I moved out to the Crystal Empire to try to work it out with Hayseed.
The more I tried being ok with him, the more I resented him. He had cheated on me.
He was so stupid! All the shit he had bought her was still in the house! He didn't bother to get rid of any of it! Clothes, lingerie, jewelry, sex toys were all over my house! I walked around the house throwing everything of hers away Hayseed kept acting like the affair didn't happen.
"I bought that for you honey." He kept saying. Right the lingerie with cum stains all over it is clearly brand new, and for me. I was so angry. My heart broke a little more.
Why would you keep all the things you bought your "other woman"? I washed my hooves over and over I felt sick over touching her things.

I laid down on the couch, I wanted to cry but I wasn't going to allow that. Hayseed sat beside me. He started rubbing my shoulders and wings, it was nice, I needed to distress. I started to relax and pretend I was somewhere else. I started pretending I was a princess and being rubbed by royal servants. I was in a castle where everypony respected me and loved me. I started to drift into my imagination when I felt Hayseed kissing my neck. I jumped a little and pushed him away.
"What the hell Fluttershy, we hadn't fucked since you got here a few months ago."
"And were not going to. I don't trust you yet."
"Somepony told me once that trust is like a piece of paper. Once you ball it up, it can't be fully straight again." I stared at him with a blank look on my face. WTF was he talking about. I didn't trust him yet. I didn't want sex, how could I get all hot and bothered for you when you when you cheated on me? Plus one of Hayseed's friends came over and told us that Hayseed's ex-filly-friend could be pregnant. I didn't care. I was stupid to come out here.
Tex moved in the house with us, we couldn't afford rent on our own. Hayseed wouldn't allow me to get a job, in fact I wasn't allowed to go to the store without him, leave the house without him or Tex. I didn't care anymore my life was pointless.

One weekend Hayseed said him and some of the guards had a training exercises they had to do, so he would be gone for the next week. I believed him. The guards had to do lots of training exercises just in case of a Changling invasions or Discord doing something...again.

He left and it was me and Tex. We talked about our lives, I told him about all my brothers and sisters, how I felt about mine and Hayseed's situation. I still loved Hayseed but I didn't trust him at all. I felt like he was still cheating on me. I felt stupid for thinking I could trust him. I wanted it to be like it used to be. I wanted the love, the kisses the romance. I hated that all he did now was bug me for sex. There was no romance, no passion, no love. He would come home and tell me to suck his dick. EW! He just got home from work. He would get all sweaty and smelly from wearing that armor all day. Nasty right?

Sorry I got off subject. I would get stressed out and frustrated because Hayseed was always fucking up our house. It was always filthy. I was constantly cleaning. I had no time for myself. When Hayseed wasn't home I was cleaning, when he was home he was bugging me for sex. Tex was so sympathetic. He jumped and started helping me clean. When he got up he knocked over the coffee table. He bit his lip and quickly covered something up on the bottom of the table.
"What is it?"
"You ain't gonna want ta' see it." I laughed a little. What's the worst that could be on the bottom of a coffee table? Gum? Boogers? I pushed his massive hooves away. Only to find out that he was right. Hayseed had carved his and his ex-filly-friends initials on the bottom of our coffee table. With the date they had started dating. I bit my lip and walked to the bathroom. I turned on the shower, got in and just started crying.

My grandpa had hoofcarved that coffee table for us. And Hayseed ruined it by carving his and her initials into my beautiful coffee table. I had been in the shower for maybe 20mins when I herd the bathroom door open.
"Tallright if I come in?" He asked peering around the door.
"Got to pee?"
"No. Just gonna' talk to a fri'n who's upset. I'm sorry yer husband's a dummy."
"For carving him and her shit on my coffee table?" I said it jokingly to try to make myself feel better.
"For not seein' just how damn good ya are. Yer so beautiful. You do ev'ry thin' around the house not askin' for nothin'. You just got so much love in ya. Ya are the best damn wife, anypony could ask fer."

I opened the shower curtain and grabbed him. I pulled him into the shower with me. He picked me up and held me against the wall. He kissed me all over. Telling me how beautiful and how much he wanted me to be his. Gently he held my wings against the wall pinning me slightly, I liked it. I needed this. I needed to be told I was beautiful and not sexy. I needed the passion. I needed to feel truly wanted. I liked how I felt, feeling wanted, feeling beautiful, feeling like somepony actually gave a damn about me. I loved how he was kissing me. He kissed me like I was a porcelain doll. It was full of passion and love. I could taste it. My heat started to ache I hadn't had sex in almost 5 months. I felt his huge member graze my inner thigh a few times. He didn't ask for me to touch it or anything. He just kept kissing me and touching me. It was all about me. He was turning me on for me. It sounds stupid. He didn't care that he was horny. He only cared about making me feel good. He lifted me up on his shoulders and started licking my heat. It hurt it felt so good. I screamed a little once his tongue found its way inside me. His muzzle gently rubbed against my clit, his tongue darted in and out of me. My body was shaking. I looked down to see him touching himself…hard. I wanted to touch it so badly but there was no way I could reach it. I felt an orgasm coming soon but I didn't want to cum, well not yet.
"Please….please have sex with me." He stopped and looked up.
"Are ya' sure?" I bit my lip. Yes I was. I needed to feel somepony inside me making me feel good. But then again no. No I didn't. I didn't want to stoop to Hayseed's level. I didn't want to just go around and fuck somepony I wasn't married to. Then again I was in the shower with somepony who wasn't my husband. And a small, shameful, part of me did want to hurt Hayseed in the same way he hurt me.
"I…don't know."
"I'll only do it if yer ready. I'll stop right now and we'll never talk about it if ya want me to." I looked down at the handsome stallion before me. The past few months of me being home Hayseed only said.

You're so sexy. Oh my Celestia I wanna fuck you so bad Fluttershy. Wanna suck my dick? Can I lick your pussy? You're so hot. I love you baby, I love you so much I wanna fuck you softly. If you loved me you'd have sex with me.

Shit like that. I wanted to hear I was beautiful and loved. I looked into Tex's eyes and I could see that love. That love I used to see in Hayseed's eyes. I didn't know if Hayseed loved me anymore. I wasn't sure if I loved Haseed anymore. I swallowed the lump in my throat, looked into Tex's eye and said.
"Yes."