Sorry, this chapter isnt very good. If you dont like it, just review and tell me and I'll make it better. You might think it doesnt make sense because Kate is suppossed to read the letter before she kisses him, and this is part of him convincing her. If you think this, just tell me, and I'll change it to a flash back or something.

Enjoy and R&R

And stop forgetting chapters 7, 8, 10, 12, and 14:) 3

"Fuck," Kate muttered and took a step back.

"What the-" Jack stopped and also took a step back when he saw Sawyer.

"'Scuse me Doc, mind if I talk to Kate for a minute?" Sawyer stared icily at both of them.

"Sawyer," Kate tried but Jack interrupted her before she could get anything else out.

"Sure, Sawyer… go ahead" Jack quickly walked away, not looking back at the couple that were staring at him.

When they finally looked back at each other, Kate was the first to talk.

"I'm-"

"You kissed him?" Sawyer questioned angrily

"What?" Shock was evident in her voice. Out of everything he'd heard, why was that the first thing he brought up?

"Did you?" His eyes seemed angrier than his voice, if that was possible

"Yes...," Kate whispered and looked down, her tears starting to reappear. "Sawyer I'm sorry… it was a long time ago-"

"Damn it, Kate! We've only been here for what? Five weeks? If that's your idea of a long time then who the hell else have you fucked with?" Sawyer didn't care that his voice was becoming loud enough for the whole island to hear them.

"Sawyer! I swear, only him, and I kissed him once, he kissed me the other time. I don't care about him Sawyer! Not like I care about-" Kate stopped herself before this turned into a church worthy confession.

"Who, Kate? Who do you actually care about on this damn island? The rock god? Captain Arab? How about big mamma over there? Do you really care, Kate? Because if you did, we wouldn't have this problem…" Sawyer started out angry but now his voice had a twinge of hurt in it.

"Sawyer, I care about you! Okay… are you happy now? I kissed Jack because I was mad at you for using me, making me kiss you. But now I realize that I don't care. I don't care that you used me, I don't care about Jack, I don't care we're on an island. The only thing I care about is you…" Kate's tears were now streaming down her face and she had to keep her head down to hide them.

"Then why'd you have a heart to heart with Jack in your tent?" Sawyer's tone was softer now and he looked genuinely confused.

"Because I accidentally told him when we got caught in a net" Kate now looked up with a half grin.

"I saw you go into my tent and then come out… that's why I followed you to your tent… I… I'm sorry Kate. For everything you've done. I understand what you're-"

"Oh god, not you too" Kate looked down annoyed

"No, Kate… I…" He reached down to his jeans and pulled out a well worn piece of lined paper and handed it to Kate.

"What's this?"

"Read it" he said simply.

"'Dear Mr. Sawyer, You don't know who I am, but I know who you are and I know what you done. You had sex with my mother. And then you stole my dad's money all away. So he got angry, and he killed my mother. And then he killed himself too'" Kate stopped reading and looked at Sawyer but his face had changed completely. He looked angry, hurt, like an actual human being.

"Don't stop now, you're gettin' to the good part" he said, glaring at her.

Kate looked back down at the piece of paper and kept reading, "'All I know is your name, but one of these days I'm gonna find you and I'm gonna give you this letter so you remember what you done to me. You killed my parents Mr. Sawyer'" Kate looked up at him so confused and sad and hurt for him. "Sawyer, I'm so-"

"I thought I found him" Sawyer whispered.

"What?"

"I thought it was him, so I shot him…" He took his eyes off of hers for a moment while he remembered the awful rainy night. "He was innocent, never conned a man in 'is life. No idea who Sawyer was… But I shot him"

"Sawyer… you didn't have to-"

"Yes I did"