You'll be lucky once, when the fall listen to send around.
When the sun comes, dry tears from my eyes.
So you come around as the weather starts to change,
and you settle in. And the best has yet been made.
Look out – James Vincent McMorrow
"So what happened to you after that?" Derek had a hand on my arm, comforting me - like I had done him when he told me his story. I definitely felt better after telling him, even though I didn't know him that well, I felt that he understood everything and that he would listen to whatever I said, and I to him. I was glad that we had this connection, something in common that pulled us together. Our past that made us who we were.
"It was all a blur, I guess the emissary found me somehow under the pile of leaves and fixed me up. I was unconscious for all of it so I still don't know who I was, when I finally did wake up, I was in the asylum. I have no idea why, I was glad he did though," it was a bold mover, hinting at my feelings for Derek but I had to know if he did like me, for sure. But Derek was just looking at me, a question across his perfect features.
DEREK P.O.V
In that moment, she was more beautiful than ever. Her heart was racing, faster and faster. So I did the only thing I could think to do to find out if my feelings were real. I kissed her. And it was perfect. Her mouth, a burst of flavour, gave me hope that things could be okay, that I wasn't as screwed up as I thought and that we could be together.
But Elysium didn't know what to do, I could tell. At eighteen, she was new to kissing. Was I her first kiss? I must have been. Was it okay? Was she enjoying it? I certainly was.
ELYSIUM P.O.V
We were one, united, together. I didn't know what to do, he was taking the lead. I had never even had a relationship, let alone kiss a guy that I wasn't in a relationship with. But I let his tongue in, and moved mine in sync with his, letting my emotions guide me through it.
The kiss seemed to last a lifetime and I somehow had my hands clenched in his hair but he pulled away - letting us breathe. So breathe I did, great gasping gulps of sweet forest air. But his mouth was better. We kissed again. And again. Over and over. Until he spoke. "Elysium…" I gazed up at Derek, his eyes full of confusion, mine filled with passion. Why was he confused? Did he regret kissing me? Oh god, he did.
"Elysium," he said my name again but I knew that I wouldn't let him banish the feelings that had grown for him. I shifted as quickly as I could, tearing my clothes in the process but I didn't care, I just needed to leave. I ran off into the trees, leaving him still dumbstruck on the picnic blanket.
How could I have been so stupid!? Why would someone like him, like me? He just wanted something to do! He wasn't actually interested in me! It wasn't until I came across his house that I stopped. He had a past just like mine – a troubled past just like mine. That was it. He just wanted someone who was like him and I was the nearest thing.
"Elysium!" Isaac came out of the door, having noticed my heartbeat going at least 90 miles per hour. As soon as my glowing red eyes landed on him, I took off again; I didn't want to talk to him. Or anyone for that matter. Why had I trusted anyone? I shouldn't even be here; I would rather have been with my family, with Ida.
Still running, I found my way back to the McCall house. After all, Melissa would be back from work soon and I needed to be there before she did. I scratched at the back door, waiting for Scott to open it – luckily it didn't take him long. But of course it wasn't Scott, it was Derek. Why was he here? Where was Scott?
I bared my teeth at him, hoping he would get the hint. He didn't. He just picked me up quickly before I could register it and put his hand over my jaws, restricting me from biting him. What was he doing? I growled at him low in my throat, letting him know I didn't like it. Derek just chuckled, a sound that made his chest vibrate underneath my fur.
He took me into my room, which was spotless, as it always was. I liked things tidy - it gave everyone the illusion that I wasn't a mess on the inside. He finally moved his hand away from my face but didn't let go of me. "What the hell were you thinking Elysium? I wasn't going to say anything bad! I actually enjoyed it. But from what I can see, you obviously don't feel the same way," he enjoyed it! My eyes lit up as much as they could do before I registered what else he had said. He didn't think I had enjoyed it. Not good.
I tried getting out of Derek's hold for the first time, which was surprisingly easy. I padded over to the bathroom, grabbing my dirty clothes from yesterday from the washing basket in the process.
I shifted back and got changed slowly in the bathroom, not wanting to go out there and face him. To waste time, I washed my hands in the sink, using the new hand softener that I had only just opened afterwards. The smell was revolting. "Elysium! Don't make me come in there!" I could tell that Derek was getting angry but I didn't want to go out there. What would he say? Would he shout at me?
My thought process was shut off by Derek storming into the bathroom, his eyes red and dangerous. Oh no. I whimpered at the sight of him, towering over me, blocking my only chance of escape. What would he do to me?
DEREK P.O.V
She was on the floor, shaking. I was taken back to the first time that I had seen her; I had been threatening her then. Did I want to hurt her again? I shifted my eyes back and she immediately softened. "I'm not going to hurt you Elysium - I just want to know why you ran off," was she going to speak to me? She did after she looked up, a new found emotion in her eyes. What was it? Anger? Sadness? A mixture.
"You don't understand Derek, being the only one left in your pack. You have Peter, somebody to help you through it. Me, I'm all alone," didn't she see that she wasn't alone; she had me, and Scott, and Melissa.
"Look here, Elysium. My uncle is a cold blooded killer, the only reason that he's alive is because he knows more about all of this shit than we do!" I was alone. I thought that she changed that but by the looks of things, both of us nose – to – nose, shouting at each other in her bathroom, she didn't want me, She had left me when I kissed her, confused about her feelings. And there I was, yelling at her because I couldn't control my anger. I didn't deserve her.
"But at least you have somebody! Somebody to talk to, somebody to sympathise with!"
"Peter! Sympathetic! Have you even seen the man? He's sarcastic and rude and the least sympathetic person I know. I thought that I had you, Elys, but obviously I was wrong, I can't do this." Her eyes had brightened when I called her Elys but by telling her that I couldn't handle it, I must have broken something inside of her. She slumped back to the floor in defeat. Now I definitely didn't deserve her, every time I was with her, I hurt her. I threw my hands up in expiration; she was still on the floor, crying softly.
With one last glance, I went back out of the window.
I didn't know what to do about my feelings towards Elysium.
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