After the world was restored to its original state, we celebrated for a whole week, doing nothing but eating, sleeping, and basically just chilling. I was back home and I intended to make the most of it. Everything we did, we did together as friends. Even though I hated it, I played Stankball and did some weird, human hobby with Starfire, painting my nails. I was referee of the game and Cyborg beat Beast Boy by 30 to nothing, with the exceptions of Beast Boy eating Cyborg's arm with his giant T-Rex head. I painted my nails blue, though Starfire really wanted to go all out with pink and a full makeover. I was back to my old life, being a teen Titan.

With my destiny fulfilled, I thought I would be free and happier, but in truth, even though Trigon was gone, it still felt as if he would come back. I was masking my worry with my concerns for other more recent commotions. After Robin and I shared our first kiss, I felt like I could live the life the way I want it. I was free from everything, all my insecurities and doubts disappeared while he held me tightly in his arms and kissed me in the sun.

The only problem is, Starfire really, and I mean really, loves Robin. Whenever we hang out together, she always talks about how she has loved Robin ever since she met him and she begs for any sort of advice, not that I could help. They have always had a connection, I was sure they would end up together and I would remain in solitude, but no, he chose me over her. That tells me that our relationship is real and strong, but Starfire and I have been really close, one of my closest friends, besides Robin. If she found out Robin were having an affair behind her back, she would hate me. Even though I would never admit it, if I lost her, I would lose myself too.

I laid in my bed, staring out of my window at the bustling city I protected. I admired the courage these people had, to always face their fears, to stand up for themselves. I have protected them, but in turn, they have taught me how to stand up for myself. I belong here, defending my city with my heart. I turned over onto my other side, shutting my blue eyes and falling into a deep sleep.

-Dream-

"Daughter, we meet again," a voice echoed in my head.

I opened my eyes and gasped at my surroundings. I stood in the middle of a cave filled with lava, the darkness evading the light. I twirled in circles, trying to figure out where I was. Finally meeting the four red eyes of Trigon, I held back a whimper and held my head tall. I would not show weakness.

"What do you want?" I asked with venom on my tongue.

"I want what's rightfully mine, your world and your HEART," he said, his voice echoing around me, shaking the walls.

"You can't, I exiled you from this world, you have no way to get here," I retorted.

"So you think, I have my ways. You may have fulfilled your destiny as the portal, but I will figure out a way to get there and take your life," he said with his gruff, deep voice.

"NO, I WON'T LET YOU! YOU CAN'T!" I yelled, my eyes wide with the horror of him hurting my friends, hurting Robin.

"Stupid girl, I don't take orders from a little liar, especially one who betrayed their friend. Yes I know everything, and I will make them suffer on your account, but no harm shall come to them if you do what I say," he said.

"What do I need to do," I asked.

"You have already fulfilled your density, but you still have the power to become the portal again," he said.

My heart skipped a beat at the reality of his words. He was right, I would always have the darkness of my past locked up in my heart, I would always have the power to be bad.

"Why should I listen to you. YOU CAN'T RETURN, NOT WITHOUT MY CONSENT!" I screamed.

I collapsed on the ground and gripped the sides of my head, shaking back and forth, wanting to escape this nightmare.

-End of Dream-

I woke up screaming with sweat matted to the sides of my head. My heart was racing like lightning and I was panting hard. My body was shaking with utter terror. How could he come back? Was it even possible? Could the end of my world happen again? My body went frigid when I heard somebody walk down the hallway. I bolted upright into my defensive position, afraid of who it was. I used my powers to lock the door while I stood in front of it. My heart hammered until I heard a solemn knock on the door. I froze where I was.

"Hey Raven, you okay. I heard you scream," Robin said to the door.

I immediately relaxed and unlocked the door using my powers. I eased out of my crouched position and opened up the door.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just had a nightmare, that's all," I said as calmly as possible, but Robin knew I faking it.

"Raven, talk to me. We haven't talked since that kiss, our first kiss," he said while he rocked back and forth on his heels.

"Yeah, I know. I just have had a lot on my mind," I said while hugging my chest.

"You can tell me anything, I will support you. What's going on that I don't know?" he asked.

I knew he wasn't going to let the subject drop, he wasn't going to give up, not for me.

"Come in, please," I said while motioning for him to enter.

My heart rate picked up when he obliged. It was the first time he had ever been in my room. He was such a good man, a man I had fallen for, he now had chances to find out why I'm guarded and secretive, why I am so distant from everyone.

"Raven, tell me, please," he said while sitting on my bed.

I didn't say a word, I didn't want him to worry about me, I didn't want him to get hurt protecting me. That was the last thing I wanted for him.

"I...I don't think I can tell you, it's too difficult," I said while slowly sitting next to him.

"Raven, life isn't easy. There are always going to be challenges that we all have to face. When you don't face the difficulties, they only become harder. I want to help you, but I can't unless you tell me what is wrong," he said while staring into my eyes.

I stared back into his and took a deep breath. I had to tell him.

"Well, if you really want to know...I had a dream, or nightmare is more like it. Trigon knows I am still weak, that he can come back through my consent," I said quietly.

"What, we kicked him out of here?" Robin stammered.

"I know, but I still have darkness roaming my heart. I still can be a servant of his. I already fulfilled my destiny, leaving me freedom to do what I want. I have the power to become the portal once more and bring him back here," I replied, interrupting him.

"But Raven, you have choices, you don't have to be evil like him, you can be whoever you want," he said.

"I don't have choices, not ME! Don't you get it, he is threatening me by threatening your lives. He said, if I don't transport him here, he'll hurt you guys, I can't have that. Not now, after all we've been through," I said with tears now streaming down my cheeks.

Robin grabbed my waist and pulled me close to him, my head pressed into his chest. His arms cradled my head as I cried. I wrapped my arms around him as I thought about losing him to my own doing. I couldn't bear to lose Robin, he was my life now that I needed to protect. I had told him everything, everything but the fact that Trigon was coming back to not only take over, but to kill me.