It made me think maybe human is not such a bad thing to be.
But I just laid there in protest, entirely fucked.
It's such a stubborn reminder one perfect night's not enough.

Constant headache – Joyce Manor

Both my heart and face had fallen when Derek dismissed what had happened between us on the full moon and simply walked away. I looked wistfully after him, hoping that he would turn around and apologise and claim that it was everything to him and hold me in his arms again. He just kept walking.

Scott looked at me for a different, more developed answer but I just shrugged my shoulders and sighed, repeating what Derek had said, defeated. Why did he say that? Did he even like me? Did he not care about my feelings in this?

Peter had a sorrowful expression on his face when we left, but I didn't know why, from what Scott had told me, he was cold hearted, sarcastic and cruel. Isaac was nowhere to be seen, Scott seemed to notice too and his shoulders slumped, realising that he must have been with Allison.

All the way back home, Scott kept looking at me, probably wanting to know what really happened between me and Derek last night but I didn't offer up any answer, I didn't want to talk about it, I just wanted to watch films all day and eat Ben and Jerry's ice cream, like we were supposed to be at Stiles' for last night. I suppose that Derek and I hadn't really been together so we couldn't have broken up but still, I cared for him deeply, and he dismissed what we were. It felt like I was going through a breakup.

I went straight to bed when we got back, I was so tired and my heart ached for something I didn't have, someone I never had or would never have. Boys were so frustrating, growing up, I only had my family, my father insisted that I could go out into the world and meet new people when I was older and had more experience, so I never even had a boyfriend growing up. No first kiss or awkward dates at the movies where they would hold your hand and you had to pretend it wasn't damp with sweat. I missed out on so much, and now my heart was set on Derek Hale.

o.O.o

Melissa didn't even try to wake me up; she just left a note on the side of my bed telling me that I would have to run to the store for dinner and a $20 next to it. I didn't think I would need that much - I was only planning on buying some ice cream. When I looked to my digital clock, I noticed that it was already 11:30, I had skipped breakfast and after all of the energy I spent last night, I was starving. I guess I did need all of that money.

Luckily, it was a nice day so I didn't have to suffer in any rain. In the sunshine, I could almost forget all of my problems, going back to school tomorrow, telling Melissa, hunters, Derek. So when I arrived at the store and saw the one man that I wanted to forget, my sense of calm shattered into a million of tiny pieces, impossible to be put back together.

I just went about my business, picking up at least five tubs of ice cream and two bottles of diet coke, god I was so healthy. I was so intent on picking my last flavour of ice cream that I almost didn't notice Derek behind me until he put his hand on my shoulder.

"Elysium? Why aren't you at school?" I jumped in fright, I did not want to talk, well use exaggerated gestures, to him – not here, not now. Instead of nodding or shaking my head or doing anything, I just stared at him, thinking of how stupid I had been. He couldn't like me! I mean, he was so good looking and I was the girl from the asylum, with no future and no family. I went back to staring at ice cream flavours.

"Elysium, look at me. I'm sorry about before and saying that it was nothing, it wasn't but I couldn't say anything in front of Scott! What could I have said in front of him?" Oh god, why did his words have to make me feel like that. I knew that I couldn't stay mad at him forever.

"Come on," I whispered into his ear, we paid for our things, he seemed to have bought things for a picnic and I for a teenage break – up.

o.O.o

"So I was planning on taking you for a picnic but I suppose this could work too," we were at my house, and I was curled up under his arm on the sofa, taking in his warmth. I had dragged him back here, to spend the day with me watching Studio Ghibli films, what better than to haunt his dreams with Anime? At the moment, we were watching Kiki's Delivery Service and he was so warm, and I was so tired, and the crook of his arm was so comfortable.

I woke up in my bed but I wasn't alone. Somebody else was in my bed. Not just anyone. Him. Derek. He was in my bed, sleeping, with his arm wrapped tightly around my waist. With me! My breath caught when I finally realised that he had chosen me, he wasn't lying when he said it had meant something. So he had fallen asleep with me, probably carried me upstairs. And slept with me instead of leaving. With me, Derek.

Unfortunately, my erratic heartbeat had woken him up. However, when he did, his face broke into a huge smile. Which led to my face smiling too. At him. At me. At us. At him in my bed. At his beautiful smile. At him choosing me.

"Good morning Elysium," Derek was still smiling as he said that, he was also still smiling as he leaned over and touched his lips to mine. As he kissed me, and I could feel my smile too as I kissed him back. And he was under my sheets, and my arms were in his black hair, scrunching it up as the kiss deepened.

"Elysium wake up!" Someone was calling my name but I wanted to keep kissing Derek, Scott didn't need me downstairs now did he? Surely he could wait. "Elysium, the film's finished!" Wait, me and Scott hadn't watched a film, oh, it wasn't Scott.

I jolted awake to see Derek standing over me, a playful smile on his face but not next to me, not in my bed. I blushed and covered my face in my hands, I had fallen asleep to the film, and we hadn't actually kissed! "You talk in your sleep," his smirk grew bigger while I looked at him expectantly, waiting for him to expand on the topic. "Oh, I'm not going to tell you," I stuck out my tongue at him and threw one of the many pillows at him. Derek caught it easily and chucked it back to me, I caught it too and giggled.

"So I was wondering if you wanted to err – picnic?" he looked unsure as he held up a woven picnic basket and a blanket, that's what he had bought from the store.

I lunged at him, throwing him off guard so he dropped the blanket but held fast to the basket. Again, he put his one available arm around me and encased me in his warmth. But this time it was a much quicker reaction and he seemed happy to do it. And for that I was glad.

Yey! Nice Derek!

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-Effie