Next day morning Merlin hadn't know why but he felt like passing through the park they had been at yesterday. When he did he hadn`t been expecting what he saw or heard.

"You idiot! This is all you fault! Just like everything else is! It had been better if you hadn`t been born! Mom would still be alive!" The next thing he heard was a dark hared woman storm out of the house slamming the door behind her.

When Arthur came out of it face red as if he had been slapped he realized he had heard something he had no right to. Then Arthur's eyes met with Merlin's and just like that Arthur stormed away.

When lunch came Merlin started to worry that Arthur might not come today. After he settle down he gave up and started to eat his half of the lunch and just then Arthur closed the door behind him. "God Arthur!" Merlin jumped startled. "Now you know how it feels." He said as he approached Merlin.

"About this morning-"

"It's ok Arthur you don`t have to tell me if you don`t want to." Merlin cut him off. "NO, no; I want to tell you." Merlin nodded him to continue as Arthur sat down across him. "What`s your story?" Merlin asked like it was something usual, an everyday occurrence. "My mother, she died having me..." Arthur said almost in a whisper. "My father can`t stand looking at my face because he says I look like her and Morgana well, she hate`s me...she says I took her away from her."

Merlin did`t know what to say to him. He tough hearing his troubles would make Arthur feel better, now that he had someone to tell this to but...then what? What was he supposed to do? He did`t know how to react but then, he tough of what he would like Arthur to react like if he told him anything then... "Arthur, I don`t know what you have been told. But, your mother loved you."

Arthur`s reaction, he looked at the sky to not see it as tempting as it was he knew Arthur wash`t one to cry infront of others. Much like him then..."How can you know and say that?" Arthur asked voice broken; it made Merlin`s heart hurt to even hear it. "Because she gave birth to you, her love to you was unconditional no matter what you may think of it. She loved you and she always will. She would be sad if you took your life away because of her, you can`t do that to her."

"Sorry, I-I`m sorry..."

Merlin could`t even think of a crying Arthur but, he probably should have seen this coming. Who would`t break down with a situation like that. He had been strong enough for too long. Merlin came to Arthur`s side and started stoking his head. "Everything thing is going to be alright."

This...this. He had no words for this. Right now he wanted to smack Arthur in the head so hard people would start questioning their relationship. "ARTHUR GET DOWN FRON THERE RIGHT NOW." He had no idea where the words he had told Arthur had gone to but it certainly was`t to his head. "Arthur how many times do I have to say it to get it into that thick skull of yours! This-" He said gesturing the place. "is not going to solve anything."

"Maybe, but it isn`t like I have anything to live for." Arthur said back looking down from where he was standing at the fast flow of the water under the bridge. "and it in`t like anyone cares either."

The bridge they were in was not far from the park they had been in the day before but it was just as deserted. "I care!" Merlin yelled back. "No you don`t."

"You can`t tell me how to feel!" Merlin spat back getting closer to him. "If you jump," Merlin climbed and stood beside Arthur. "I`ll jump with you."

There was no way Merlin was that much of an idiot. No-one was. He had nothing, what was so great about living anyways the only good thing that had probably happened to him in this past year before he started resembling his mother and Morgana had comeback to live with them had probably been meeting Merlin...Merlin in the other hand had to have something or someone in his life he would`t end it just because he would.

Arthur closed his eyes and leaned forward. He looked as he fell backwards expecting to see Merlin up there staring down at him. But no...

His eyes went wide as he saw Merlin fall with him and then everything went black.

That idiot...

As he opened his eyes he started coughing. He coughed none stop for a while and after he calmed down his heart started beating faster in realization.

"Merlin."

He could`t find him anywhere. Merlin, the idiot that made him panic when he wash`t at school,

Where was he...?

the one that could get a smile out of him, the one who laughed at his ridiculous jokes.

He could`t find him.

Merlin, the one that made him want to live, the one that made him want to stay alive...

"Where are you...? You can`t leave me here alone..." his eyes started to get watery and he could hardly breath. His eyes felt hot and his heart beat increased by minute. If he had-

"No, this can`t be right..." Merlin would never leave him. Merlin was`t supposed to leave him he can't leave him!

"Arthur!" He heard a familiar voice call from behind him and as he turned he could make a face out of it. His clothes where all wet and he was carrying a folded towel and he had another one around his neck. "You are awake!" Merlin trowed him a towel he barely catch. "Arthur, are you ok?" Merlin asked as he got closer to him.

"I`m bloody well not!" He screamed at him standing up. "I tough you where dead!" Arthur scowled at him. "Don`t just dissapear right after you jump of a bridge with someone! You gave me a heart attack!"

"Uhum, So are you going t tell me WHY THE HELL YOU ALMOST DIED!" Merlin yelled at him.

"And you idiot I can`t believe you actually jumped! Why did you do that, you could have died!" Arthur ignored Merlin`s protests. "So could have you..." Merlin spat back.

"Why did you do that? Didn`t you say not to end your life like that?!"

"Or any way actually. Why? Because I can`t forgive you if you die before me. "

"Why?" Asked Arthur raising his eye sight do he could face Merlin.

"Because then I would have one less person to live for..."

"Merlin, I`m-" sorry...I won`t do that again. Those words he didn`t say were stuck in his throat but Merlin cought them. How could he have been so slefish?! Now that he though about it what was Merlins story?