After regaining my composure, I walked down the stairs from the roof through the empty hallways. I thought about everything I was dealing with. Either way, the portal was going to be opened, whether I liked it or not. My plan before involved Robin dying and the new plan was that everyone would be safe, but Trigon wasn't one to trust. I didn't know what to do.
I made my way through the maze of halls and corridors, until I heard screaming from the main room. Walking faster, I sped towards the room and placed my ear on the door to listen.
"What were you doing with Raven?" Starfire screamed.
"I was kissing her, I LOVE HER! Don't you get it, we'll never be more than just friends. I have tried to tell you nicely ever since we met, I have tried to tell you I wasn't interested. I am your friend and this hurts me to say this to you, but I never loved you that way. I love Raven, I would die for her," Robin said with annoyance tinting his voice.
It sounded like they were at each other for over an hour. I felt terrible and unprepared for this talk between all of us. My heart was racing when I finally got enough courage to walk into the room. The second the door slid open and I stepped inside, the room fell silent. I heard my heart banging against my ribcage, the blood pulsing so fast through me as my ragged breathing only increased in speed. Starfire stopped shouting and turned to face me with a pained face. She had tears falling down her cheeks as she began to walk over to me.
"You kissed Robin," she said once she was right in front of me. "You kissed him in front of me. You have always known how I've felt about him, how dare you betray our friendship by kissing the man I love," she said with anger rising in her voice.
"It was never my intention for you to find out this way. I'm so sorry. I love Robin, I always have," I said with distraught as she was eye to eye with me.
"You lie and hurt people, how could I ever believe you. Face it, you have always hated me, and this is how you made me hate you," Starfire said.
I looked down at my feet as I felt a tear drop from my eyes to the floor. My fingers fiddled with each other as I felt my heart break. She was right, what kind of a person was I? After I nearly broke down in front of her, she huffed and left the room. Without even caring, I collapsed on the floor and hugged my arms to my chest. I had lost my best friends trust, how could I ever win it back?
Hours past as I sat on the floor, thinking about everything that I was going through. I hated the pain, but it made me realize that this wasn't a dream or something I could just run away from or forget about. Facing this problem was all I could do to fix what I had caused.
We ate dinner in silence, the teen titans. I sat with nobody next to me, Robin and Star usually sat to my left and right, but they weren't here. Star was in her room, crying uncontrollably and Robin was attempting to console her, but she wouldn't let him. Cyborg and Beast Boy sat across from, eating while staring at me with disgust. They were as mad at me as Starfire was.
"You know, Raven, this is way too dark, even for you," Cyborg said.
"Yeah, kissing Robin in front of her is way low, and I know low," Beast Boy agreed.
"Yeah bro, but seriously, Raven, get a grip on yourself. You are either high or evil, you need to apologize and break up with your boy toy, before you break his heart like Star's," Cyborg said while getting up from the table with Beast Boy.
I watched as they walked out of the room without looking back. The moment they left, I got up from the table and walked over to the window looking over our city. It was dark and the stars were dim. They always shined brightly, so this was new and weird. I admired the beauty of the dark night sky and the moon that was pearly white and luminous. Tonight, they weren't visible to my eyes. It reminded me that nothing is always perfect, that mistakes can happen or things change. To me, it gave me a reason to fix this, so that things would be normal again.
I walked down the hallway on the way to my room with my hands wrapped around my waist. Each step echoed off into the distance and every breath dispersed into the open space. I was thinking over everything I had to do, starting with the one thing I wanted to do least.
Minutes later, I heard footsteps behind me. Knowing that they were Robin's, I started to walk faster. Even with an increase in speed, he still caught up to me very quickly.
Robin slowed once he matched my pace and wrapped his arm around my waist, our fingers touching and beginning to intertwine. I lowered my head when the electricity between us began to flow, the sparks surging through me and making my heart beat faster than ever. It took a ton of willpower not to smile and not kiss him like I used to. I had to do this now, before it was too late.
"Robin, I need to tell you something," I said slowly while looking directly into his eyes.
"Okay, tell me," Robin said while stopping and facing me directly.
"This isn't working, we aren't working, you need to leave me alone," I said whiles looking down.
"You don't mean that," he said quickly with shock.
"Yes I do, I never loved you and I know you want Star, so just leave me alone before I hurt you," I said with tears dripping my eyelashes.
"No, I love you. Please, don't leave me," he said while touching my cheek.
I looked into his eyes and felt the tears start to fall. Using all my strength, I held the pain back from taking over. I looked into his eyes as he began to move in and place a kiss onto my lips. The moment his lips touched mine, a spark of our electricity bubbled and shot through me like a rocket. I felt as if I were on fire, I didn't want it to stop.
"Robin, this is hard for me, I want you to be happy with someone you love," I said while pulling away.
"Raven, you had to have felt that. We have so much chemistry and electricity, to me, it tells me you want me more," he said.
"Goodbye Robin," I said while tearing away from his grasp and walked down the hall while trying not to look back.
Of course I didn't want to leave him, but I knew it wasn't fair of me to do this to my friends, after everything they did for me. I had also made up my decision, I wasn't going to follow the deal with Trigon. I hated my own plan, but he wasn't to be trusted. I was smart enough to know that this was my choice, and that my decision would save us all. I was going to have to kill Robin, whether I liked it or not. I would do everything I could to prevent that from happening, but if the time came, I would have to do it. Before that time came, I would protect him with my life, to let him live a little longer. I already knew it, but we were soul mates. I would rather kill myself, but it wasn't enough to save my friends. Robin would do the same if he were in my position.