These past four months have gone by too fast. Cuddy has been slowly getting weaker by the day. It is going to happen soon, I just know it. I can't stand the thought of living without her, but when I woke up this morning that thought became a reality.
I woke up to her moaning in pain. I asked what was wrong and she said her head was killing her, she at first brushed it off as nothing, but I knew something was wrong. I made her go to the hospital, and basically dragged her in there. I was her attending, which some people think wouldn't be a good idea, but she insisted on it.
As soon as I got her settled into her room I gave her morphine, which she said didn't help, but it took the edge off. Now I am just sitting here next to her, just holding her hand, which is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I have had to watch the woman that I love slowly die. My thoughts were interrupted by my hand being squeezed. I turned to see Cuddy awake, her blue eyes staring into mine.
"Hey, how do you feel?" She yawned.
"I'm okay, it doesn't hurt." She was lying; she was biting her bottom lip.
"Cuddy, I-I" She interrupted me.
"Don't say it. I know, but it's happening Greg, it is almost here, I can feel it." I felt tears starting to form in my eyes.
"I know, but I don't know how I can go on without you." She wiped a tear off of my cheek.
"That is why I left you custody of Rachel, so you have someone who needs you, and someone that you need. You need to get over it, for Rachel." She was right, but it is just too hard.
"I promise I will always be there for Rachel, no matter what. I love you so much Lisa Cuddy." She smiled.
"I love you too Greg House, more than you'll ever know." I leaned down and placed a kiss on her lips, I couldn't help but think, that this might be the last time. Then her heart monitor started to beep fast, too fast.
No! Then the beeping stopped; now it was just a steady rhythm. I just froze, it was like I couldn't move, and she was gone. It was so fast, one minute I was talking to her, and the next nothing. I just kept staring at her; she finally looked at peace, after nearly four months of suffering. She was finally at peace.