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Many people have been asking about Edward lately. So I thought we needed to explain what he's been up to for the last few chapters. Here's chapter 26, Enjoy!

I lay on the floor of my room, staring at the white ceiling. I hadn't moved for…I'm really not sure how long I had been lying there. The days, hours, minutes, they all passed by without any real meaning. Just like my existence. It no longer held any meaning.

Bella was dead…

Bella was gone…

Bella would never smile again…

Bella would never cry again…

Bella would never laugh again…

Bella was dead…

Bella was dead…

These thoughts continued to run through my mind endlessly. There was no more point in breathing, no point in speaking, or moving, or existing for that matter. The thoughts of my family filtered through my mind like a language I didn't know, words connected in sentences that made no sense. Sometimes they came into my room and tried to talk to me, but I never responded, never moved, never even heard what they said. It didn't matter anymore.

Because Bella was dead.

I've heard people say that when someone dies, they can't seem to comprehend the death. It takes them awhile to fully grasp the concept that that person will never speak to them again, or come to another day of work. But it wasn't like this for me. I knew she was gone, I believed she had left this world. Was it because I had always accepted the fact that she was human, and would die someday? Was it because I had watched as her heart slowed and stopped?

This fact still vexed me. Why had I been forced to watch as everything that held meaning in my world was ripped from me? While my heart, cold and frozen as it was, was shattered into a million pieces? How was I even able to see her, wherever she may have been.

Someone walked into my room as my thoughts perplexed me. The sat down next to me, then leaned back to lie on the floor, their head next to mine. I didn't acknowledge them, I just continued to stare at the ceiling. They were talking or saying something, but none of the words registered. Their noise ended suddenly as I was picked up and thrown against a wall.

"Listen to me dammit!" Alice yelled, and I heard her words for the first time. I didn't move from my crumpled position on the floor.

"Why?" I whispered to her. She walked over and picked me up by the collar and held me against the wall. I gazed at the floor, not wanting to look her in the eye.

"You can't go on like this Edward!" she yelled, "You're killing yourself!"

"Good, I want to die." I whispered.

"Not like that! You're…I can't explain it! You're dying inside!" She yelled, but I slowly slid back down to stand on the floor. Her hands remained at my collar, and she was shaking her head. "You lie up here in your room everyday! Jasper can't even be in the house, he's going crazy! Emmett has stopped laughing, Esme's locked herself in her room, Carlisle is trying to keep everyone from going insane, and I'm so miserable I can't see anything!" Her last part surprised me.

"You…can't see…"

"No! I can't see anyone's future! Do you know how hard that is?! To not know what's going to happen to us! Everyone's miserable, it's not just you! I've lost a sister, Esme's lost a daughter, we've all lost something!" She let me go and sank to the floor. I realized that Carlisle and Rosalie were standing in the doorway. Emmett was behind them.

"She's right, Edward." Carlisle said, "We all have lost her, we all have lost some one we thought was going to be part of the family, who already was part of the family. We need to get through this together."

Emmett walked over and helped Alice up. I just stood there as he walked her over to the couch. Rosalie went to go sit with them as Carlisle walked over to me.

"I don't know, Carlisle…I just don't know if anything is worth doing know…" I whispered, and he took me into an embrace.

"What would Bella have wanted you to do?" He asked simply.

I had never thought about that question before. What would Bella have wanted me to do if she knew this was going to happen? When I had told her that if she died, I was planning to end my existence, she was appalled. So now, I couldn't do that.

"Bella would have wanted me to…be happy." I choked out. And Carlisle nodded as he led me to the window. The rest of the family watched me intently, waiting for my next words. "Bella would have wanted me to keep living, and to…exist."

"She would have wanted us all to continue, to keep living." Esme said as she walked in the room. Carlisle left me to walk over and embrace her.

I didn't want to keep living. I didn't want to go through my life like I had before she had showed me everything that life could be. I wanted to wrap myself in a curtain of darkness, I wanted to stop feeling. I wanted to close my eyes and make the pain in the abyss where my heart had once been go away. But Bella wouldn't want that. She would want me to keep feeling, because that would mean I was alive.

"So what do we do now?" Emmett asked.

"I think we need to leave here. Forks isn't going to help any of us right now." Carlisle said calmly. Esme nodded in his arms.

So we packed the cars. I stood in my room one last time and gazed out the window. How was I supposed to be happy when all I ever wanted wasn't something I could never have again?

"Are you ready to go Edward?" I heard Carlisle ask from downstairs.

"Where are we going?" I asked quietly, knowing he could still hear.

"Alaska, then we'll think about our next step."

But I already new what my next step would be. Brendon had to die. I was going to find him, and I was going to make sure he never smiled again, he never cried again, he never laughed again. Everything he had taken from Bella, I would take from him.

Go go Edward! Chapter's from his perspective always seem to be shorter than others. But he's Edward, so that's okay! Please review, cause everyone knows that I care what you think!

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