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BPoV:

I slowly woke from my fitful sleep. There was silence in the car so I knew Charlie was still asleep. I made no move and kept my breathing slow, pretending I was sleeping. I needed to think.

What in the hell happened? In the last twenty four hours my life has turned to shit. Yesterday everything was perfect, I had a happy life. Well, I thought my life was perfect, apparently life did not agree.

My husband lied to me, since the day I met him. How can I ever trust a word that comes out of his mouth now? How can I forgive him? Can I even forgive him? What else did he lie about?

Why hasn't he told me about Dean and Sam? Was he scared I won't want him if I knew he had children already? I wouldn't have cared.

Or was he afraid of a different thing all together?

Was he ashamed of me and Charlie? God I hope not, that was one scenario I couldn't handle. But what if?

I have to prepare for everything.

I lost everyone I loved when I was eighteen, all because I selfishly thougt my self in love with a vampire. Is history repeating it self? Will I lose everyone now encluding my own life and child because I love John? That thought terrified me. Was I cursed? Was I destined to be fucked over by love? Just when I think I can not be happier I have the rug pulled under me.

Suddenly there was a loud gasp I startled, hopefully it looked like I just woke up with Sams gasp.

» Nightmares again?« Dean asked.

I was curious was it really a nightmare or was it another vision? Does John have a second wife hidden somewhere. At this rate I honestly wouldn't be suprised.

I shook it off, I souldn't be mean. At least until he explains his stupid reasons why he did what he did.

» Same as always?« Sam nodded.

So Sam had nightmares alot, hm. How did he know which are visions and what are just dreams?

» Yeah.« Sam cleared his throath. Neither noticed I was awake so I closed my eyes again. I wasn't trying to eavesdrop or be mean, I just wasn't ready to face reality. " We should call dad. Tell him about..." he trailed off.

" I was thinking the same thing, he has a right to know. Though we had a right to know he remarried too and look what happend." Deans gruff voice answered.

" Dean!"

" Yeah, yeah." I heard russelling of clothes, he was getting his phone out. " Dad, hey it's Dean. Um, Sam and I we're in Oklahoma we, uh... Look dad we saved Bella and Charlie. Sam thinks it was a demon. Just so you know they're safe, we're taking them to Bobbys." He hung up. " Voice mail."

He didn't even pick up the phone? He'll call back soon, right? Even if I don't mean anything to him he stil loves Charlie, I know that.

I streched my back and neck. OW! People weren't meant to sleep in cars. I'm in pain, my back and neck feel like they're on fire.

" Morning, guys." I said, keeping up the pretences I just woke. They didn't notice.

" Morning, Bella."

" Hey." Dean was so tired he could hardly speak.

" Have you been driving the whole night?" I asked him.

" Yeah. We'll stop as soon as the little one' s awake, then Sam'll take over. That way we can keep moving."

" So, this is what you guys do on a daily bases? Save people I mean?" I just had to ask.

" More or less, yeah" Sam was the one to answer verbaly, Dean just nodded.

" How exactly does that work, do you have visions, do people call you for help?"

" Nah, I don't have the visions all the time. This was just the second time it happend. We read newspapers and search for things that seem strange or unexplanible, then we head to that direction."

"John does this to, doesen't he. He is not a salesman."

Dean snorted. " No."

I knew this, but hearing it made it more real.

" Dads been hunting since mom died." The longer explanation came from Sam.

" How did that work? You were just children? Did he leave you with someone he trusted?" he did not leave them alone I'm sure. If he did I hope he's alive so I can kill him with my bare hands. He wouldn't leave them when he knew the things that walk around at night.

" We traveled with him, sometimes we stayed with Bobby. He's like our uncle, that's where we're going now. He's also a hunter."

" But when he went after the evil things, where were you? Did he take you with him, so you saw all of that when you were just kids?" I needed to know.

" We stayed at the motel room with exact orders we had to follow, when he was on a hunt if that's what you mean." Sam wasn't happy about that, but I was pissed.

" But you were just kids! I can't even imagine all the things that could go wrong, especially now when I know monsters are real. You can't leave children alone."

" It wasn't that bad for me. Dean took care of me, there just wasn't enyone there to take care of him. Hell, Dean took care of everything back then, even dad."

I was fuming but let the subject drop. This is just another thing for me to be angry at John for. How could he do that to his children, I understood the want for revenge but there were other options,I'm sure.

I took a deep calming breath. " You traveled then, you must have seen the whole country by now?"

" More or less." Dean laughed. " Mostly we saw motel rooms." How can he laugh at that.

" What about school? If you moved around so much it had to be hard to study at school and make friends."

" We transferred shools alot. I dropped out of high school, not that I'm proud." Dean said hastily. "I'm just more street smart than school smart. And I wanted to hunt with dad." He was a bit sheepish, I don't know why. Alot of people drop out of highschool and some without good reason too. Dean had nothing to be ashamed about.

" You don't need to be embarrassed for dropping out of school Dean.« they both looked shocked when I said that. » What?« I asked, then shrugged. » People go to college either to study what they want to do later in life or to figure out what they want to do. If you knew what you wanted to do with your life at seventeen, then thats great. I haven't had a single clue to what I wanted until I was twenty.«

Dean smiled at me in the rear view mirror. » Thanks.« he cleared his throat. » Sammy here though, he got a full ride to Stanford. He's the brains of the familiy.« He reached over and messed up Sams hair.

» Stanford, huh. Wow and a scholarship too, that sure is something. What were you studying?«

» Ah, pre law.« this was obviously a sesitive subject for both of them I was about to apologise for prying. Charlie waking up saved us from awkwardness.

» Mommy?«

» Hey there little man. Are you hungry? Did you have a nice sleep?« I gave his head a kiss.

" Chawlie hunwy, go pee pee.«

Deans head shot back at Charlie. » He's not gonna pee my car, is he?«

» Relax, he has a diaper on, we're still working on potty training. If it'll make you feel beter I'll keep a diaper on him today, so we won't have to stop every five minutes when he thinks he has to go.« I soothed.

This car must really mean a whole lot to Dean, he's unbelievably protective of it, I noticed that with the car seat problem. This just confirmed it.

" Just stop at the next gas station or something." I laughed. I don't get men, it's just a car.

" Where are we going anyway?"

Laughter. " I wondered how long it would take you to ask." Yes, hilarious Dean. Ha, ha.

Sam was more collected. " As we said, we're going to Bobbys, he lives in Sioux Falls, South Dakota."

Oh god, thats six to seven more hours of driving. My poor Charlie's gonna have a fit, he's too small to be still for that long. This is going to suck big time! Maybe I'm wrong, maybe it won't be that bad.

Ah, who am I kidding, it'll be a pain in our asses, I'm sure.

Dean pulled in to a gas station that had a small playground with picnick tables – thank you god for small miracles.