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They loaded Olivia into the ambulance after having to pry her and Elliot apart temporarily. The moment their hands separated, Olivia panicked.

"El?! Elliot?!"

"I'm right here, baby! I'm not going anywhere!"

"El, don't leave me!"

"I'm not, honey! I'm right here!"

Elliot tried to follow the EMTs and when one tried to push him back he nearly broke his arm.

"Don't you hear her? She's hysterical and I told her I'm not going anywhere. She will not leave my sight no more than she has to, so back off!"

The EMT moved and Elliot climbed in next to Olivia. He knew that they would report him for what he did and now that everyone knew how they felt about each other, they'd have to deal with that fallout. Hopefully, they would catch a break and their relationship wouldn't make it back to 1PP.

Olivia was put into the trauma bay. The nurses worked around Elliot. He didn't give them a choice. The nurses had pulled off into a corner, unsure of how to go about asking him to leave to do a pelvic exam to make sure that she was okay.

"You heard what he said to the EMT when he was trying to hold him off?"

"Yes, but we have a job to do. I think it would be best to let him ask her if she wants him to stay."

"Well, okay, Andrea, you go handle him."

"Such the chicken, Laura."

Laura stuck her tongue out at Andrea who made her way over to Elliot.

"Excuse me, sir, could I speak with you a moment?"

Elliot looked at Olivia and kissed her hand.

"I'm going to step over here with the nurse. I'll be in your sight at all times, I promise."

"Okay."

Elliot stepped over to where Olivia couldn't hear them, but she could still see him.

"What's up?"

"We need to do a pelvic exam. It's procedure, but it may make her uncomfortable. I know how she panics if you're not there, and I wanted you to ask her whether or not she'd be comfortable with you in the room."

"I'll ask, but I can't guarantee anything."

"Thank you."

At that moment, they heard a crash and looked over to see Olivia flinging trays and ripping the IVs out of her arm. She kicked one nurse and swung to hit another. Elliot flew into the room and he recognized the look on her face. She was back in that room. She was fighting him.

"Let her go! Let her go! Liv, baby, it's me. It's El. Look at me baby. Come back to me."

He got her to focus on him and he saw her come out of it. She shrunk away slightly.

"Baby, are you here?"

"Y-y-yes, Elliot?"

"I'm right here baby."

"Don't leave me, please, don't leave me."

"I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere."

"Okay, I love you."

"I love you too baby. Liv, these nurses need to do a pelvic exam. Are you okay with me being here or do you-?"

"NO! Don't leave! No!"

"Hey, hey, shh, it's okay. I'll stay if that's what you want."

"Please don't leave me."

Olivia started to sob again. Elliot held her gently, stroking her hair softly.

"I'm not going anywhere," he said to her and Andrea.

Andrea nodded and gathered the supplies needed to do the exam. Laura looked at Andrea spitefully and Andrea just smiled at her and went back to her job.

Once the exam was done, with Olivia having only panicked once, they left her and Elliot alone to talk. He sat in the chair next to her bed and held her hand. He looked up as there was a knock at the door. Olivia jumped and clenched his arm. Elliot saw that it was Fin and Munch.

"Baby, it's okay. It's just Munch and Fin."

She loosened her grip and nodded. He waved them in. Fin came in carrying a small bear and Munch brought balloons. Olivia smiled for their benefit, but they all saw that it didn't go to her eyes.

"Hey baby girl, how're you feeling?"

Olivia looked at Fin.

"Uhh, I'm not sure how to feel."

"I hear you. I'm so sorry that this happened."

"Don't you guys go blaming yourselves. It's not your faults."

"Well, it isn't yours either," Munch said.

"Nor yours Elliot," Fin chimed in.

Elliot nodded, but they all knew that he was going to beat himself up regardless of what they said just like they would continue to blame themselves no matter what Olivia said.

"Liv, we, um, we have to take your statement," Munch said softly.

"I know. Can El stay?"

"Of course, baby girl," Fin said.

"Are you up for this?" Elliot asked.

"I'll never be up for it, but it has to be done. I know that."

"Okay, let's get started. The sooner we do, the sooner it's over," Munch said.

Olivia went over everything that happened between the last time they saw her and when they walked in and shot Carlson. After everything was gone over, Fin and Munch left so that Elliot could calm Olivia back down after having to relive everything again. He comforted her as best he could. Andrea walked in a short time later. Elliot looked over. Olivia sat up and looked over.

"Is something wrong?" Olivia asked.

"No, everything has turned out okay," Andrea said, "He was clean and you're going to be fine."

Olivia breathed a sigh of relief. Elliot smiled.

"Thanks Andrea."

"No problem. Uh, I have a card here from my counselor. She can help you with any PTSD you may have," Andrea said.

"Thank you," Olivia said as she took the card from Andrea.

Andrea nodded and left the room. Elliot looked at Olivia who was staring at the card.

"Everything okay, Liv?"

"Huh, yeah, yeah, I'm good."

"Tell that to someone who believes you. Come on, what's wrong?"

"I just want to forget this ever happened."

"I know, honey, we'll take this day by day. I promise I'll be with you every step of the way."

"I know, thanks, El. I love you."

"I love you too. Rest for now."

Elliot took the card and laid it on the bedside table and Olivia leaned back against the pillows. He held her hand as she slowly fell asleep.

She laid on the gurney, in excruciating pain. The nurses and doctors surround her. They keep telling her to push and to push hard. She screams out. She looks for Elliot. Where is he? He promised. She finally pushes again and the pain is over. She hears what sounds like a cat mewling as she looks down to see a disfigured child with Carlson face laughing at her. She screams and screams. The doctors try to hand her the child and she's smacking it away again and again. She hears Elliot calling to her.

"Liv, Liv, baby, wake up! It's okay! It's just a dream!"

She opens her eyes to see his cerulean blues staring back at her. He's got a mark just below his eye and his cheek is starting to bruise slightly. She takes a deep breath and throws her arms around him and begins to cry.

"It was horrible, El! I was…I was p-pregnant. It was ugly and d-disfigured and had C-Carlson's face and it was laughing at me! You weren't there after you promised!"

"Baby, it was a nightmare. I'm right here. I told you I'm not going anywhere."

He held her until she calmed down again and her breathing evened out to indicate that she had fallen asleep again. This time, he hoped she didn't dream.

The next morning Olivia was released from the hospital. Elliot drove her home.

Once in her apartment, Olivia ran to the shower. Elliot let her be, but after an hour he began to worry. He knocked on the door.

"Liv, baby, are you okay?"

"I'm fine! I'll be out in a minute!"

He stood there and gave her another five minutes before he knocked again.

"I told you I'll be out in a minute!"

"Liv, honey, what's wrong? Open the door for me, please."

"No!"

He turned the knob to find it locked. That's when his cop senses went off.

"Olivia, open this door or I'll open it for you!"

"No, leave me alone!"

He was taken aback. After being so clingy, she wanted him to leave? He knew then that something was wrong.

"I'm opening this door!"

"No! Leave me the hell alone!"

Elliot leaned his shoulder into the door and it popped open. The sight before him was Olivia in the shower. She was crouched down with her arms wrapped around her knees at the water running off her. Her skin was red from it being cold and she had begun to shiver.

"Damn it! I told you to leave me the fuck alone!"

"If that's what you want. I just wanted to make sure you didn't do anything stupid."

He turned to leave.

"Where are you going?! You promised you wouldn't leave me!"

"You just…never mind. Come on, let's get you warm."

He grabbed a towel and got her to stand up. He wrapped it around her and helped her out of the shower. He took her into her bedroom and got her a pair of sweats and his sweatshirt that she had taken. Once she was dressed, he laid her down on her bed and wrapped the comforter around her. He lay with her and she soon stopped shivering.

"Why'd you do that, Liv?"

"I don't know. I felt like…that he was still all over me. For a moment, I was back in that room and he was all over me. He was touching me and everything."

She covered her mouth and ran from the bed. She leaned over the toilet and vomited. Elliot walked into the room and held her hair back for her. When she was done, he ran a washcloth under cold water and handed it to her. She wiped her mouth and face.

"Are you okay?"

"I'll be fine."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm fine, El. Thanks."

She got up and brushed her teeth only to vomit again. They repeated their ritual only this time she was able to brush her teeth without vomiting.

"Do you feel better now?"

"I'm fine, just tired."

"Let's go lay down then."

They walked back into the bedroom again and she got into bed. He crawled in behind her and wrapped his arm around her gently. It wasn't long before she fell asleep. He watched her as she slept and wished that this hadn't happened to her. He couldn't help but feel responsible for everything that Carlson put her through. If he had brought justice to the man who raped Emma Carlson, Olivia wouldn't have been put through the hell. He just hoped that he was strong enough for the both of them to deal with the aftermath.

AN: Sorry it's taken so long. We're in the process of moving and I have no internet. I had to go to my cousin's house and upload this. I hope you like it! OMG! Tonight's episode was amazing and the season finale is going to be wow!