good friends. I hadn't heard from Hayseed in 2 months and I talked to Tex almost every day. Then one day Hayseed called me out of nowhere saying he was able for me to move out to the Crystal Empire now.
"Why are you calling me now?"
"What do you mean?"
"I haven't heard from you in almost 3 months Hayseed."
"I was busy."
"Doing what? Fishing! Camping! Eating! To buy with shit to call your WIFE!"
"I was stupid and didn't think but now I can afford for both of us to live out here."
"Honestly Hayseed, I think you've been cheating on me. Have you? And be honest. I will be upset but not that upset if you're just honest."
"No, I would never ever cheat on you. I love you." I needed to hear that so bad. I got on my email because Hayseed said he was sending me something.
When I opened my email there was something there that read.
If this was happening to me I would want to know. My heart started pounding, I was still on the phone with Hayseed. I opened up the email and it was Hayseed with another mare. There were pictures of him kissing her, pictures of her sitting in his lap, laying down on my bed, her wearing my clothes, and some pictures of them….. "together". I started to cry, harder than I ever cried before.
"What's wrong baby." Hayseed asked me.
"Fuck you! I just fucking asked you if were cheating on me! And you lied!"
"I wasn't lying I never cheated on you."
"Fuck you, you disgusting pig! I have pictures of you and that bitch together!" Hayseed hung up on me. I called him back over and over, but he wouldn't answer. Here I was living at his fucking parents' house, being faithful missing him while he's out there FUCKING ANOTHER MARE!?
I couldn't think. I couldn't be at his parents' house anymore. I called one of my friends and asked if I could stay with her for a while. I grabbed Angel and Cocoa and left. I wrote Hayseed's parents a quick note saying what had happened. I was at my friends crying over and over. I was humiliated. My husband was cheating on me, and we hadn't even been married for 6 months yet! My heart shattered into millions of pieces. Angel kept kissing me and telling me that he loved me. That he would always be here for me.
Tex called me and told me he was sorry for not telling me that Hayseed was cheating on me. He didn't want to be the one that broke my heart. He loved me and didn't want to hurt me.
Now I was pissed at Hayseed for being a disgusting pig headed pony asshole, and at Tex for not telling me. I cried for hours. I truly loved Hayseed, how could he hurt me so badly?
Finally Hayseed called me, panicking. His parents told him I left. He took it as I went missing.
"Are you ok? Why did you leave my dad's house? Why didn't you say anything?"
"Why do you care?"
"I love you, you're my wife."
"Fuck off! You don't love me. If you really loved me you wouldn't be off fucking other mares!"
"I do love you! I just wasn't sure if I wasn't sure if I wanted to be married yet."
"Well I'm glad you decided that AFTER WE WERE MARRIED!"
"I'm sorry. I can't say how shitty I feel. I'm truly sorry. I love you." I hung up. Hearing him say he loved me made me sick to my stomach. He hurt me. I went to the courthouse for divorce papers. If you've been married for under 6 months you can get your marriage annulled. It's like your marriage never happened. I signed every page I needed to, I didn't want to be with him anymore. I called Hayseed and told him he needed to sign the papers too. He started crying, screaming please don't leave me. I didn't care that he was crying, I wanted him to hurt.

A few days later I was looking at Cocoa and Angel. They were laying together in the sunshine, cleaning each other's faces, full of love for one another. I cried a little more. I wanted Hayseed to love me and be faithful. I sat on the floor that night watching the moon. Hayseed and I had sat together so many times before just watching the moon.
Maybe we could try to be together. Maybe we could get over this. Maybe we would be ok?