2: Secrets

I stepped closer to the three of them and smiled. "Good morning.", I tried not to look quite as nervous as a actually was. It wasn't a secret that I've spent more time on my music than on my movie career the last couple of years. Paul was the one who actually got me into this whole music thing. He was the one who encouraged me all the time. We recorded our first album together and I really couldn't believe how much fun it was. But all because of that I've lost my movie career a little bit out of sight and only participated in smaller movie productions. Nothing similar to Twilight. I still could not believe that David Fincher invited me to the early audition. "How are you today?", asked David and greeted me with a polite nod. He did not seem to expect an answer to his question. "This is Mary, co-producer and this is Lisa, co-screenwriter."

"Hello.", I said and stepped excitedly from one foot to another. "We're just waiting for our male lead. As soon as he's here, we can start.", David said and began to scroll through the documents laying in front of him. I wish I'd know who else has been invited to the audition. But the thing that I was even more interested in was, who would play the male leading part ...

A few seconds later, the door opened again behind us. "Man … next time I'll take the elevator. This is nothing compared to Mount Everest." I've heard a familiar voice. I hesitated. No, this can't be … David's face lit up. "Right on time.", he said and smiled. "Now we can start." I wanted to turn around, just to make sure that I haven't heard what I thought I've heard. I knew this voice but I wanted to make sure that my ears were playing tricks on me. But than I paused for a second. I felt a slight tremor came over my body. I took a deep breath and turned around. I haven't been wrong at all. Peter. Peter Facinelli. I paused, swallowed, about to suffocate, trying hard to hide my surprise and most of all the panic, that came over me. Peter. It was him. Definitely. Oh my gosh, he and no one else. It's been almost two years since we've last seen each other. Of course we saw each other at parties and premieres we had to encounter, but since the day, we've finally said good bye to each other, we haven't spoken a word at all. Peter was the one, to whom I have lost my heart five years ago. Since our first day of shooting; since the day I've seen him for the first time I fell in love with him. Madly in love. So much that it almost hurt. During the filming of the movie 'New Moon' we've started and affair. Unplanned and unwanted. We were surprised by our emotions. Back then he decided to leave his wife Jennie, but only six months later he had chosen his wife over me. My heart broke into a million pieces. My heart was dying; I could not eat; haven't been laughing in like forever and got completely lost in the world where I didn't want to live anymore. It was Paul who's pulled me out of this hole. But now I know that we got married to early; that Paul was just a distraction from the feelings I've had for Peter. I could not deny that I had to think of Peter like almost every single day of the past two years but now he was standing in front of me – looking almost as shocked as me. If I should get this role, I would spend the next couple of months with him. Here in New York.

"Peter, this is Nicole Reed." David interrupted my thoughts. "If you've got your text ready, we can start right away."

"Um … yeah … yeah", Peter stammered and took a step toward me. No matter how hard I tried to take my eyes from him, I couldn't. "Hey Nikki.", he greeted me with a hoarse voice and held out his hand to me. I still stared at him, not saying a word. Just say something. Anything. I wasn't able to speak. I took Peter's hand and only a second later he pulled me into his arms. "Good to see you.", I heard him say softly, while I was still searching for the right words. My entire body was shaking. I had totally forgotten how nice it felt to be in his arms. Within a second he broke away from me and let go of me. I sighed softly. Relieved. Disappointed. Confused. "Oh that's right you guys already know each other." David grinned and pushed his hand against his forehead. "You were working together on that vampire movie … right. That's even better. I'm pretty sure this will be a good day." Well, I wasn't sure if today really was a good day.

Two bar stools were standing in the middle of the room. I knew the script and right before the audition my agent has told me the scene we would rehearse. "Well, since you two already know each other and have worked together on a movie before, I'm pretty sure we can start right away without any preparations." I took a deep breath. I was prepared. I knew my text; I knew what to do, how to act. The only thing that overwhelmed me a little was Peter's presence. "Go Ahead.", David said and nodded.

"What are you doing here?", Peter blared at me. Now he wasn't Peter anymore; he was Leo Jones, the main character of David Fincher's new Movie 'The Future Wife'. "The last time you were here, you said you never want to see me again and now you're back." "I ...", I said softly, clearing my throat. For a moment my whole brain was empty. I totally forgot how to start and it took me a couple of seconds until I remembered my text again. I cleared my throat. "Believe me, this is the last place I want to be right now." I sighed and looked down. "But I've still got a few things here that I need." Peter laughed and shook his head. "Really? You want me to believe you that this is the only reason why you came? Don't be ridiculous" Peter jumped up from the bar stool and walked over to me. "You told me that you don't want so see me ever again, and now your here. With that stupid excuse? Just be honest and tell my, why you're really here." There was an angry growl in his voice. I was playing the role of a lover; a woman who's heart got ripped out of her chest. A woman who had destroyed the marriage of a man. Bad karma. Very bad karma. I also stood up from the bar stool. My face was glowing. "You're right. I haven't left anything here. I lost something and I want it back."

"What the hell are you talking about?", he snarled and took another step toward me. "You know exactly what I'm talking about. You took everything from me. I left my family and friends behind; you have taken whole life from me and now you just want to drop me? Just like that? Without an explanation? I'm not some kids toy you can throw away if you're tired of it." I was standing right in front of him, so close that our faces almost touched. Peter grabbed me by my arms and looked at me angrily. "If you would have told me, that you didn't want this; all of this, I would have let you go. But you were the one who came back over again. Not me. Don't forget about that." He pulled me toward himself. His face was close to mine; but before our lips touched, he paused and pressed his cheek to my own. "You know that you are the only reason why I haven't end this thing between us already." My whole body was shaking. I knew it wasn't real; I knew we were just acting but all of this felt so damn real. I could not stop a faint sob deep down in my throat. Then he let go off me. A huge fire was burning inside of me as I realized, what has just happened between us.

"Perfect," David said. "Perfect, perfect, perfect. Damn, you two are great together. I guess that's it for today. There is no need to wait for the other girls to arrive. Nikki, you're exactly what I was looking for. You and Peter will make this movie a blockbuster. I'm sure this will work out just awesome. I've never been so sure before." I took me a second before I realized what David's just said. I got the part? Damn! Yes, I did it! "Does that mean that ...", Peter began, but Mary interrupted. "Well yes, Nikki has the role." She smiled.

"Really? I got the part?" All three of them nodded. I still could not believe it. "Yes you do. Okay guys, a lot of Zoey's are waiting outside. We need to tell them that we have already given the part to someone else. Just make yourself a nice day; enjoy your free time. If all goes well we will start shooting on Thursday." I was glad that I've gotten the role. That was the first step towards a new future. But on the other hand, I wasn't sure if I should really take the role. Me and Peter? I had no idea if that would work out well ...