A/N
I know it has been a while but I have had trouble with inspiration for lots of my stories, I will not stop writing them but it may take some time. I am going to enforce a rule for most of my stories if I do not get at least 2 reviews I will not update. In response to studyofchaos's review – The way I'm writing it is that Buffy is not a bad person, she does feel guilty about what she did to Xander. But she is also a very stubborn person, so she will not admit that she did wrong. In the first couple of chapters she was still on a high from the spell she did not feel guilty.
Disclaimer – I do not own BtVS. I only own Meg, Blake and Ellie and any other OC's that I throw in here.

Previously

Buffy woke up covered in sweat, she trembled as the dream came back to her. She knew it was just a dream, but she also knew that that her dream self said was true. It was her fault, she had almost killed him, her Xander-shaped friend.

Getting Up she searched her room for something, when she found it she walked back to her bed. Looking at the picture in her hands, she curled up into a ball holding the picture close to her heart. And drifted off to sleep.

The light of the moon fell through her window and illuminated the picture of Buffy, Willow and Xander smiling happily, that was cradled in her arms.

Several months later (almost at the end of the year but before graduation, Faith has come to Sunny-D but she has not turned evil as . . . well I'll leave you to work it out)

Buffy was sitting in her usual spot; she was talking to Willow and Oz. If anyone was watching them it would look like a casual group chat, when really they were planning.

Buffy had told Willow and Oz about what she and Faith had found out from their raid of the Mayor's office. Giles was busy in the Library researching and translating the books they had taken. Faith had told them that she did not really want to get in the way of the Scoobies planning session.

But they all guessed that it was because she felt guilty for what she had been forced to do. Buffy also felt guilty for the life she and Faith had taken.

Cordelia was sitting with them but she was not a part of the groups conversation, she never was. She had turned into a shell of the person she was, she never wore make-up anymore, the only clothes you ever saw her in were black, mainly jeans and a simple tie-shirt, nothing that the old Cordelia would have been seen dead in, and her hair which had previously fallen down her back had been cut and now hung just above her chin. She never openly started or joined a conversation, but sat there staring into space. It turns out that she really did love Xander, and him leaving caused her to relies this.

At this current moment they were trying to work out when the mayor was going to take action. Over the loud speaker Snider announced that the school must prepared for a basketball game against an L.A. school that was the current champion. Everyone looked over at Cordelia hoping that she was going to perk up at the mention of the chance to cheerlead, but she remained as emotionless as ever.

The basketball game was to be the next day and everyone was forced to attend. Willow let out a little giggle at that before looking at Buffy "Are you going or you planning to patrol with Faith?" Buffy considered this for a moment before answering "I probably will, Snider has been looking for a chance to get me out." Everyone nodded; there was a quiet moment when everyone almost expected Xander to say something funny or something to cheer everyone up; before they all remembered that Xander was gone and probably never coming back.

The bell rang and everyone went their separate ways.

. . . . . .

Buffy ran through the graveyard after Faith, he stake in hand.

She had been talking to Faith about what was happening at school and she asked Faith if she wanted to come to the basketball game; Faith had seemed interested and asked if what school they were versing.

The moment she had said it was L.A. Faith had frozen up and when Buffy had asked what was wrong Faith had bolted. Buffy was looking around; she had followed Faith to the edge of the graveyard when Faith had just disappeared.

Cursing quietly Buffy looked through the bushes, in the vain hope of finding any clues as to where Faith had gone. Finding nothing she had turned around and come face to face with a hungry looking vamp.

Buffy looked at the vamp and dropped to her knees.

The vampire smiled "Well. Turns out that slayers are not as had to kill as they seem; huh blondie" it stalked forward to where Buffy sat on her feet, one hand behind her back. "I mean at the sight of vampire they go all weak at the knees and fall over" he grabbed Buffy by the neck and lifted her to her feet.

As soon as the vampire had done that Buffy smiled and brought out her arm from behind her back, swung the stake in her hand forward and through the heart of the vamp. "No, I just dropped my stake". She then turned and continued looking for Faith.

. . . . . .

When Buffy walked into school the next day she was tired and grumpy, she had spent most the night looking for Faith. Finding nothing but she had thought she had seen Faith a couple of times hiding in the trees.

She did not however expect to see Angel join in her search with her. She did have to admit that once Angel had started helping she had gotten very distracted by him and him by her.

She greeted Willow, Oz and Cordelia at the door of the school. They quickly walked to the cafeteria with the rest of their year. Knowing the other years were meeting in different rooms. The teachers were quick to remind them to be on their best behaviour as they were all representing their school.

A student from the other school came in to tell them how this day was going to go. The doors opened and a girl Buffy's age came in, she was around average height, had a good tan and her dark brown hair went down to her shoulders with multiple streaks in it. Her bright green eyes sparkled mysteriously as they darted around the room; Buffy noticed them take in all the doors, windows and possible exits.

The girl had a friendly smile on her face as she addressed the year, "Hi everyone, I'm supposed to tell y'all what is happening today as my teachers 'volunteered' me to help with this. So I guess I'll start with my name so that if you have any questions you can hopefully find me or any other 'volunteers' and ask.

Right, my name is Megan; the other 'volunteers' are Sammie, Claire, Harry, Alex and Mitchel. So remember that if you need help, the order in which we are doing things today are that you will spent most the morning in class – some of our student will be joining in some of your classes if they want to – and then we will all go and watch the game, at half time there shall be a cheerleading comp between our schools.

Followed by the rest of the game, after that we are hoping that we can convince your principle to give you the rest of the day off to hang out with our school and hopefully show some people around the school and town." Once she finished she walked from the room and disappeared around the corner.

Buffy could not help but be suspicious of the mysterious girl. Willow and Oz brushed off her suspicion and Cordelia was as irresponsive as ever. Shaking her head to clear it she walked to her first class; there was a person she had never seen before. They were obliviously from the L.A. school; the girl from that school was short and had fiery red hair that was tied in a messy bun; the girls coffee brown eyes met Buffy's for a second before her gaze hardened into a steely glare.

As the L.A. girl moved up to the back corner, once everyone was sitting down Buffy leaned over to Willow and whispered to her "Did you see the L.A. girl in our class?" Willow shook her head a fraction before responding "No. Where is she?" Buffy motioned with her head and Willow threw a quick glance in the girl direction "Did you know she was glaring at you?" Willow asked quietly. Buffy nodded; she had felt the girl's glare burning into her back the whole time.

Once class was over Buffy almost cried in relief, it was one of the most boring classes ever; it was not made any easier by the fact the girl from L.A. would not stop glaring at her the whole time. All Buffy wanted to do was go to the cafeteria and get some food; but she was not able to stop herself from following the red headed girl through the labyrinth of corridors that was the school.

No person who has not been to the school for a couple of weeks would be able to find their way through the school the way this girl did. Final the girl stopped out the front of the library, she quickly looked around before carefully walking in, Buffy was tempted to follow her but she could not do so unless she broke her cover. Watching through the window in the door she saw the girl meet up with three other people; one if whom she recognised as the girl from the meeting this morning. They seemed to be talking, then the only male in the group motioned to the door and they all started moving in that direction.

Buffy quickly ran down the hall and into the yard; determined to find her friends. She had almost made it when a familiar voice stopped her. They were calling out someone's name; Buffy spun around faster than she could have thought possible.

Upon seeing the face Buffy almost collapsed to the ground. They were not looking at her but she could still tell it was them. They started walking away having not seen her; she could not stop herself as she suddenly gained control over her body again.

Her voice sounded almost strangled as she called out his name. "Xander"

A/N
So how did you guys like that? It took me a while to write but once I started I had trouble stopping, I think it got a little sloppy towards the end. I could be so mean and stop writing right there but I want to write more and explain heaps more. So this story is probably going to end in like 3 to 5 chapters, although if you guys keep reviewing I can keep writing for more than that. And as to how Faith has been acting you will find out soon, unless you really smart people have already worked it out. The red haired girl will also be explained later. So please review.
Thanks to chinas and studyofchaos for reviewing this chapter