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Note: Pople have been asking me why I didn't give Bella a tattoo or an amulet. If you remember back in seson1 Azazel possesed John and in seson2 a demon possesed Sam, they didn't know about tattoos until later. :)

JPoV:

»This is bullshit!« Dean exclaimed. He was holding a crying Sam to him. »Don't we have angels? They put this in to her head! They're responsible for this!«

Even in my sea of pain I saw a a sliver of hope.

Sams head snapped up. »Michael! Castiel!« He yelled.

Immediately the sound of wings filled the room.

Michael smiled sadly when he saw Bella lying in my arms covered in blood.

»She fulfiled her destiny.« He said.

»But there must be something you can do. Please?« Sam asked the angel.

The archangel nodded. »I can. You deserve it.« He moved toward Bella and me.

My initial reaction was to hide Bella from him, I didn't want him touching her. As Michael pressed a hand on Bellas chest there was a blinding light. At first nothing happened then Bellas back arched and she took in a deep breath.

»I love you too, dad.« She said. That made no sense what so ever, but she was alive.

Sam and I were crying in reliefe, even Dean let out a sob of happines.

Bella opened her eyes and saw me. »My John.« She sighed.

Charlie heard her now he ripped himself from Bobby and ran over to us. »Mommy!« He screamed just before he landed on her tummy crying in her shirt.

»I can't feel anything.« Bella said and looked at Michael.

I froze. Will the horror ever stop.

Michael smiled. »It will pass. You were gone for a while.«

Oh, thank you God.

Bellas eyes turned on Sam that was still holding on to Dean for dear life. I could see on his face he blamed himself for all of this. It wasn't his fault.

»Sam.« she said. He didn't even look at her.

»I'm sorry.« he said quietly.

Bella smiled. »Sweetie, I think I should be the one saying that.«

Sam was so taken aback he looked at her.

»Come here.« Bella beckoned him. Just then Bellas hand twiched a little.

She was getting her feelings back and Charlie was finaly geting his hair petted by his mom. He loves that, getting his hair touched. I remember when that was the only way to make him fall asleep.

Sams inner dilemma was over, he moved to Bellas other side and took her hand.

Bella let out a sigh of contentment when Dean moved to sit down with Sam by her side. We were all together. One pile of Winchester.

I sat there on the floor of Bobbys living room with Bella lying in my arms, Charlie fell asleep on top of her and Sam and Dean sitting by her side for more then ten minutes.

»Someone should order something to eat, I'm starving.« Bella stated.

Then she tried to get up, but couldn't because of Charlie.

Dean snickered. »Poor kid. He's exausted.«

Sam nodded. »With everything he saw today, it's no wonder.«

»Yeah well you know what they say.« Bella said when Dean lifted Charlie off her.

We all looked at her. »What?«

»What doesn't kill you….« Bella let it hang in the air.

»Makes you stronger.« I concluded.

Bella shruged. »Or fucks you up mentally.« She stood. »We are so gonna need therapy.«

Dean snorted a laugh.

»I'm going to take a shower.« I panicked. I'm not ready to let her out of my sight. »John, it's just a shower. I feel disgusting.« She leaned to me and whispered. »And I so need to geto ut of these clothes.«

I nodded and put a hand to the small of her back and started to lead her to the bathroom.

»Boys, order us some food and watch your brother for a second. Bobby do you need a doctor?« I ask over my shoulder.

»I shall heal him. I will wait for you then we will talk.« Michael said.

Okey, then.

I sat on the bathroom floor while Bella showered.

I couldn't stay outside for fear of losing her and I couldn't join her in the shower because we had an angel in the house. An archangel at that.

I heard a sob tear itself from her chest, then another.

That took longer than I thought it would.

Frankly I was waiting for her to fall apart. So I did what every husband with a wife in pain would do. I crawled in the shower with her. I didn't even take my clothes of, I just opened the shower and gathered her in my arms. She cried her heart out, sobing and asking for forgivenes.

»Shhh…« I soothed, runing my hand down her hair. »It wasn't your fault baby.«

»I couldn't control it.« She sobed. »He was to strong. I let him hurt Sam.«

»No, Belle.« I rocked her like a baby.

It took me almost fourty minutes to calm her down but we are finaly dry and in the living room eating pizza.

After the very late dinner we each had a beer in hand and Charlie was back asleep when Michael spoke.

»Heaven will be forever grateful for your sacrifice. The humans will not know what you did for them, but we will.«

»What about Lilith?« I asked.

»As of this morning Lilith is no more.« Michael replied.

Sam and Dean clinked their beer bottles together.

»She was not expecting it. It was over before she knew it.« Michael said. »I assume that is why Azazel possesed you and tried to murder your family.«

"So, it's over?« Bella asked in hope.

»The apocalypse is averted.« Michael nodded.

Bella closed her eyes a hand pressed to her heart.

»We're free?« Sam asked.

Michael nodded. There was nothing but silence.

It was a bit overwhelming. What are we going to do now? What will I do? What will be my purpose in life?

But then I shook it off.

I was free! Free of the monster that almost took my will to live twenty years ago. Free from hiding my wife. Free from secrets. I was free to live.

I looked around the room. There was my wife, a man I loved as a brother and my three sons. I realized I am happy.

I finaly had everything I have ever wanted. I had my revenge and my family is together.

A hysterical laughter cut over the room, Bellas cheeks were wet with tears she was laughing so hard.

»Well, she's cracked.« Dean commented.

That was it we all fell apart laughing a confused angel siting quietly among us.

When Bella and I finaly reached the bedroom the crib with Charlie was gone – thank you Dean.

I kissed her sweet lips as soon as I kicked the door closed. I walked her backwards to the bed and laid her down.

For a second or two I just stood there drinking in her beauty.

As I covered my body with mine the thought that I almost lost her today struck. I kissed her again, my tongue instantly entering her mouth. Hands sliped down striping her shirt and finding her breasts constricted in a black lace bra.

I loved her underwear usually, right now it was an nuisance. I needed to feel her skin on mine.

The way electricty passed between us when I finaly relesed us from our clothes – it was maddening.

»John.« Bella sighed. I loved when she said my name like that.

I always gave in to her when she used that tone with me, it was like mind control. But not today.

Today we both needed to connect to eachother.

Slowly we re-explored our bodies.

I couldn't keep my hands off her. Her breasts, her long leg, her silky tighs.

I took her breast to my moth slowly circled her nipple with my tounge and reped the proces on the other breast, don't want it to feel left out. I kissed down to her tummy, swirled my tongue in her belly button and made her giggle softly.

Finaly I was where I wanted to be, between her legs.

I pressed a kiss to her mound and moaned. She smelled amazing. I licked a trail up her slit at first a few times then I pushed my fingers in her and sucked in her clit.

She came immediately after I bit down gently.

When I buried myself in to her tight heat I felt at home.

»I love you.« I told her as I waited for her to adjust.

She kissed me so I took it as a sight to start moving.

»I love you too.« She moaned and wraped her legs around me. We moved slowly together.

Hell, I almost didn't care if I ever came or not as long as this doesn't stop. But Bella being Bella started to demand more.

»Harder, John. More!« So, I gave her what she wanted, like I always do.

She was tight and wet around me, when she ran her nails down my back and grabed my ass I had to bite my lip to stop myself from coming.

I circled my thumb around her clit. »Come with me, baby.«

She crashed her lips to mine and her wraped her fingers in my hair.

Her back arched as she relesed my lips and tightened on my dick. My name escaped her lips at the same time I moaned out.

»Belle.« I didn't want to move but I didn't want to crush my Belle. So I laid beside her and gathered her on my chest, running my hand down the lenght of her beautiful body.

We fell asleep peacefuly, we were finaly free.

Thank you for reading!

It was incredibly hard to write a lemon in a mans PoV. BLAH! Tell me how I did.